Disclaimer: I don't own any of the characters that may be in or mentioned in this fanfiction. They belong to Square Enix.

Rating: M

Warnings: Shonen ai, swearing and possible violence.RoxasXAxel, SoraXRiku and maybe some more later.

Pairings:

Is this the end of the moment Or

just a beautiful unfolding

Of a love that will never be

'This is all my fault...'

Axel stared at the motionless body before him, if it were under any other scenario he would be smiling and probably trying to take pictures of the sleeping blonde. But it wasn't a different scenario...they were in a hospital and Roxas was in a coma and he didn't know if he was going to wake up.

"I'm so sorry... this...it was never meant to happen..." The red haired teen murmured taking the boys hand in his own gently, while his other ran through soft blonde tresses, "you'll forgive me…right Roxas…?" he squeezed Roxas' hand gently, as if somehow the boy would sense him there.

"Axel…"

Axel sighed, moving away from his boyfriend's bed and looking over his shoulder towards the cinnamon haired teen standing in the doorway. He sat there for a moment before slowly getting to his feet and walking past the younger blue eyed male. Their arms brushed slightly, Axel's arm pressing against the younger teens cast. Sora looked up at his brother's lover with a tear stained face, blue and green locking briefly. The red head eyes eventually wandered up to the cinnamon haired teens bandaged forehead before he forced himself to tear his gaze away from the boy as another pang of guilt hit him.

"It's not your fault…"

"Tell me that when he wakes up."

He didn't want to face Sora, not when he was the reason him and his brother were in here in the first place.

Axel found himself wandering the hospital hallways, taking in no recollection of the few people he passed. He'd come to hate the place over the last few days, blaming himself for the accident but blaming the hospital also for not being able to do anything about Roxas' condition. It was a hospital damn it, they were supposed to help people!

"Axel!"

The red head came to a stop when he heard his name being called, but this time by a much less welcome person, he really wasn't in the mood for nurses bitching at him to go back to his room.

"Look Tifa I'm fine, I just want to be alone,"

"That's understandable but you should be resting," Tifa's voice held a slightly pleading tone, "you were in a car accident only three days ago."

"I told you I was fine already," Axel snapped, "if you want to do something helpful why don't you go tell those god damn doctors to do something about Roxas!"

He turned on his heel, walking back the way he came but making a right turn towards the cafeteria. The place took up a fair portion of the hospital but not enough to be ridiculous. It wasn't exactly the best place to be going if he wanted to be alone but Axel was more concerned about getting away from Tifa at the time.

A few minutes later, and a few odd looks from people also wandering the halls, probably due to his bright florescent red hair, the red head finally came across the cafeteria doors. He started towards the, only to let out a groan as he a weight suddenly crashed into him, sending him to the floor. When his eyes opened he was met by a familiar cerulean gaze.

"Hey I was looking every where for you!"

"Demyx, why are you here?"

"Well Sora told me that you were feeling kinda down and that you have been confining yourself to Roxas' room all day so I decided to come see you," Demyx grinned warmly before it quickly turning to a look of concern, "how's he doing anyway?"

Axel grimaced "Not great Demyx... they don't know if he's gonna wake up..."

"Oh..." The dusty blonde frowned for a moment before composing himself once again as he got to his feet. He held a hand out which Axel took gratefully, letting the other teen pull him to his feet.

"If you want to talk to someone about it...I'm here."

Axel smiled sadly.

'There's nothing to talk about…'

"Thanks Dem," Axel pat the boy on the shoulder before walking back towards Roxas' room cafeteria long forgotten.

"Any time," the blonde returned the gesture as he walked beside him.

Once the two got back to Roxas' room Demyx only stuck around for a while, giving the red head his number before he left before bidding a quiet goodbye to Roxas who of course didn't respond. Axel watched him leave, heart sinking slightly as the feeling of loneliness began to set in. He loved Roxas, more than anyone could ever imagine but it was hard speaking to him without receiving any reply despite the doctors telling him that there was only a slight chance the blond would actually hear him.

With a sigh he turned back to Roxas, reaching out to brush a few stray hairs from the boy's face while his other sought out to take the blondes hand into his own.

"Hey I don't know if you can hear me Rox…" He squeezed said teens hand gently, "Demyx came here today…he wanted to know how you were doing…"

Axel breathed in shakily. He could feel tears start to sting the corners of his eyes but forced them back in an attempt to keep his cool.

"Everyone wants you to wake up you know…" he stroked the side of the blondes face, chuckling sadly, "I'd love to see those beautiful eyes again…"

The red head glanced at the time it was still only five o clock. He sighed, pulling his chair closer to the bed so he could rest the side of his face on it. He continued to caress the side of the blondes face as he watched him sleep. There was still a fair while until dinner would be served in the cafeteria and until then he really didn't have anything else he could do, but still, he waited.

