Okay...so this is my first HikaruxKaoru fanfic, to the song Between by Vienna Teng. It's such a good song, and I think that it fits the twins relationship quite well. Sooo yeah, enjoy?
Disclaimer: I do not own Ouran High
School Host Club, or the song used in this fanfiction.
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"Eeee! I love you!"
"Soooo cute!"
We are not together
here
Though we lie entwined
Hikaru and Kaoru
Hitachiin.
Birthday; June 9th, Gemini.
The 'little
Devil' type.
Hikaru and Kaoru Hitachiin, so
similar, yet so different.
The twins serve in Ouran Academy's
famous Host Club, pleasing their customers with their all too popular
'twincest' act.
Today seemed to be no different. However,
one of the twins had his thoughts elsewhere, barely paying any
attention to the screaming fan girls surrounding him and his
Brother.
To Kaoru, this 'act' was the closest which he was
ever going to be to getting together with his Brother. Many times
now had they laid entwined with each other in the third music room,
but each time, Kaoru was horribly reminded that this was all just put
on, to please the guests which may visit them each day.
To make room for the
other presence
We both draw back in our minds
Aside from the guests, there was
also one other person who depleted all chances of him and Hikaru ever
being together.
Haruhi.
Haruhi, the new cross-dressing member
of the host club had taken his Brother's heart.
Even though
Kaoru knew that she had feelings for their boss, Tamaki, he also knew
all too well that that didn't mean that Hikaru would give up on
her...
Ever since Haruhi become part of the Host Club, Kaoru had
to hold back what he really wanted to tell his Brother, what he was
going to tell him before he fell in Love with her.
Hikaru
was struggling too, however. He had to choose between his own
Identical Brother, and the Girl which he loved, trying his upmost
hardest not to say anything, which might upset one of the two.
I have a
prophecy
Threatening to spill into words
As much as Kaoru wanted to deny it,
he knew that one day Hikaru would confess his feelings for Haruhi.
He was determined not to lose 'the race' for her after all.
And
if he did, and Haruhi actually felt that way about him, and not
Tamaki, what would he do...?
He would be alone again.
Kaoru
wasn't really the one to tell people his problems, but this
one...this one was so close to spilling out, that he was scared.
Scared that everyone would find out, and shun him from their lives.
This growing
Uncertainty
Of Over
He was uncertain. Not sure what to do. Well, he knew what he should do, what the right thing was, just not sure of whether he could do that or not...
There once was a
time I was sure of the bond
When my hands and my tongue and my
thoughts were enough
Kaoru sighed, if only they could go back to the time when him and Hikaru were both just kids again, back to the time in which he was sure of the bond which he shared with his brother. The time when he became reassured just by thinking about his him, holding his hand, talking to him...
We are the same but
our lives move along
And the third one between replaces what once
was love
But times have moved on since then, and as much as Kaoru hates to admit it, he knows that him and his Brother are separate beings, who have to move their lives on in their own separate ways, despite being the identical twins which they are.
Freedom is being
alone
I fear liberation
What happens when Hikaru decides he wants to move on with his life? What happens if he wants to move on with Haruhi? He would be left all alone, and that is was Kaoru fears the most.
But something more
alive than silence
Swallows conversation
Right now, Kaoru just wanted to be
away from all of the fan girls surrounding him and Hikaru, to just be
alone with his brother for just once, without having anyone interrupt
them. He sometimes wished that they could go back to being how they
were, Outcast from society, just the two of them...
Right now, all
of the screaming was worse than the awkward silence which may follow
if Kaoru blurted out what he wanted to say. So, he tries as hard as
he possible can to keep his mouth shut, to not say anything, to start
an awkward conversation.
No pleasing drama
and subtle adverted eyes
The swelling fermata, as the chord dies
Kaoru realised that he had been
staring at his Brother the whole time which he had been thinking, and
quickly adverted his eyes.
"Kaoru...what's wrong?" Hikaru
finally asked him, a worried look plastered upon his identical
face.
"It's nothing...really." Kaoru put on his best fake
smile, trying to convince his brother that he was okay, even though
he kind of hoped that Hikaru wouldn't believe him, and worry and
comfort him again...
There once was a
time I was sure of the bond
When my hands and my tongue and my
thoughts were enough
His wishes weren't heard
though, as Hikaru just brushed his answer of, looking around to
continue talking to Haruhi.
Kaoru felt like he could just burst
into tears. He couldn't believe how much Hikaru had
changed...normally, Hikaru wouldn't take no for an answer, and
would hold Kaoru's hand and practically read his thoughts to find
out what was wrong with him, he would have done whatever it took to
squeeze the answer out of him...
We are the same but
our lives move along
And the third one between replaces what once
was love
As much as Kaoru hated to admit it, Haruhi had come between the two Brothers, and replaced Hikaru's love for him with her own.
There's no denying
we feel the third one, we do
I'm tired of fighting, and so are
you...
Kaoru couldn't deny Haruhi's presence, it was too over powering...He was tired of fighting it now, perhaps he should just let Haruhi win, to take over his role...
There once was a time I was sure of
the bond,
When my hands and my tongue and my thoughts were enough
No, he couldn't do that, Kaoru had always been Hikaru's Younger Brother, and he always will be...nothing, not even Haruhi could replace the bond which they both share.
We are the same,
But our lives
move alone
"Kaoru..."
Kaoru snapped out
of his train of thoughts to find Hikaru standing right next to
him.
"Hm...?" He asked simply, imitating his Brother's
attitude from earlier. They were still so immature.
Hikaru noted
his mood from earlier, and slipped his hand into Kaoru's own.
"I
know what this is about...and I just want you not to worry." Kaoru
looked up, startled at how Hikaru could just know these things.
"We
both know that we'll have to go our separate ways one day" he
continued gently "...but for now, let's just enjoy being
together, being the same whilst we still can...kay?" He finished in
a soothing voice, which, for the first time that day, made Kaoru
smile.
"Yes...lets" he said, his face brightening up, which
caused in turn, his Brothers too as well.
And the third one between replaces what once was love...
One day, maybe one day, the Hitachiin Brother's love will be replaced by someone else...but today...today is not that day.
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So...whatcha think? The ending may seem a little short and messy, and I'm sorry for that. I left this story for a while, and came back to it with a different ending idea...actually, the idea of the story changed about 3 times, so it's probably all kinda lacking sense. ^^;
Please don't be mean about it though...it gets people nowhere. Constructive Criticism is always a good thing though.