Chapter 1
I wake up to the sound of my alarm buzzing through my headphones. I smile really big as I realise that today I get to meet the Demi Lovato. I had bought tickets to her concert last month, and I was extremely lucky that I had won a meet and greet with Demi herself.
I looked at my phone to check the time. 9:30am. The concert didn't start until 6:30 tonight, but I was extremely excited anyway. I quickly get out of bed, which I regret instantly as I got really dizzy. I stood still for a few minutes and walked over to the bathroom. I brushed my hair and got all the knots out of it and put it up in a messy bun. After finishing with my hair, I walked downstairs to the kitchen. I found my mum cooking breakfast.
"What smells good?" I ask with a small grin as I sat down at the counter. My mum turned around and looked at me.
"I am cooking some pancakes. I had a small craving when I woke up." She said with a small chuckle. She turned back to her cooking and carried on. "Are you excited for tonight, y/n?" She asked. Why she asked that I have no idea, I had been talking about going and been so excited the day I found out she was touring.
"What do you think, mother? You really had to ask?" I said sarcastically. I got up from my chair and went back upstairs.
"Don't go too far, breakfast is almost ready!" My mum called out. I went back into my room and went over to my laptop. I logged onto Facebook and checked my messages. I sighed when I saw more hate messages in my inbox. I'm just glad that it's the weekend so I don't have to deal with all the verbal abuse I get. Then again, I think I prefer the verbal abuse than actually getting beat up.
You see, I am gay. I prefer the term 'gay' than 'lesbian' because I hate that word. I don't know why, I just do. But there were rumours going around school that I was lesbian, and my school is extremely homophobic. So that's why I tried to keep those things to myself, but the rumours had already spread. Everyday in school, I would get tripped or pushed over and have things thrown at me. I have no friends at school so obviously I sit by myself. The physical abuse only recently started, but it's horrible. I can't tell anyone that I'm actually gay, not even my own mother. My mum had always hated gays, and thinks that it is disgusting, hence my inability to tell her.
I deleted all the messages and closed facebook. I opened up my Tumblr page and checked my messages there. I smiled as I got a lot of support from strangers around the world. I smiled even bigger when I saw messages from my best friend in Germany. She is the only one that actually knows my full story, and actually supports me 100%. She is the only person in the world that I can fully trust with my life. And she was the one who introduced me to Demi's music when she first started in the music industry.
I quickly replied to all of my messages and heard my mum call out to me. I quickly shut the lip of my laptop and made my way downstairs. She had set out a plate with all the bacon on it and a plate with eggs. I went into the kitchen and grabbed a handful of bacon and two eggs. Mum grabbed her breakfast and made her way to the lounge room, with me following behind. We both sat down on the couch and turned to the TV. I quickly grabbed the remote and switched to Disney Channel.
My mum looked at me and laughed. I glared at her and turned back to the TV. One of the newer shows was on. Personally, I hated the new shows that Disney has. I prefer the older shows like 'That's so Raven' or 'Kim Possible' that used to be aired. I quietly ate my breakfast and watched TV. My mum had finished her breakfast quicker than me, but that was expected because I was more focused on the show than my food. Once I finished, I put my plate in the sink and went back up to my room.
I went into my bathroom and locked the door. I slowly knelt by the toilet and stared at it for a few minutes. I finally decided to continue as I stuck my fingers down my throat, causing my breakfast to come straight back up. After a few minutes of that, I stood back up and washed my face. I went back into my room and grabbed my skinny jeans and blue Paramore top. I put them on and put on my black vans. I get called emo a lot due to the amount of black that I wear, but I really didn't care because I like the colour black. I checked the time; 10:57.
As I was about to walk out of my room, I remembered about wearing a jacket. I jogged over to my wardrobe and grabbed my leather jacket. I put it on as I was walking down the stairs and walked to the front door. I took my phone and headphones from the table next to the door and hooked them up.
"Mum, I'm just going for a walk, okay?" I shouted out to her. I heard a small yes coming from the other side of the house. I nodded slightly and closed the door behind me. I put my headphones in and started playing Nightingale by Demi Lovato. I walked down my street and saw a bunch of kids from my school walk in a group. I quickly put my head down and prayed to god they didn't see me. Luckily they didn't and I sighed in relief.
I eventually ended up at a small park. I occasionally came here when I was upset, mainly because no one usually comes here. I made my way over to the swings and sat down and started softly swinging. I sat there for a good 30 minutes before I heard someone walking over to the swings. 'Probably some kids that want to play' I thought. 'If they want the swings they can ask'. Surprisingly, no one asked me for the swings. I looked up and saw someone sitting next to me on the other swing.
"I thought I would join you, if you don't mind" The stranger said. I looked over and saw a girl, in her early 20's sitting there smiling at me. She had beautiful blonde hair and had really cute earrings in. She had a dark pair of sunnies on so I couldn't see her eyes, unfortunately, but I didn't ask. She had a red v-neck shirt on which was underneath a leather jacket, like mine but shorter. She had cute white skinny jeans on which looked absolutely gorgeous on her.
