Disclaimer: As before this will be my only disclaimer for this story. I don't own any inuyasha anything nor do i own any of the songs used in htis story.

Chapter 1

" So you can't remember anything. Anything at all? " The man that I had come to know as Sesshomaru, who also said I was his mate, paced in front of the bed I sat on.

" That's correct. " I said. He stopped pacing and came to stand directly in front of me.

" Do you remember this? " He asked just before his lips descended on mine. His lips were soft and gentle against mine. His tongue gently slid along my bottom lip. I opened my mouth for him instinctively and gasped when his tongue brushed against mine. Just as suddenly as the kiss began, it ended. Sesshomaru left ,y lips parted and both of us gasping for breath. I touched the tips of my fingers to my swollen lips. I looked into his eyes. His brilliant golden eyes were smoldering.

" I remember that I like it. That I like the feeling. " I whispered to him. He seemed confused and stood still.

" I thought you could remember nothing. " His eyes turned icy and suspicious as he looked at me.

" That's right. " I replied. Sesshomaru took a step forward, hunching as if stalking prey. Sesshomaru truly looked like the predator he claimed to be.

" Then how can remember that if you say that you cannot recall anything? " He questioned.

" It's different. I can't remember…things, memories. But I can remember feelings and touches. I don't know how to explain it, but that's what happens. " I looked him in the eyes as I explained. He nodded his head in understanding. Which is kind of a contradiction because I didn't really make sense, even to myself.

" I…I'd like to know a little about myself. If that's alright. " I half asked him. Sesshomaru came and sat down beside me. The bed creaking under his weight. He took my small hand in one of his much larger ones and traced small circles with his thumb on my skin as he looked at me.

" What do you want to know? " He asked with a grin. Instinctively I knew he was playing with me and I smiled slightly.

" Tell me about us. About our life. " I whispered as I let my fingers run over the smooth skin of his hand.

" Okay, " , he paused, " You love me. And I know this because every time I touch you, no matter how small the touch. That being said, there is hardly a moment when I don't think of touching you. Your hair, your skin…your lips. " He finished his statement by leaning forward and placing a soft, chaste kiss to my lips.

" And you? " I asked. I know he knew what I was talking about, although he choose to pretend not to know.

" And do I what? " He asked, feigning confusion.

" Do you love me? " I wanted to know and I also knew that this was a sensitive subject. Love for him was. He looked away form me for a moment and I thought he wouldn't answer me. Then he turned to me and his eyes held a golden fire that I found I liked very much.

" Yes, I do love you. ", He whispered, " I don't say it enough and it's hard for me to show my emotions, but I do love you. Never doubt that, ever. " I nodded in understanding.

" Tell me more. " I asked. He nodded slightly and held my hand between both of his, looking at intently.

" We have three children. Rin, the eldest, is nine and our adoptive daughter. She is human. Micheko, our son and first born, is a full yukai and he is almost six. And finally our youngest daughter, Mayumi, is a full celestial and she is almost three. ", He paused, " I think it would be best if I took you away until you regain your memory. Rin would understand of course, but Micheko and Mayumi will not in their young age. " I nodded sadly. I wanted to meet my children, but I knew that he was right.

" Okay, when? " I asked softly.

" In the morning. Right now you need rest. We should…" He began and I cut him off.

" I do not need rest, My Lord. I am well rested. " I spoke to him. This was probably not the best of ideas, considering he had stood in front of me as he spoke and now leaned over me. His hands on either side of my waist, captivating me in the cage of his strong arms.

' You will rest mate. We will travel for two days before reaching the beach house. You will need your rest." His voice left no room for argument. As he spoke I moved back away from him. My heart started beating faster an I didn't understand this feeling that coursed through my body. I moved back further and he followed me. Before I realized it, I was on my back as Sesshomaru hovered over me.

He settled his body over mine and rested his head on my neck. My breathing was heavy and my heart beat wildly in my chest. The feeling became stronger…warmer and I felt him smirk against my neck.

" That's all you're going to tell me? " I asked. I wanted to know more about my children, about me…about us. Sesshomaru raised his head and looked at me. His eyes were on fire again. Like just after he kissed me.

