Hey guys! Before I start writing I just wanted to let you know that I will update "It Just Hurts" as soon as possible, but it's not finished yet. I'm currently going through what Naruto is going through in this one-shot. I just need to let it out so I decided on writing it as a story for Sasuke and Naruto.

This is REALLY short, but whatever.

Enjoy!

XOXO Victoria

Disclaimer: I own nothing *sobs*

It hurts. It really physically hurts. It feels as though someone has punched me in my face, kicked me down to the floor, and then just looks down on me laughing.

I feel humiliated, I feel used, and most of all I feel alone.

I can see his back when he walks away from me with Sakura, Shikamaru and Sai. And I can feel that all too familiar feeling of betrayal. I used to be there, together with them. It used to be me instead of Sai. I clench my hand as waves of anger pours through me. How could they just replace me? How can they live with themselves knowing that I'm hurting?

I growl low to myself as I narrow my eyes, glaring angrily at his back.

We used to be best friends. Best fucking friends. We talked every day. We texted every day. He looked at me every day. Now it's been two months since he said one word to me. Maybe you think I'm joking, but no, not one single useless word. It's like he just woke up one day and thought "No, I'm never gonna talk to him again". I don't even know what I did wrong. Am I not enough? There must be something wrong with me if not even my best friend finds me worthy.

The worst part of it all is being constantly reminded of how it used to be. How he used to talk to me like he talks to Sai. How he punched me friendly on the arm like he does to Shikamaru. How he laughed at my jokes like he does to Sakura.

Why can't I have that again? What did I do?

I look away from him as a memory starts to once again take form in my head.

"You really are a moron" he says as he slaps me lightly over the head. I can't help but smile at his annoyed expression.

"And you're a bastard Sasuke" I answer with a laugh "now that we've stated the obvious, can we continue?"

I look down on the paper with numbers on it and I mentally wince, I really don't want to continue but what can you do?

Sasuke sighed heavily as he started explaining the equation while letting his finger dance over the paper, building a visible picture of what he was saying. His bangs are hanging loosely down his face, framing it perfectly. His nose is wrinkled in concentration and his lips are turned down in a frown. He really is beautiful.

As if feeling my gaze he turns his head towards me and locks his eyes with mine. Deep blue meets pitch black. For minutes we just looked at each other, not saying anything, just letting our eyes do the talking. From out of nowhere I feel an ache in my chest. A kind of ache I've never felt before. It was as though someone put pressure on me heart.

That's the moment that I knew. He held my heart in his hands. Basically my life was in his possession. I'd do anything for him, anything. It was up to him, he held the power to crush my heart if he wanted to. Leave me broken and alone. With one action my life could be destroyed. And I trusted him with it. That's when I knew that I loved Uchiha Sasuke with all my heart.

He looks away and clears his throat "Naruto, have you even been listening to me at all?"

I raise my hand to scratch at the back of my neck "Heh.. Of course I have.." I grin nervously at him.

I loved Sasuke. That's was not a good thing. He's my best friend! What If I fuck everything up? I can't let that happen, fuck, what should I do?

I shake my head to get rid of the unpleasant memory. After my realisation of my love for Sasuke something awful happened.

Sasuke started flirting with me. He would let his eyes linger on me just a little bit longer, he would rest his hand on my knee anytime he got the chance, he teased me, calling me stupid, wanting a reaction. He made it seem as if he really liked me. As if I actually meant something to him. Pfft yeah right.

I remember thinking that I'd rather die than continue on without him.

So what now? Am I dead? Am I nothing? Because he's definitely not with me anymore. I don't think he ever was. It was all just an act. Make him trust you, make him love you, and then ignore him. Ignore him just like he isn't there, like he doesn't exist to you.

I hate him. I really do. I hate all of them, for doing this to me. For leaving me all alone. For replacing me with some stupid wannabe. For making me love them.

Everything, every word, every day up till now with them has been an illusion. I've never had friends, they were all lying assholes. I've never had anything.

I can't keep on living like this. Constantly feeling pain all over, and having to just smile it away. Every time my smile get's faker and faker, but I don't have the friends to notice that I'm broken. I don't have the friends that'd put comforting arms around my shoulders and just listen to me.

My eyes hurts from holding back the tears that so desperately wants to break free. My stomach hurts as I walk away. Pictures are flashing through my head, all of me and them smiling, laughing, walking together. Everything was allright, I was happy.