Oke this is the first Chapter of my story. I hope you like it.
Sorry for all the grammer mistakes, but I'm dutch so my English is not that perfect.
I do not own twilight..

Story song: 'When you're gone- Avril Lavigne'

On behalve of my love,
I no longer sleep.
Life had no longer meaning.
Nothing to make me stay.
I sold my soul away...

He was gone, just gone. Forever! Never coming back.

I sunk to the floor in my room.

No, no, no. It couldn't be true. It couldn't be!

A tear fell down on my cheek. Forever gone. 'No... no, NO!' I screamed. 'Please, please, come back. Come back!'

It was 9 days after Edward left. 9 Days after he left me. I was broken, the pain I felt right now was nothing compared with James' attack last summer. No, that was a lie. I felt nothing. Not one emotion, just emptyness.

My moping was driving Charlie crazy. He treatened more than once to send me back to Renee. But everytime I refused, for some reason I didn't want to leave forks.

Stupid...yes I know.

I was breathing uneven as I was lying here on the wooden floor. I felt miserble, I just wanted to die. Every point of reason in this damned world was gone! No reason to stay.
Tears were streaming down my cheek, dripping on the floor.

I've never felt this way before.
Everything that I do
reminds me of you.

Oh come on! Still whiping about him? My brain said.

'Shut up!' I whispered.

Are you a big girl or not. Now stand up and stop blubbering!'Go away...'

NO! Listen to me! He's just a boy. Go on with your life. HE'S GONE!

I sat up and curled myself up, crying to nobody: 'No stop! Please..stop'

Listen to yourself, you disgust me!'No, no. Gone...gone'

Then I went silent, only my sobs were for hearing.

Then I heard Charlies car. Quickly I stand up, wiping away my tears. Then I heard onother voice... my mum's voice. She came here to get me to Jacksonville!

No...no... I couldn't leave, I wouldn't leave!

The front door opened any my mum and dad walked in. They walked up the stair to my room. I flew to my bed, grabbing a book, pretending I was reading while they entered my room. 'Hey mum!' I said happy. 'Honey, it's good to see you!' Renee answered, hugging me.

'I missed you.' I said, which was true. I'd been missing my mum very much.

'I missed you too. I would love having you back for a while.' She hinted, but I already knew where this conversation would lead to, me returning to my mum. Which was NOT gonna happen.

'No, mum. I wanna stay here'

'But honey, I really think it's better if you come with me... You're a mess'

'Mum, we talked about this before, I'm not coming home.'

'Bella please, I don't want a fight about this...' She said. 'I want you to come with to Jacksonville'

'No, mum! I won't go. I stay here'

She sighed. 'You look tired, go sleep.' I nodded bitterly.

They left my room.

I deceided to do what Renee told me to; I was tired. I put out my lights and closed my eyes. It didn't take very long till I drifted to sleep.

"You already know how I feel, of course," I finally said. "I'm here... which, roughly translated, means I would rather die than stay away from you." I frowned. "I'm an idiot"
"You are an idiot," he agreed with a laugh. Our eyes met, and I laughed, too. We laughed together at the idiocy and sheer imposibility of such a moment.
"And so the lion fell in love with the lamb..." he murmured. I looked away, hiding my eyes as I thrilled to the word.
"What a stupid lamb," I sighed.
"What a sick, masochistic lion." He stared into the shadowy forest for a long moment.

Silent whispers woke me up, first I didn't reconized them. I thought I was still sleeping, but then I heard Charlie whisper: 'You think she will be very angry'

'Yes, very. But I can handle that Charlie. Bella has been angry at me before. And after all, she can't stay here'

'I can only agree with you about that'

'You were right, she's a mess. And that all about his leaving?' They were talking about Edward!

'Yes, it had a very strong impact on her.'

I opened my eyes. I saw my parents. My dad stood by my closet and my mum bowed over something, but I couldn't see what. But what the hell was my dad doing? He was emtying my closet! Giving my clothes to my mum, who was putting them into a bag. I sat up. 'What are you doing?' I asked sleepy.

They were startled by my voice; Charlie dropped the shirt had in his hands and Renee placed her hand over her heart.

Slowly I sat up in my bed. 'Why are you packing my bag?' I asked, my mind was too sleepy to think clear.

'Honey, my mum said. I want you to come to Jacksonville, no I am taking you to Jacksonville.' What? They just ignored my will?