"N-No I don't m-mind" I stuttered. Since when do I stutter? I looked down at my shoes and blushed. I looked back up at her and she was smiling at me. "What are you doing at this park? Hardly anyone knows about this place." I questioned.
"Well, I was out for a drive and came across this place so I decided to check it out," She said with a small smile. "I saw you there and you looked deep in thought so I stood there for 10 minutes debating to myself if I should join you or not." She looked at me and gave me a warm smile which I wanted to melt at. "What are you doing here?" She asked.
"Well, I usually come here when I'm either bored or upset." I said softly.
"Penny for your thoughts?" she asked quietly. I looked up at her and laughed softly.
"I don't want to bore you," I said. She looked at me expectantly, so I sighed and carried on. "It's just that I get so much hate for being me, and I get bullied at school and no one gives a shit about me" I said.
"Why are you getting bullied? What have you done wrong?" she said softly.
"I uh... like girls..." I said and put my head down in embarrassment. She will probably be disgusted with me and walk off, and would probably never ever wan-
"There is nothing wrong with that. You can't control that sort of thing. It just... happens" She said. She got off her swing and knelt in front of me, putting her finger under my chin and tilted my head up, forcing me to look at her. "Some people think that being gay is wrong, but they just need to grow up an understand that it is as natural as a girl loving a guy." She said with a small smile. "If you get bullied for that, then those people seriously need a wake up call."
"You think so?" I asked quietly, just above a whisper.
"Definitely. Now, I think I should head off, seeing that it's 2:30. I'm sorry to leave you like this, but I have important things to do." She said softly with a sad look on her face as she stood up. I got up and stood next to her.
"It's no problem. I should be getting home. My mum's probably wondering where I am." I said with a big smile. I don't know how, but this woman had made my day a lot better. I even forgot that I'm going to a Demi Lovato concert! "I guess I'll see you around?" I asked her.
"Of course. Now I better go. I'll see you later." She said with a big smile.
"See ya!" I said happily. She gave me a big hug and walked off. I watched her as she walked down the path towards the city. I sighed softly, slightly sad that she was leaving. I turned around and started heading back home. As I was walking, I suddenly realised that I never got her name. Slightly disappointed, I kept walking home.
When I got home, I realised it was 3:00. The concert started in three and a half hours. I told my mum yesterday that I wanted to leave a five so I could get a better spot. I went to the kitchen and sat down at the bench. I was on my phone playing a game when my mum came down and looked at me funny.
"When did you get home?" She said in a weird tone. What's up her ass? I thought.
"Just then. I only went for a walk." I said and glared at her. I got up and got an apple and went back up to my room. As soon as I walked into the room, I realised something was wrong. I looked around cautiously, making sure nothing was taken. After a few minutes of looking around, I shrugged it off and went into my bathroom to have a shower. After finishing in the shower, I got out and put on my bath robe and went back into my room towards my wardrobe. I decided to wear my black skinnies again and have a tank top and a jacket. I put those on and went back to the bathroom to do my makeup. I put on some dark eye liner and put on light eyeshadow. I grabbed my lipgloss and lined my lips with it.
An hour later, I finally finished my makeup, and walked downstairs. I sat down on the couch with my mum and started reading a book. I have no idea how long I was reading but before I know it it was quarter past five. I put the book down and got up, quickly grabbing a banana from the bench. I was eating my banana when mum came downstairs and grabbed a banana herself.
"Ready to go?" She asked putting on a smile. I could tell it wasn't a genuine smile, the way she was looking at me and the way she was standing seemed awkward.
"Absolutely! Lets go!" I said, putting on my biggest smile. I excitedly grabbed my phone and purse from the table, and speed walked to the car. My mum locked the door behind her and walked to the car. We both got in, and she started the car. I turned on the radio and was going through the channels as my mum reversed out of the driveway. I finally found a decent station, and we made our way to the concert.
It took about 5 – 10 minutes to get to the entertainment centre, and by the time we got there, the line was a bit big, but thankfully not too long. As my mum parked the car, I grabbed my purse and opened the door.
"Have fun sweetie! Tell Demi I said hi!" Mum said as I got out of the car. I could tell she really didn't care about Demi, and I was slightly hurt by that.
"I will. Bye mum, I love you!" I said before closing the door. I fixed my jumper and made my way over to the line. As I made my way over, I spotted a girl who looked my age standing by herself in line. She had blonde hair and blue eyes, from what I could see. She was wearing a small ljacket over a red v-neck top, with black skinny jeans. She looked pretty cute from where I was.'Well it's worth a shot' I thought. I made my way over and stood behind her.
"Hey." I said. 'Hey? Thats's all you could think of? You fucking moron!' I cursed silently. Luckily she didn't hear it and turned to face me. She gave me a friendly smile.
"Hey, yourself. You seeing Demi too?" she asked with a grin. She seemed excited to be here, but then again, who isn't excited to see Demi?
"Hell yea, I am a huge fan!" I exclaimed excitedly. I might finally make a friend tonight!
"So do you mind if I hang out with you tonight? I know no one else here because my friends don't like Demi." She asked politely. I saw a small blush appear on her cheeks as if she was embarrassed.