" That's all you need to know right now. " He whispered. Sesshomaru lowered his head back to my neck. I felt his lips press against the sensitive skin and I sucked in a breath. I placed my hands on his shoulders at first to push him back a little. Sesshomaru nipped at a particularly sensitive spot on my neck and then my hands grasped his shoulders, my body arching into his. He was to far away from me. I knew this feeling. Knew that I'd felt it many times before. I heard the soft hitch in his breath and then the low, rumbling growl that rose from his chest.

" No. ", He whispered, " No, as much as I want to touch you after being denied of you for so long, I won't touch you as of yet. ", He paused and took breath, " Losing your memory has made you innocent again. I would wait until you regained some memory of us before I would touch you again. " I could hear the strain in his voice and see the blazing wild fires in his eyes. He was controlling himself.

" But, ", He whispered at my ear and I heard the husky deepness of his voice, " Rest assured woman, I will keep you on your toes, ", Sesshomaru paused, then a mischievous grin reached his lips, " or more precisely curling your toes. " Then I felt his hand slide down the length of my body and then stop to rest lightly on my hip. I confused at his intent until he gently squeezed my hip. I sucked in a breath and felt my cheeks blaze with my blush.

" You blush beautifully. ", He said softly as he brought his hand back up to brush gently across my cheek, " If I had my way, you would blush this way most of the time you were with me. " He smirked when my eyes widened at his meaning.

" You…henti. ", I said between gasps, " I have no idea how I ever took you. " He smirked widened marginally.

" I seem to recall hearing no complaints. " He whispered and nuzzled my cheek. My blush deepened and my eyes widened when I realized what he had taken my words as.

" You know that is not what I meant. " I told him darkly as my blush faded.

" I know. ", Sesshomaru said softly stroking my hair, " But to see you blush again…I would have said anything. " His hand now lay over my heart gently. The other wrapped around my waist. My legs bent and prated as he lay cradled between them. His full weight pressed down on me. His weight and large frame pinned me to the bed. His eyes suddenly seemed very far away and saddened. I placed a hand on one of his stripped cheeks. My thumb gently stroking one of his markings.

Sesshomaru closed his eyes tightly and turned his face into my palm. He kissed my hand and placed one of his larger hands over mine. I noticed something then. The clawed hands I knew to be deadly and yet were so very tender when they touched me, were trembling.

" Sesshomaru? ", I asked worried, " What's wrong? ", I wanted for him to answer, but he didn't, " Are you okay? " I asked again.

" Sessh? What happened? " I asked softly. I stroked his cheek. He looked at me. His eyes devoid of emotion.

" You should rest. You will need your strength. " His voice wasn't cold, but there was no trace of his earlier playfulness. He rose from me and pulled me to the top of the bed. Sesshomaru spooned my back against his chest. I lay there thinking about his reaction to my words. Something awful had happened. If only I could remember what. I lay there thinking this over until sleep finally came for me…again.

I lay there quietly. Awake long after she had fallen asleep. When I placed my hand over her heart and felt it beating strong and rhythmically beneath my hand, I remembered how I felt when I could not hear it's strong beat.

My own heart had constricted at the memory. I pulled Izumi closer and buried my nose in her hair. Filling my lungs with her sweet scent. My hold on her tightened when the realization that I had almost lost her finally sank in. it's ironic that it should finally hit me now, as I hold her small body in my arms.

I kissed her mark gently and heard her soft moan in her sleep. I had missed that sound while those bastards had kept me down there in the dungeons. All the time watching her, but never being allowed to smell her sweet scent, touch her smooth , silky skin, or kiss her soft lips.

Not for the first time since I had know this tiny slip of a woman, fear flooded my veins. I pulled her impossibly close to me and rested my head between her shoulder and neck. I feared that she would be taken from me again. Without her memory, her mind could easily be swayed. It was in that moment that I vowed that nothing would ever harm her again. I couldn't stand the fact that I was almost to late the lat time and I'd be damned before I let it happen again.

" You will get your memory back. " I whispered fiercely to her sleeping form before I too fell asleep next to her warm body.

I am back! Well I feel I should warn you, there will excessive amounts of fluff and lemony scented scenes through out this story. The ONLY two lemons will be at the very end. So for the delay, but I took on a challenge of my own demise. I am writing two fanfics as of now. I am half way through the first chapter of the other. If you wan to read it will be posted here and on a-single-spark. So anyway PLZ review! Sayonara! P.S title is Cruel Intentions.