A/N: My grandma just had a stroke and I don't know how to deal with it yet...
Family Issues...
Sometimes family can make you feel weird without intending to do so.
Maybe it's the way every family works, maybe it just happens in some families.
Jesse grew up in a pretty normal family. His parents weren't as successful as they wanted to be and for his grandparents the most important thing was their reputation. Somehow, these two characteristics weren't interfering with each other.
Normally the grandparents would concentrate on their children, push them to success, but Jesse's grandparents loved concentrating on him.
They had started by giving his parents money. Money for DVDs of hospital series, like ER or Grey's Anatomy. Money for extra classes in biology, chemistry. Money to influence his dreams.
Somehow, non of that had worked. He had grown up to be in love with music, the most amazing thing in the world. He never really liked medicine and he knew he would never be a good doctor, but he could be a great singer, actor, performer...
Keeping this in mind, it was almost normal, that he didn't have a good relationship with his grandparents. They never accepted his love for the stage and they still gave him DVDs of Private Practice and Mercy. He knew that would never change, but he also knew that he had to live HIS dreams not theirs. And deep inside he always hoped they would be proud of him one day...
Dinners with his family never felt good. He would go there, listen to his grandfather talking about the neighbors son, who had just started medical school, watch his mother getting sad, that she would never have a son like that. There was always a big meal and a dead bird on the table. His grandmother always gave Jesse the knife, that looked more like a scalpel, and made him cut the bird. Then everyone would comment on how calm his hands were and how good he would be as a doctor.
In his dreams he always left the table at that point, trying to show his family that he couldn't take it anymore, but in reality he stayed because he respected them and they were his family after all.
But when he got home he always felt bad. The people who should stand behind him in every situation hurt him with their ignorance and also, they weren't proud of him and he knew they would never be.
But one day, every family needs to stick together.
This was the day his grandmother had to go to the hospital. Nobody really knew much, but she was in a part of the hospital called 'Stroke Unit' and that didn't sound good. Jesse's father had just told him about that and every normal grandson would have been shocked, or sad. At least every normal grandson would have felt something.
Somehow Jesse didn't feel much. He had never been close to her. He had never had the feeling that she liked him in any way. He had never really talked to her, because she didn't seem to want that.
The only thing he felt was guilt. Guilt for not feeling anything. He didn't want to be so distant but maybe that was how it was supposed to be. Maybe it was karma. Maybe it was his fault that this happened. Maybe he should have spent more time with her. Maybe this was supposed to show him the right way.
TBC...
A/N: I can't believe I really feel that way about my grandmother. I mean I hope she's alright, but it feels like she's someone I don't really know. Someone you meet on the train, talk to for an hour and then never meet again. Is that normal ? …