For the next hour Axel drifted in and out of slumber, hand never leaving Roxas'. He hadn't left the blondes room since he'd been able to get out of his own and he couldn't say it was doing much good for his sleeping patterns or his injuries.

He closed his eyes once more, only intending to rest his eyes for a few minutes but eventually found himself falling into unconsciousness, slowly drifting off into a dreamless sleep.

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"Axel…" the red head was roused from his sleep from a hand on his shoulder. He tried to shrug it off only to have the once loose grip on his shoulder tighten before shaking him vigorously, "Axel!"

"What?" Said teen groaned, lifting his face from the mattress to find a distraught looking Sora. He finally took into account that it was now morning and he had obviously missed dinner. He looked over the brunet slowly, briefly wondering why he'd come and woken him anyway.

"There's a guy out the front of the hospital…he said he knows you and that he's not leaving until you go see him…"

Axel sighed, running a hand over his face.

'This is not my day…'

"What did he look like?" he had a feeling he knew who it was, but in all honesty he hoped it wasn't him.

"Blue hair…a scar like a cross on his face…"

Axel's fist clenched.

"Saix," he hissed.

Of all people…it just had to be Saix. How the hell did he even know he was here? He thought he had cut all ties with the blue haired teen months ago. And thought he'd made it clear to him as well but obviously Saix had other plans.

Before he knew it Axel was stalking towards the door, he felt just about ready to punch someone but he doubted he'd be able to fight anyone on the condition he was in. That was until his hand was grabbed and he was pulled to a stop.

"Axel…who is he?" Sora stared up at him with a concerned and almost fearful expression.

"Just stay with Roxas," Axel growled out, pulling away from the cinnamon haired teen.

The red head quickly made his way down the hall, stopping just outside the waiting room where Saix now stood, arms crossed over his chest with the receptionist's watching him carefully. Axel sighed irritably; he had hoped that the blue haired man at least had the decency to wait outside.

"What do you want?"

"Why so crude Axel, we used to be so close," the blue haired teen scoffed dryly.

"Whatever, if you just came here to 'catch up' I'm not interested, unlike you I have things to do,"

"And what would those things be?" Saix asked scornfully.

"Look I don't have time for this," Axel growled, Saix knew exactly how to grate his nerves and he hated it. The blue haired male not only knew how to push his buttons but took the liberty of holding them down.

"You have yet to pay me back Axel,"

The red heads eyes narrowed. He glanced towards the receptionist before turning back to the slightly older male.

"Let's take this conversation outside," he ground out stalking towards the large sliding doors.

The red head didn't wait for Saix to reply, he knew that the scarred male would follow him. Axel quickly walked out, making an abrupt turn and heading towards the less crowded part of the hospitals parking lot. Once he was sure they were out of hearing distance of anyone he once again turned back to Saix.

"What do you want Saix," Axel repeated his earlier question but this time his voice came out resigned.

"I think we both know the answer to that Axel,"

"I already paid you Saix!" the red snapped indignantly, "Every thing I brought from you, I payed for! I'm done with your crap and I am definitely done with you!"

"I'm not done with you though."

The next thing Axel knew, he was being slammed against the hospitals outside walls. He breathed in sharply, trying to suck in the air that had been knocked out of him. The red head was about to ask Saix what the hell his problem was until two arms began snaking around his waist.

"Who said it was money I wanted?" Axel could feel the older male's hot breath on his neck and shuddered, "even you know that everything between us is long from over."

"What's your problem?" he tried to push Saix back but to know avail.

"I could ask you the exact same thing," Saix hissed, "I'm not the one who abandoned their best friend."

"You're not my friend," Axel snapped, his struggles ceasing briefly, "My friend disappeared years ago when they started doing drugs."

"You can't say much, you did them to."

"Like I said, I'm done with you," he said quietly. In their younger years, Saix had been one of his closest friends, but everything had started to fall apart between them when they'd turned sixteen and started taking drugs. It was a dumb decision now he thought back to it but Saix had refused to give it up, hence the reason their friendship had come to an end, but Axel had owed Saix money and things had gone further downhill from there.

Axel grunted when he was suddenly lifted by the front of his shirt locking eyes with enraged gold ones.

"So you're just going to give everything you had up for those brats you call friends?" Saix snarled.

"Yeah, that's right," Axel smirked, "there wasn't much to give up in the first place."

