Only Remembered

Fading Away like the stairs in the morning

When I woke, John was very pale; his once so alive eyes were starting to lose the character they once had. And it killed me when I saw him like this; I couldn't help him even though I wanted too. I wanted to save him so badly from the monster that was killing him from the inside

Losing their light in the glorious sun

And the sun was shining; god of all days for it to shine it chose this one. The sunrays just seemed to fill the emptiness of the room and replace the words we couldn't say to each other. It gave him a distraction, I saw it in his eyes as he looked at it, his hand occasionally went up into the air and let the sun dance on his skin, like he was savouring those last few minutes before he died

Thus would we pass from this earth and its toiling

I knew that if he died now and here he would be saved the pain. A hard and long life does that to you; make death seem like an old friend that will cradle your weakened body from its hurt. A solider spends his life fighting so why should he fight in death?

Only remembered for what we have done

The lives he's saved…I thought as I watched him take some more of his labored breaths. The lives he's helped in a way repair by saving them, it's a doctor's duty I suppose and how well he did that duty is beyond me. But there will be no memorial for him. All the lives he had saved and not one was here to watch him fade. All accept one. He saved my life and here I was, lying beside him with the constant beeping of his life support machine reminding me that we don't have the forever we promised each other we had.

Only remembered, only remembered

I don't want to forget him now. I doubt I ever will, a man like John Hamish Watson is hard to forget, his swearing and jumpers, his love for hedgehogs. I knew I would never be able to forget him, he has his own room in my mind palace and without it my mind is not complete. He's there every night with Redbeard just waiting for me, a kind smile on his face which he only uses when he's in a good mood…like when I get the milk.

Only remembered for what we have done

I checked the monitor to see his breathing…

Thus would we pass from this earth and its toiling

It was when the heart monitor stopped that I realized fate had taken its cause. No more suffering for him now, just his dreams to guide him

Only remembered for what we have done.

"Goodnight sweet prince; and flights of angels sing thee to thy rest," I whispered as I leaned down and kissed his lips. Even though they were cold I knew there had been life before them, so much life and hate. He didn't show the hate much and I loved him for that, a man who had known war all his life had finally found the white flag and finally surrendered.