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She felt caged. Hidden behind the bars. A prison, that's what Kim Tan's house is. And she is the prisoner.
This is not how she imagined her life beside Tan would be. This was not her. She never was a prisoner, never wished to be one. She was a free spirit. She wanted to fly, to see the world, to have fun… to live.
She didn't want a life like in fairy tales, where the prince puts everything on the line for her, and then he locks her in his palace, promising her everything. She didn't want the moon or the stars. She wanted the lava and the city's noise. She wanted to party, to have fun and drink with her friends. Reading books from morning till night wasn't a perfect day for her.
Not being able to see Tan because of his crowded schedule wasn't something she wanted. Seeing the one you love, once a week, was a bad dream. She didn't risk her life and fought against his father for a bad dream. No. She did it for a happy life next to her beloved. But this is far from a happy life.
She wants... no, she needs thrill. She wants to run away from the police through the back door. She wants to drive at full speed through the crowded streets. She wants danger. Feeling her heart beat out of her chest, hearing the police siren, squeezing the hand of the man next to her, laughing at the end of the day after getting away from the cops… this would be a perfect day for her.
What saddens her is that the hand she wants to hold is not Kim Tan's.
She knows exactly who the man she wishes to have next to her is. Unfortunately, that man denies her existence.
Ever since she chose Tan over Young Do, there's never been a day for her not to regret her decision. Shortly after Kim Tan's father approved of their relationship, she came to realize that their love was only a beautiful dream… which turned to be not that beautiful anymore.
So she decided to leave, to leave him and that prison of a house, to leave his family. And to leave behind anything that was related to him, including her old self.
From today onwards she'll do whatever she needs to make herself happy. She promised to herself that she'll go and never look back.
She already sent all of her belongings to her new apartment, first thing in the morning. Now the only thing left was talking to Kim Tan. At first she planned to leave without telling him. But she soon realized that this will break his heart completely. Even though she didn't love him anymore, she could see in his eyes that he loved her with all of his might. He just didn't know how to show it, when she needed his love the most… and she got tired of waiting.
Luckily, today was the day he was supposed to come home after a long month of business trips. She decided that today she'll cook for him. He never let her cook, saying that maids were supposed to do that and not her. After all this time he still didn't realize that she wanted to do things her own way, with her own two hands.
He never understood her. Never took a minute to ask her what she wants to do. He mostly forced her to do things, like taking her to his boring meetings, or to have dinner with his coworkers, or order in her place when dinning at a restaurant… she never liked shrimps. They were disgusting. But he ordered them for her every single time. She never liked champagne, but he'll open one every time they were alone.
She came to realize that at some point, there were more things she hated about him, than loved.
When the door to their room opened, she turned around to see Kim Tan. Her heart sank a bit knowing what'll come next.
"Hello." He greeted her lightly. He was looking at her, waiting for her usual smile whenever he came home after a long time. But there was no smile. A frown appeared on his face, and Eun Sang knew that he also knew that things are going to get ugly.
"What's wr-" She cut him off "- Sit down Tan. I want to talk to you about something."
He didn't move. She wasn't going to wait for him anymore. "I'm done." She said and struggled to keep the tears from falling down her cheeks.
"Done with what?" This time he started to move closer to her, but she placed a hand in front of her, keeping him at distance.
"With us. I want to break up. I want to break free." Tears came running down her pale face. And at that moment he knew that if she leaves now, she won't be coming back.
"Please. Please don't go." He pleaded for her not to leave him, but she was never more sure of her decision.
"Goodbye Tan." With a light kiss on his wet cheek, she left without glancing back at the one she once loved more than herself. Unfortunately for Kim Tan, that girl was long gone. This Eun Sang is going to live her life to the fullest, running away from the police, holding the hand of the man who keeps appearing in her dreams every night.
She placed the little ring box he gave her before he left last month, next to the dinner she cooked for him.
I hope one day you'll forgive me, Kim Tan. I'm sorry.