Axel felt Saix's fist collide with his stomach causing him to cough as pain erupted through his mid section. He gritted his teeth as a hand raked through his hair, tugging back slightly on the crimson spikes that adorned his head. It felt as if his knees had turned to liquid, and he couldn't bring himself to pull free of the blue haired teens grip. He'd forgotten how strong Saix actually was…

"You'll never be able to leave me behind,"

He let out a pained noise when Saix pulled his head back further, craning his neck backwards. Axel clenched his eyes shut as cool lips brushed against his neck, sending involuntary shivers down his spine. He tried to push the other male away again but with his arms pinned above it was fruitless.

"Stop…"

Saix merely ignored him, one hand trailing down Axel's chest. He managed to get one of his wrists free and shoved the blue haired male away. He watched Saix's fist come back again, this time aiming to hit his face but before the gold eyed teen got the chance to move a pale hand was wrapped around his arm, holding it in place.

"I came here to see Sora but I guess it's a good thing we decided to take the back,"

"Riku?" Axel looked up at the silverette who was now glaring at Saix.

The hand that was once in his hair returned tugging once more before letting go. Saix stepped away from him turning his gaze slowly towards Riku.

"It's been a while," Saix murmured.

"Not long enough," Riku scoffed, stepping forwards and grabbing Axel's shoulders. He pulled the red head to his feet easily despite the height difference. It was then when Axel noticed the short blonde standing behind the silverette.

Saix only shrugged before walking away.

"Are you okay Axel?" the short blonde looked up at him.

"I'm fine Namine," Axel sighed before turning to Riku, "Sora's in Roxas' room."

"Are you coming with us?" Riku's brow rose.

"Yeah…I'll be with you in a minute…" Axel waved absently and watched as the two disappeared into the building. He sighed leaning shakily against the wall, finally hit by the knowledge that Saix wasn't going to just give up and Roxas may never wake up and with it brought a feeling of emptiness. Why was this all happening now…? He slid down, resting his head against his knees.

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The red head let out a sigh as he took a seat at one of the many cafeteria tables. Riku, Sora and Demyx had somehow convinced him to have lunch with them but in all honesty Axel wasn't all that hungry and would have preferred if he'd been left to sit with Roxas. It had been a day since he'd seen Saix but he knew that the blue haired teen knew where he was now and probably couldn't stick around the hospital all that much longer. He didn't want to pull his friends into this, it was his problem so he'd find a way to handle it.

"Does Cloud know yet?" Riku spoke quietly, drawing Axel's attention to himself.

"Yeah…I called him the day after I woke up…" he replied just as softly. Cloud was Roxas' older brother and was out of town during the accident on a delivery but when Axel had called and explained what happened he'd said that he was on his way back. The phone call had ended there so none of them knew exactly how far away Cloud actually was, but the red head was more worried about wether or not his lovers older sibling wanted to kill him or not. He wouldn't blame Cloud if he did, but he already had one person out to get him and wasn't fond on the idea of another.

The silverette gave a short nod, gently nudging the brunet beside him to try and coax him to eat more. Axel lowered his eyes to the table; most of his own food still lay uneaten much like the brunets.

"Ax…you gotta eat or you're not gonna get better," Demyx glanced between the brunet and red head before sending Axel a pleading look.

"…I'm not hungry," he sighed slowly getting to his feet. Axel didn't say anything else to the small group as he emptied his tray into the bin before making his way out of the large cafeteria. All his friends could do was stare after him with looks of concern.

He continued down the hallway, stopping when his eyes fell on a short black haired girl standing outside Roxas' room. She was wearing a hospital robe so he figured that she was a patient, but he hadn't seen her before which left him with the question as to why was she standing outside the blondes room?

The red heads brow knitted together as he approached her.

"Hey you lost or something?" he said slowly.

"No, I'm aware of where I am," she looked up at him. The red heads eyes widened just slightly at how much she resembled Sora and Roxas. Her eyes were the same blue as the two and even had a similar face shape. If Axel hadn't been introduced to all of blonds family he would have thought she may have been related to them.

"Ah…Okay…" Axel moved past her, making his way over to Roxas' bed.

He could still feel her eyes on his back as he sat down in the chair beside the blonde's single mattress and it made him feel slightly uncomfortable. The red head looked back at her, raising a thin red brow.

"Can I help you?"

"What happened to him?"

Her question was met with silence.

Axel turned away from her, glaring at the floor in front of him. He knew he shouldn't be angered by her curiosity, but he was feeling guilty enough already and he didn't need people reminding him that he was the reason Roxas was in here in the first place.

"He was in a car accident," he whispered.

"Were you in it to?" she gestured towards his bandaged arm.

"I was driving,"

Axel didn't look back at her, only listened as her footsteps disappeared down the hallway.

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Kay so that wraps up chapter one, kinda short ne? no worries I'll try to make the next one longer.

Sooooo, any pairing requests? I'm up for a challenge. They'll be side characters but I'll find a way to work them in :P Anyways, thanks for reading,

Please review! I want to know what you think