I love you, I hate you

I love you. Because those eyes of yours will always look after me. You never lose me from your sight, and this makes me feel like I am important to you.

I hate you. Because as much as I want to feel special to you, I know that your eyes don't want to lose me from your sight, as I am the one to bear the purse of money for you. And then I think that this is the only reason why you keep me around.

Yet I love you, because it will be me that you will run to when you get youself in trouble. I am your only hope and you depend on me.

But I hate you, because it doesn't really seem that I am helping you; it's more like you are exploiting me. I have never received a 'thanks'. Though I can't help but loving you anyway, since whenever I can no longer work or cheat in poker for you, you will get a hold of me by my waist, put me on our shoulder and run away in unmatched speed. Being able to be this close to you makes my heart pound happily, even though my whole body complains painfully as you shake it in this wild race against luck.

Yet I should hate you, because when I am not tired, you will just leave me there and let me deal with of your endless debts all by myself.

I love you, I hate you. You are always hidden somewhere close by, so I can find you and we can run away...
This is, though, so exausing and yet I know that you will never let go of this troublesome habit of yours.

Oh, I love you, I hate you! By the nights of those awfully tiring days, you will let me rest my head against your shoulder and your heart beats will lull me to sleep. Your eyes will watch over me and your arm will find its place around me, like a guard dog. Those nights are so warm...

Oh, but there are nights that the same arms will hound other bodies, sharing much more of your warmth than you would e'er share with me!

I love you and I hate it. Because I am so hopeless.

I hate you and I love it. Because you really deserve to be hated. But I just can't bring myself to do it with all my heart.

I love you so much and hate you a little bit. Because if there's nothing to hold my love down, nothing will stop me from diving in a deep river of sin.