Dear Diary,
This will be my last entry. I need to tell my story. The full and compete story about what happened to me and to those whom I loved. I will start from the beginning and maybe I will finally heel from the pain my heart that I feel today, yesterday, for the past five years. It's hard losing yourself in someone and its even harder losing someone you loved. Life was not what I expected it to be and I can never go back to the way it was. I will forever be changed by events that I had no control over. That I was simply born into. Who said life was fair because its not. So I will start at the beginning when I finally went to Mystic Falls. I got enough courage to find them. Katherine told me they would be easy to find and they were. I just wished she could have been there with me. To smooth over the introduction. Give me insight into why I was looking for the brothers. I still didn't understand why she died, why she changed me. I still couldn't understand why she looked just like me. Seems Isobel wanted me to stay human. Too bad she wasn't able to stick around and help me figure out why these brothers were so detrimental to my existence. Why they had to be found and be protected. Isobel was running from something. The same something I think killed Katherine and was coming after the brothers. Katherine had centuries of experience with being a vampire. And she sent me out on a mission with just one.
I would still cry thinking about the family I had to leave behind to exist now in a world I barely understood. I was hoping somehow these brothers would give me some answers I'm seeking. I was hoping somehow these brothers, Damon and Stefan would help me adjust to this new life I'm leading. I felt lost. All I had was this ring Katherine left me to walk in the daylight and a book about my family history. I had nothing else not even my identity because up until my seventeenth birthday I had no idea I was adopted.
When I arrived to Mystic I checked into a motel and went out to search for them. I found them rather quickly asking around town about them. They were at a local grill and bar playing pool. I hid in the corner of the bar hoping to blend in but the older of the two seemed to feel me there. His eyes flickered upon my face to many times in that one moment that I saw them I had to get out of there. I chickened out. I kept thinking that maybe tomorrow would be a better day. Maybe tomorrow I would be able to face them.
It was the fifth of October and the leaves were falling around Mystic Falls leaving beautiful orange, yellow and brown trails on the ground. The woods outside of their mansion is where I had came everyday since I had arrived in Mystic and the woods were where I would escape to everyday when I get too scared to face them, chicken out and run like hell. I didn't know what it was about those two brothers. I have been able to approach people numerous times before. Before becoming a Vampire and now that I was one. But these boys were different. I felt like I had known them my whole life. Like they were a key to a missing piece of me. I felt a sort of pull toward them and I had an undeniable attraction to both of them as well.
It was getting late and I hated to be alone in the woods sharp vamp teeth or not. The weather was chilly. I didn't get cold but I wore a pea coat just to play the part. The lights were on in the mansion. I knew they were home. I could barely make out words from the distance I was standing. I had to be safe that they could not hear me either. Last thing I needed was them thinking I was some stalker.
The only thing in that moment I could think about was the older brothers eyes. His green eyes upon mine in the bar scorching hot burning right into the core of me. It wasn't so much that he caught me starring at them but that he knew who I was. Or what I was and in that moment he realized something as well. What? I'm not sure but I couldn't get his eyes out of my head. I had to know what it was. It was like an electric pull or connection that freaked me out I ran out of there with my tail between my legs. I never felt anything like that and it was just his eyes upon me for that moment.
And then it all happened so quickly. I heard footsteps and then a voice.
"Whose there", a calm voice came from behind me.
"We know you're out here. We can smell you. Hear you thinking in the dark". This voice was circling ahead of me. This voice was had a snaky tone to it.
"We have you surrounded. We don't want to harm you". The first voice said before the second one interrupted, "Don't say we Stefan say I. I don't mind hurting you" the voice echoed in the trees. Stefan was the calmer of the two voices. Damon had the more aggressive tone.
I was caught. If I didn't speak up now I would be killed by Damon Salvatore one of the two boys I was created to protect. I didn't come this far to die. I had to speak.
"Please don't hurt me. I'm Elena Gilbert. I was sent to find you two". The next second I felt a sharp point upon my heart and breath upon my face.
"Did you just say Gilbert?" Damon Salvatore breathed upon my face. I looked into his eyes. They smoldered into mine catching every inch of me on fire. How was I to breathe let alone answer him with the amount of heat circulating through out my body. Oh yeah the pointed object he had pressing against my heart. The reminder of that made the flame diminish very quickly. How strange how quickly I could make the flame inside of me die.
My voice so shaky it could sway the tress I mustered out "Yes Gilbert. Elena Gilbert. I was sent to find you two."
"By who" a voice chimed in behind me. Stefan Salvatore now clamped his hands upon mine bring them behind my back. His touch electrified me.
At first I didn't speak. I was too concerned by the electrocution and the burning inside of me. What was this power over me that these brothers possessed? It was starting to scare the crap out of me now and I was afraid Katherine had set me up for death.
Damon began pressing the sharp object deeper into my coat now ripping its fabric and piercing my t-shirt. Stefan's hand now hurting me no longer electrifying me was beginning to hurt like hell. I would die in two seconds if I didn't shout her name.
"Katherine". Immediately Stefan's hands released me and whatever Damon had pressed up against my skin was dropped to the floor. The next moment was a blur but I was very fastly picked up and airlifted it felt like into the mansion. At this point I was placed in a chair and so quickly tied to it I didn't have time to lift my head up before a hand electrified my face pulling my long dark hair out of it. Damon on his knees just inches from my face his eyes locking into mine. He stumbled back. Fire.
"No way." He muttered scrambling himself back up onto his feet. I lifted my head to the two brothers who stood in front of me dumb founded and confused.
"Why do you look like her?" Damon blurted out without hesitation.
