Author Note :
Aww I should apologize to all people in this FF, all readers (bow) I had terrible English TT. But I felt, it wasn't become my hinder to write all my thought.
I never had enough bravery to bring this out… so don't flame me please .
This story was completely based on my experience. So, there's a big apologize about the OOCness, I couldn't resist it.
The timeline is when Sho and Kei were leaving, Kei's gone… and I was curious what a nine years waiting felt like. Sho was tough!!
-the 1st-
Sho's POV
Did the world stop to spin? Or rather my head stop to think? What was yesterday? Suddenly I should face the bruises and you gone, and Toshi's death and Son's shifting friendship? What was yesterday? What I'm gonna do today?
This is the first time in my life I spent a day without a word. There's no ear to listen, there's no one to respond, or simply there's no YOU here
Kei…..
I can accept your act while we were on the mural, in Yi Che's big day, or rather I called it the nightmare-has-come day. I had a plan to tell Son and Yi Che about your feature. About who're you definitely. Toshi agreed to the idea of telling these two, coz we've already become a family. Even I knew you would hardly tell them, I'm sure you loved them as you would want to take off your disguise in front. But NOT the way yesterday!. But not by letting them saw you draining blood of those punks.
Kei, we need to talk. I promised I'm not angry. And I swear Toshi wouldn't too. Your act just being driven by the instinct of anger, your hatred to the sinners whom killed Toshi. And still, you tried to protect anyone out there, risking your own life by putting the trigger on your head, probably end as a burned meat on sunrays, or like one we had now, losing belief of friends.
Kei, you did, but you're not losing anything, anyone….
You still have me, your crybaby little brat.
So be here, don't let me ended like others to just simply hate you for this pain.
Its sure pain,
Its devastated,
Its tortured,
Kei…
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Kei's POV
What can bring life to my deepest heart, its gone already. I'm not complaining this cursing life God gave me, yet He never loves me anyway. But what is the biggest fear I have to fight now, is living this hell without you.
Sho,
I'm blind to every color since I was born. (and also I'm not complaining that). You can image "manga-world" with just filled by white, grey and black. But now it's worse, no color, no white nor black. What I've seen now is emptiness, without any colors.
What happen yesterday seems never happen. In my darkest pit dream, I never had this nightmare. All I had just seeing Luka burned to death, facing his destiny with smile and sings. I hardly forget that song.
"I can't believe I'm leaving you…"
Even I know this separation will clear to face, just matter of time, yet I hope it was because of death. Yeah, I have no plan leaving you until the rest of your life (I'm not die, remember). Then when it happens now, I just regret it. I'm too confident on my scenario, while God always has His rules. He did hate me.
I never thought it would be this sudden.
Sho,
Please remember this in your heart, I'm a sinful creature who deserve bear the pain of losing. I had it all my life, seeing people death, seeing everyone I loved depart from this hell to another (whether heaven or hell), leaving me rotten here without mercy. But you're not people, you're not everybody. You're my Sho, and I had your feature engraved within my heart.
And I'm not regret.