Title: Have You Ever
Author: Kat!
Disclaimer: Don't own him...wish I did. Oh the possibilities.
Rating: PG...maybe? Meh, just read it.
Content: Angst, perhaps?
Characters: I had to make my contribution to the Eddie/Dawn pairing.
Summary: Dawn reflects over the one man she can't have.
Warnings: This was written on the heels of a binge. Dawn's POV.
Lyrical inspiration: "Have You Ever" by Brandy. Lyrics at the end.
Another practice done, and I'm no closer to him than he is to that belt. Okay, so maybe that was a little harsh, but is it THAT hard to return a phone call? It isn't like he goes out clubbing every night or something...right? I'm just being a female. He has more important things to do than sitting in his hotel room, waiting for an invite from some diva who is just with him because it's convenient. But I'm not like those other girls...
If he only knew how much I truly cared about him. I get there early just to say hey to him. Of course, what else am I supposed to do, I can't sleep. He's in my dreams and he's in my thoughts. My in-ring work is getting sloppy because I can't focus on anything but his smile. I don't know what I would do if one of those mega-killowatt smiles were ever directed at me. I think I would die. But I would die happy.
Then, there are times where I don't feel like a whole girl anymore. I walk around, I smile, and I wave, I go through the motions of being alive. How can I be alive without a heart though? That man has single-handedly, Mmm...those hands, taken me from the strong-willed woman I used to be and turned me into a pile of romantic goo lying in a heep at those ivory cowboy boots of his.
I've stood infront of my mirror in my hotel room and rehearsed what to say, I really have. I'd march right up to him and tap him on the shoulder, wrap my arms around him and give him the kiss of his life. Okay, so maybe that isn't exactly words, but I'd love to do it just the same. If he only knew how much I loved him...if he only knew.
Some of the girls, Amy, Trish, Stacy for starters, ask me why I turn down date offers from guys like Orton or Cena, etc. Why? Just to tell them that I'm head over heels in love with someone else? Someone I want to hug and be held by, someone who I want to go to sleep beside while he whispers sweet Spanish nothings into my ear...someone I want to grow old with. Someone I want to die with. I can't do that to him. I would feel like I was cheating on him, even though we aren't together.
Well diary, thanks for listening again. I know you're probably tired of hearing about it, aren't you? Well, until I muster up the courage to talk to him, I'm afraid you'll have to. You'll be the first person I tell if I ever do get to talk to him, then you'll get to listen to me squee about that for...well...however long that lasts. Until then, this is Dawn signing off.
P.S. How does Dawn Marie Guerrero sound to you? Yeah, I like it too.
Have You Ever- by Brandy
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all of your life
You'd do just anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for the day when they will care
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you into my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep