Disclaimer: I don't own Sailor Moon.
Choice
By: Junshin Aino
Early this morning the sky turned gray with dark and ominous storm clouds, ushered in
by the chilling wind currents that usually left this area untouched by rain. The valley here
between these mountain walls are well protected from such things… and yet yesterday,
the winds brought a tornado. The horrible funnel landed a few miles away, and I could
only be grateful that it didn't come any closer.
I've always hated storms, but I hate them even more now, so far from my home country
of Japan. I followed my Mamo-chan to America, a land resplendent with promises, and
my love's future. Our future… I made the choice to leave my home behind, to leave my
friends behind, all for love. From time to time I miss them… at times, a great deal.
I woke this morning to the tingling feeling that let more know, as the vestiges of my
dreams faded away into the morning light, that I had… orgasmed, in my sleep. I could
feel a sense of shame welling up inside of me as I realized this, a feeling made more
intense as I tried to catch the fleeting dream. My Mamo-chan hadn't been in it.
I shook off the dream as best I could, and prepared for my day. Mamo-chan had already
left for his job at the hospital, and all I had to do, day in and day out, was to clean the
apartment up and watch anime, or play games, as I wished. A simple enough life…
Around two, I went to check the mail, to find that the mailman was just now putting the
mail into people's boxes. At four I returned. So simple… placing the key into the hole,
turning to the right, opening the door. And there, amidst credit card applications and our
bank statement, was a package from my best friend. I removed these items quickly,
feeling excited. I didn't receive mail from her very often, and there was no telling what
she had sent me.
Back in the apartment I tossed the mail onto the kitchen table before hurrying to the
computer. Sitting down I tore open the package, after noting the anime style drawing of
Rei-chan placed upon the back, with a brief 'hello'. As I shook the package a soft cotton
t-shirt fell out and onto my lap, grey, with my name on the back. On the front was a
symbol that Minako and Ami had made up, and had approved by the others. A symbol
that represented us, the Senshi, our hearts and powers as one.
I clutched the t-shirt to my chest as my heart began to ache. Without meaning to, I began
to cry, the cold tears sliding rapidly down my cheeks, falling with crystalin likeness onto
my shirt. I set it away from and ran into the living room, then out onto my small patio. I
sat down in a chair I had placed out there, pulling my knees up to my chest, chanting 'I
miss her, I miss her… dear gods, why do I miss her so?'
Thunder chose that moment to crack the sky, and for once I wasn't frightened. No, I hurt
to much to be frightened of the storm, only to become guilt racked and sorrowed by a
sudden memory from my past.
The memory of the time Mamo-chan broke up with me. I hadn't hurt this way since that
time, and now I understood why I was in pain.
I missed her so because I was in love with her. And the dreams I had dreamed the night
before had been of her, of us, making love.
But my choice was already made, and I could not take it back. I loved Mamo- chan as
well, at least as much as I love my Rei-chan. And I know that she doesn't feel that same
love for me.
No… I made my choice, and now I once again chose to abide by my choice. I love
Mamo-chan, and though I miss her, and sometimes dream of her….
Even unrequited love is food for the soul.
= = = = = = = = = = = =
Finished.
So? What'd ya think? Good, bad, awful?
Email me at: Aino_Junshin@yahoo.com
Choice
By: Junshin Aino
Early this morning the sky turned gray with dark and ominous storm clouds, ushered in
by the chilling wind currents that usually left this area untouched by rain. The valley here
between these mountain walls are well protected from such things… and yet yesterday,
the winds brought a tornado. The horrible funnel landed a few miles away, and I could
only be grateful that it didn't come any closer.
I've always hated storms, but I hate them even more now, so far from my home country
of Japan. I followed my Mamo-chan to America, a land resplendent with promises, and
my love's future. Our future… I made the choice to leave my home behind, to leave my
friends behind, all for love. From time to time I miss them… at times, a great deal.
I woke this morning to the tingling feeling that let more know, as the vestiges of my
dreams faded away into the morning light, that I had… orgasmed, in my sleep. I could
feel a sense of shame welling up inside of me as I realized this, a feeling made more
intense as I tried to catch the fleeting dream. My Mamo-chan hadn't been in it.
I shook off the dream as best I could, and prepared for my day. Mamo-chan had already
left for his job at the hospital, and all I had to do, day in and day out, was to clean the
apartment up and watch anime, or play games, as I wished. A simple enough life…
Around two, I went to check the mail, to find that the mailman was just now putting the
mail into people's boxes. At four I returned. So simple… placing the key into the hole,
turning to the right, opening the door. And there, amidst credit card applications and our
bank statement, was a package from my best friend. I removed these items quickly,
feeling excited. I didn't receive mail from her very often, and there was no telling what
she had sent me.
Back in the apartment I tossed the mail onto the kitchen table before hurrying to the
computer. Sitting down I tore open the package, after noting the anime style drawing of
Rei-chan placed upon the back, with a brief 'hello'. As I shook the package a soft cotton
t-shirt fell out and onto my lap, grey, with my name on the back. On the front was a
symbol that Minako and Ami had made up, and had approved by the others. A symbol
that represented us, the Senshi, our hearts and powers as one.
I clutched the t-shirt to my chest as my heart began to ache. Without meaning to, I began
to cry, the cold tears sliding rapidly down my cheeks, falling with crystalin likeness onto
my shirt. I set it away from and ran into the living room, then out onto my small patio. I
sat down in a chair I had placed out there, pulling my knees up to my chest, chanting 'I
miss her, I miss her… dear gods, why do I miss her so?'
Thunder chose that moment to crack the sky, and for once I wasn't frightened. No, I hurt
to much to be frightened of the storm, only to become guilt racked and sorrowed by a
sudden memory from my past.
The memory of the time Mamo-chan broke up with me. I hadn't hurt this way since that
time, and now I understood why I was in pain.
I missed her so because I was in love with her. And the dreams I had dreamed the night
before had been of her, of us, making love.
But my choice was already made, and I could not take it back. I loved Mamo- chan as
well, at least as much as I love my Rei-chan. And I know that she doesn't feel that same
love for me.
No… I made my choice, and now I once again chose to abide by my choice. I love
Mamo-chan, and though I miss her, and sometimes dream of her….
Even unrequited love is food for the soul.
= = = = = = = = = = = =
Finished.
So? What'd ya think? Good, bad, awful?
Email me at: Aino_Junshin@yahoo.com