"I was going to ask you the same thing actually. And I don't really have friends anyway so I came by myself." I said putting my head down to look at my shoes.
"Why don't you have friends?" She questioned, looking at me with a worried face.
"Well, I go to a homophobic school and no one wants to hang out with me so yea." I said shrugging my shoulders.
"Well they are just a bunch of jerks." She smiled at me. "What's your name?"
"Y/n, I've adapted to that name more than my actual name," I laughed. "Yours?"
"Jen. My actual name is Jenny, but I prefer Jen." She told me. We ended up talking the whole time we were in line and exchanged numbers. I learnt that she moved here a few months ago and is going to go to my school next year. It was awesome, knowing I can share my final senior year with someone other than myself. As it finally hit 6, the line started moving forward. I looked at Jen and she seemed just as excited as I was.
As we made our way inside, we both grabbed a sign and a poster to hold up while Demi performed. I made sure to keep my poster for her to sign when I meet her. We made our way towards the front of the stage and waited for Demi to come out. We were lucky enough to get right up the front. After half an hour, music started playing, and before we know it, Demi was up on stage singing 'Give Your Heart A Break'. It was amazing, over 20,000 people singing the song together. Demi walked up and down the stage, occasionally touching peoples hands.
I was singing along to the song with Jen when I locked eyes with Demi. The song finished and 'Who's That Boy' started playing. She walked over to me and knelt down, grabbing my outstretched hand. We held hands for about a minute as she sung directly to me. I was completely shocked when Demi walked away. I turned to Jen. She stood there staring at me with her mouth wide open. Holy. Shit. Demi NEVER does that with anyone. EVER. The concert continued and before I know it, it was time for the meet and greet. I slowly made my way backstage, and I was the last one in line. That's okay, I'm always last for most things.
It took about an hour for me to actually see Demi with other people. Another 20 minutes later it was finally my turn. I was extremely nervous, even though I really shouldn't be. She waved goodbye to the person that was in front of me and turned to face me.
"Lucky last I see," She giggled. My god that giggle is so adorable. "I'm glad I can finally talk to you in person again." She laughed. Wait, what? What does she mean again? Then it hit me like a tonne of bricks.
"That was you in the park?" I asked, completely shocked. How did I not recognise her!? I must be fucked in the head. Alot of people think I am so I must be.
"Yea. And when I saw you at the front, I got really excited that you were there. You're really cute you know." She said as she blushed. Awww... She looked so adorable when she blushed.
"I was completely shocked when you held my hand out there," I said as I looked into her beautiful brown eyes. I could stare into them all day if I could. "I thought you never do that type of stuff."
"Well, I guess I couldn't help it. And plus, I never caught your name." She said smugly. I giggled at her and blushed.
"Hi, I'm y/n. Nice to meet you." I said in a sarcastic tone and held my hand out for her to shake. She laughed and batted my hand away and pulled me into a hug. We were both laughing for a while before we heard someone calling Demi back to stage.
"I gotta go. I'll catch up with you later okay? Enjoy the rest of the show, sweetie." She said with a sad smile. She seemed disappointed to leave, and so was I. She kissed my forehead and walked off. A security guard appeared behind me.
"Sorry sweetie, but you gotta go back to the front. I'll have to escort you." He said calmly. I expected security guards to be more aggressive, but then again he is dealing with an 18 year old girl so he has some reason to be nice.
"Of course, sir." I said with a small smile. I followed him back out to the front of the stage and went back to Jen. She saw me and smiled a toothy grin.
"How was it? Did you get to meet Demi?" She asked impatiently. I giggled at her and nodded.
"Of course. I didn't spend an extra hundred bucks for nothing." I smiled at her. I turned to face the stage and saw Demi walk back out. She walked over to the piano and started playing 'Skyscraper'. Everyone in the crowd put their signs up and sang along. Once the song was finished, she stepped back a bit and told someone something. None of us heard since she pushed her mic away. She smiled and proceeded with the show. She started singing 'La La Land' and did a funny move at a certain lyric. The whole crowd screamed, including me. I mean, come on, she pushed her butt out, who didn't like that?
After finishing that song, she stood at the mic and waited until most of the audience quietened down. "Alright guys, I just want to dedicate this song to all those people out there, who are struggling through everyday," she said into the mic. She turned and looked at me before continuing. "And to all those people who struggle with bullying for being who they are. Don't allow them to get to you, always know that I will be there for you. When you're feeling down, put on my music. I'll be there to help you." She backed away from the mic before signalling the band to start.
'Warrior' started playing and though out most of the song, Demi and I locked eyes and stared for a few moments before she pulled away. After that song finished, the start of 'Don't Forget' started and everyone screamed. I was jumping as Demi rocked it on her guitar, before a security guard stood in front of me telling me to follow him. I was shocked at first and jumped over the gate and followed him, and then started panicking.
I didn't do anything wrong. Did I? All these thoughts ran through my head as the guard led me backstage and sat me down in a room. I'm missing the amazing concert for some stupid reason. I paid for my ticket! I should be able to see the whole thing! I thought to myself. I sat down on a chair and waited anxiously to see what will happen.