"I don't know" was all I could reply. It was the truth.
Stefan now examining me more closely with squinted eyes asked, "how do you know Katherine."
I lifted my head and shook the remaining hair out of my face. "She is my great great great grandmother and she changed me."
"But you said your last name was Gilbert". Damon shot back at me.
Afraid to look in his eyes again I stared at Stefan instead. As long as he didn't touch me I could do this.
"Gilbert is my adopted name. My mothers name is Isobel. I met her two days after Katherine came to my house in the middle of the night and bit me. When I finally woke up changed and I was very confused thinking I was starring at myself dreaming she told me I was a vampire. That she was my grandmother and that I was adopted. She then said two names, yours along with a place I could find you Mystic Falls. She said it was very important to find you and protect you both. She said if I didn't I would be killed and so would you but together we stood a chance against them. She quickly left after that. Two days later still at home trying to sort out the nightmare that was now my life Isobel my mother told me Katherine was killed. I asked by whom, she didn't reply. I asked her why I looked like her she wouldn't tell me. All she said she could do was tell me she was my mother and that I had to leave immediately because they were coming. And just as quick as she came she left and so did I. I have been a runaway ever since."
The brothers stood before me with eyes amazed and a bit confused.
"You do know who the Gilberts are right?" Damon asked.
"They were my adopted parents. But they died two years earlier in a car crash. My aunt was caring for me".
What came next out of Stefan's mouth could have knocked me off my feet if I were standing.
"Elena, the Gilberts are founders of this town. They were the part of the reason Vampires were sought out, Katherine included. They tried to kill us."
"They did? My ancestors?" I asked confused.
Damon chuckled, "Your adopted ancestors. You are a Pierce. Well a Petrova actually."
"A Petrova?" I whispered.
Stefan began to untie my hands as he spoke gently to me trying to lay the truth on me more easily then Damon had been. "Katherine came to us stating to be Katherine Pierce. She changed us and abandoned us leaving both our hearts broken."
Confused I whispered, "you both were in love with her?"
Damon refused to even be a part of this conversation walking to the side table and pouring himself a drink.
"Yes we both were until Katherine came found us in New York about fifteen years ago trying to lie her way back into our hearts. She used us both once again making the two of us hate each other more than we had for centuries because of her.
I interrupted finally free of bondage "what did she want"? I asked.
Damon fluttered by my side holding his hand out to mine. I grabbed it and he lifted me up so that I was no longer sitting in the prisoners chair but standing with them as equals. I felt no fire when he touched me. It didn't work by touch only when I looked in his eyes. I was grateful for that. If I felt it then I would have fallen to my knees. "She wanted to get information on the founding families. We didn't ask questions we just gave it to her what we had. Some old books and objects we acquired over the years"
"What kind of information?" I asked as Damon handed me a glass full of gin. I quickly swallowed it. It helped kill the thirst if only for a moment.
"She wanted to know where the families had gone. The Gilbert's, your family had left Mystic a few years earlier. We knew where they were because we kept tabs on all of the founding families hoping one day we could go back to Mystic. Waiting for those who had seen us before to die off. Cant go around old people as yourself thirty years prior. You can say they are loosing their minds but people in Mystic are superstitious. They would begin digging and our cover would be blown. As a vampire you have to stay low key. But this is our home and we come here as often as we can."
I was so confused. Why I was I adopted by Gilbert's? Isobel was my mother who was clearly a vampire. What did she have to do with the Gilbert's and why did she give them to me?
"So why do you think I was adopted or given to my parents. Gilberts? A founding family when Isobel was clearly a vampire in my room?"
They both looked at each other. For once they didn't have the answers.
Stefan leaned against the edge of the couch staring at me with eyes so suspicious they could not lie. He had loved Katherine and the sight of me was killing him. Damon on the other hand seemed a bit more cool and relaxed. He was more accepting to the fact that I looked like her.
"I don't know why Elena. Katherine mentioned a relative named Isobel when she was here. Said one day we may meet her. She wanted us to clearly know she was a Petrova. But it seems to me that Isobel has some kind of link to your parents. Maybe you were a love child. An affair that went wrong?"
Immediately I became defensive, "no way. My father would never cheat on my mother. Especially with a vampire. How is that even possible?"
Damaon began to chuckle. He looked at Stefan who wore a big grin as well.
"What"? I demanded not liking that I was being laughed at.
"Vampire women cant have children Elena. Once a vamp you are done bearing kids. It's impossible. Isobel was a human when you were born and must have became a vampire after. You don't have any idea about Vampires do you?" Damon was grinning.
I shook my head innocently.
"So who is the daddy is the BIG question" Damon blurted out sarcastically. "Is he a Gilbert? Is he a Vampire now?"
"There are so many questions to be answered Elena. But for now we must trust you. I think if Katherine changed you and sent you here she did it for a reason. Now I don't trust her for many reasons." Stefan explained pain upon his face.
I quickly replied hoping to ease some pain "Well she is dead now so we cant really trust her anymore". Gosh I wish I didn't say that. The look upon their face was horrific. It was like somewhere between the shock of my face and my story they just didn't hear when I said that Isobel told me she had died. I immediately wanted to say those words again. This time a bit more sympathetic. Stefan's eyes were the saddest. Damon's just burned with fire.
"Well that's another story." Damon quietly said. "Stefan you want some gin"? He asked as his gaze followed his brother across the room.
Stefan began to walk up the stairs obviously getting out of our presence before he let his emotions take over. "No I think I'll have some blood". And he darted away and into his room quicker than I could blink my eyes.