Disclaimer: Inu Yasha doesn't belong to me, nor all the other ones from the Inu gang. They all (rightfully...thinks... noooo...grins...) belong to one of the greatest mangaka in the world, Rumiko Takahashi!

So... Don't ask me how I got the crazy idea to write this fic, because I don't know myself. laughs I just know that I like the idea and I'm really ashamed that I can't write as good as I want to. pities herself ... but you know... that's just the way life goes winks . I hope you like it. Hmm...lemme think... Yes! First AU ever sent out to the world by me, I'm really excited about it!

You know that I'm bad with tenses... pulls the old stuff and whimpers... Gomen ne, I'm really trying to do my best! . So bare with me, and correct me if you see a big horrible mistake!

I want to read a fic with an similar topic but so far I've found none... could you perhaps tell me if you know one?

Secret love

Chapter one

The scholarship

Inu Yasha had always been Kagome's best friend. Even if he was her brother, two years older than her, and even though they fought hell of a lot, he was the only one who truly did understand her and so it was the other way round.

But there was something, a detail, but really nothing worth mentioning. You could see it clearly, anyways. He, with his long, straight, silver hair, gold eyes and she, with the long, slightly wavy, dark black hair and grey- blue eyes. Inu Yasha was not Kagome's real brother. No, he had been adopted by Mrs. and Mr. Higurashi when he was a baby. At that time they thought that they couldn't have kids on their own, so they adopted him. And two years later Kagome was born as their "real" child, but they loved Inu Yasha nonetheless.

So, Inu Yasha wasn't Kagome's brother by blood, but who cared? They had, to an instant of course, the same friends, had the same kind of humour and shared a lot of things.

But, as mentioned before, he was two years older than her. And so, as the time came for Inu Yasha to go out more frequently, he did, and Kagome had to stay at home. He was sixteen, she was fourteen, and that's when the difference of age showed up. They weren't as close anymore, and, as much as it hurt them, they would have never confessed. The same pride showing in both of them hindered from saying "I miss the way we both used to talk.". Kagome and Inu Yasha knew that they couldn't always be glued together for the rest of their lives. What would the others think if he dragged his little sister along to every party?

For one year it went well, everything was fine the way it was, as suddenly something unforeseen happened:

Flashback:

"Hey mom, dad! Got something to tell ya... you'll make eyes!", Inu Yasha yelled excited from down the hall when coming home from school one day.

"What is it?", Kagome answered, being at home before he was, since she had out earlier.

"Hey Kaggs!", he smiled and hugged her.

"Oh my gosh!", she giggled and shoved him away playfully. "Do you want to squash your sweet ,little, 15-year old sister?", she then gestured to the table where his meal was placed on.

"Nope", he let her go, then sat down. "Where are mom n' dad?".

"Went out shopping.", she seemed to remember something than sat down opposite him. "Soo, Yash... you mentioned you had something to say?", she looked at him questioningly.

He put the fork he wanted to stick into his mouth down and looked at her almost sadly. "Now that I think about it...", he said, looking into her yes. He would miss her, of that he was sure, more that anybody else.

"What's wrong?", she asked, slightly concerned.

He sighed. "I was offered a scholarship at a European high school for one year. I can make my final exam there... Would be very good if I want to study later... don't know...".

"Europe? That's pretty far away... one year...", she seemed to think. "But I wouldn't turn such an offer down. You had always wanted to become a doctor, and if it would help you with your studies, why not?".

"You're probably right.", he said. "But we won't see each other for a very long time.", he added. He laid his fork down once again. Somehow he wasn't hungry anymore.

"Oh, come on! Are you a man or a washcloth? I mean, really. Someday we will move out and then we won't see each other every day, it's almost the same.".

"Yes, yes... I know...", he murmured, but stared at the table in front of him, seemingly deeply in thought.

"I'm going upstairs now, doing homework... Dishwasher is empty, okay?"

He nodded and she headed upstairs. Finally in her room, she turned the key around and flung herself onto the bed, heavily sobbing, tears wetting her pillow as she tried to muffle her sobs in it.

One damn year without my best friend! I'm gonna die!

She didn't see him much anyways, with their different school times and habits of going out...and this almost tore her apart. What would it be like to not see him for one year at all? A flight to Europe did cost a huge amount of money...

With much the same thoughts in his head he also went upstairs, waiting at his sister's door, just to turn around quickly as he heard her crying.

This is going to be a long year... he decided and went into his room as well.

Their parents were delighted with the scholarship and also said that this was an opportunity he shouldn't miss. So, it was decided.

Kagome always played the tough one when it came to the topic, but as they stood at the airport and it was time to say their goodbyes, Kagome broke down and flung herself into his arms.

"Y- You know, y-you hav-have to call m-me or else...", she sobbed into his chest.

"Of course I'll call you, Kaggs. You know that.", he embraced her.

"I will m-miss you s-so much...", she cried. "You're m-my best friend..." It was so good to feel him against her, breathing in his scent... almost addicting. But... no.

"Sssshhhh, sweetie, it won't be for too long. One year goes by so fast.", he squeezed her once again, then let go. "My flight was announced, I have to go.".

She nodded. And let go of his hand she had been holding. He quickly leaned down and gave her a kiss on the cheek. "Love you, honey. Be a good girl for me.", he chuckled.

"I will, I promise.", she almost blushed. "Love you too."

He quickly hugged their parents too, said goodbye, than he flashed Kagome one last smile and went down the hall.

As his plane took off, he was wondering once again if he had made the right decision. He sighed. He had no idea...

Flashback end

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