'No mum, I'm not going!' I said harsh. 'Yes you will!' I jumped up. 'No mum! You can't make me go! I want to stay!' I said each word carefully. 'Oh yes I can make you go. Bella he's gone, get over him. Start a new life. Come with me.' she pleaded. She pulled me to the ground, let me sitting in front of her. She placed her hands on my cheeks. 'Bella, I'm worried about you, and so is Charlie. We don't want to see you unhappy'

'Then let me stay mum.' 'Bella, we're not having this conversation! You're coming with.' She tried to sound firm, which succeeded well. 'NO! I WON'T!' I screamed.

'Don't talk like that to your mother, young lady.' Charlie said.

'No dad! No! I won't go, I won't... I won't.' I screamed. I zipped open the back and threw my clothes through the room, while I screamed: 'No, no, NO' I stood up and so did my mum. 'Bella honey...' she tried.

'NO! Go away, go away!'I felt tears in my eyes. Then I fell down on my bed and burst into tears. I felt like I couldn't stop anymore. I just wanted them to leave me alone! I heard my parent leaving the room, fortunetly!

I kept crying and crying. And in the end I cried myself to sleep.

That night I heard someone sneak into my room. It was my mum. I was still drowzy, but I could hear her words clearly.

'Bella, I'm sorry...' she whispered. 'Please, be carefull! I love you, I only want the best for you!' I mumbled a soft yes. 'I'm going home, I'll call you soon.' She stroke my cheek and placed a kiss on my forehead.

'Is she a sleep?' I heard Charlie ask. 'Something like that.' 'Sorry Renee.' Charlie apologized. 'It's oke'

They left my room again and left a painfull silence. I felt awkward, guilty...

The next morning I woke up early, though Charlie was already awake. I pulled on some clean clothes and went downstairs.

My dad was sitting on the kitchen table. 'Morning,' he said, obviously he was angry about yesterday. 'Dad, I'm sorry. I just don't wanna leave Forks'

'Your behavior was unacceptable.' He said firm. 'I know.' I whispered. 'You're lucky your mother is very forgiving, she's not angry.' I sighed. 'You can stay here, but I want to make one agreement.' 'Yes..?' I asked, slightly curious. 'I want you to.. go do something with friends oké?' he said, nearly pleading. 'I want you to move on'

'Got it.' I smiled at my dad, thankfull for his forgiveness.

I stood up, walking upstairs.

'You could try Jacob!' My dad called after me. I froze on the stairs. Jacob..Jacob! I sprinted down stairs again. 'Dad, can you tell me the way to La Push?' I asked. He smiled in answer. 'I'm happy you're so enthusiastic to see him.' 'Yeah...' Charlie explained me the way to Jacob and I ran out the door. I climbed into my truck and started it. In less than 20 minutes I was at Jacobs house. I walked to the front door, knocking on the door. Billy opened up, his eyes widened when he saw me. 'Hey Bells, how are you?' Billy asked.

'I'm great. You?'

'Yeah, never better.'

'Is Jacob home.' I asked.

Billy nodded and answered: 'He's in the garage.' 'Still working on his car?' Billy smiled. He told me which way to the garage, I waved and walked away.

When I arrived at the garage, I could hear Jacob tinker on his car. I laughed silently when I heard him groan.

'How's the car?' I asked. 'Who's there-' he asked. BANG... sounded through the garage, followed by an 'OUCH!' from Jacob. He came upright, while he was rubbing his head, then he saw me. I laughed at his expression. 'Bella!' he said cheerfully. But I kept laughing as he walked closer. 'Aww.. don't laugh. It's your fault you know.' I stopped laughing and tried to look offended. 'My fault?' I asked. 'Ehh.. no, I was just joking.' he corrected himself, shocked by my voice. I smiled. 'Kidding...just wanted to see you reaction. So how are you.' 'I am great! The car's nearly finished.' I looked at the car. 'Looks good!' I complimented.

'Thanks.' 'So why are you here'

'Well, since it's holiday. I wanted to spend some time with an old friend. Unless he's to bizzy.' I said.

'No, I'm not too bizzy.'

'Great!'

'What do you want to do?' He asked.

I smiled. 'I think I know something.'

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So what do you think?

Again... I'm dutch. But if there are bad grammer mistakes. Please let me now, so I can fix them.

The next chapter is more drama... and maybe EDWARD!! woohh *screaming*