Bella pov
"My dearest Edward,"
I wrote elegantly on a piece of parchment paper.
"I know this hurts you to read this, just as much as it hurts me to write it."
This letter has been written over and over in my head but I just can't stand to go another day like this. I need some time. He may not understand but this will help both me, and him in the long run.
"I love you! That is the one thing that will never change."
The tears were falling from my face into the paper.
"But I can't do this. I can't sit here and let you hurt me like this. It hurts me to much."
I sat at Edward's big, walnut desk, writing the words that tore my heart out.
"I am taking Renesmee to my mothers for the holidays. We can talk after I have had some time to think. Please let me just have some time to sort this all out.
Yours always,
Bella"
I laid the folded the paper on my pillow next to Edwards sleeping head.
Walking across the room toward the door to Renesmee's room I felt like I had just torn my heat in two.
She was sleeping soundly in her bed when I picked her up with one arm, and her backpack full of clothes with the other.
I opened the door to the living area sat Renensmee on the couch then I headed to the kitchen.
In the kitchen, I gathered together enough food to last us a few days. It would only take a day to get to Forks, Washington. I laid the note I wrote Alice on the kitchen table then grabbed Renesmee and walked out the front door with all our bags and food, without as much as a second glance.
I threw the bags int the trunk of my 1970 Challenger T/A, Edward bought me for Christmas last year.
Opening the front passenger door and I pushed the seat back and squeezed Renesmee into her seat and strapped her in.
Getting her out of her bed, into her car seat, and the door closed without her waking up was a blessing.
Running around to the drivers side and opened the door and got in, and clicked the seat belt across me. I got the key in the ignition and the car started wishing the whole time Edward wouldn't wake up.
Luckily the garbage man went by and drowned out the sound of the car starting. I sent a silent Thank You to God.
Backing out the the driveway and getting into 1st gear, I made my way to Forks, Washington.
Edward pov
I awoke with a big smile on my face. I had a wonderful sleep until I rolled over to empty sheets.
I saw a piece of folded paper laying on Bella's pillow, with my name written across the front.
Halfway through the letter I crumpled it up and threw it across the room. Jumping out of bed , I threw on some pants then ran across the room and opened the door nearly throwing it off it's hinges.
When I saw at the empty pink sheets, I sank to my knee's and sobbed. I had just lost the two most important women in my life.
I raked my brain trying to figure out where they would go, then remembered that Bella had said she was taking Renesmee to her parents.
Bella loved her family too much to desert them in her time of need. Getting myself up off the floor, I walked to the front door, grabbing a shirt and coat on my way.
Grabbing my keys off the counter, I saw a letter to Alice in Bella's handwriting. I picked it up and put it in my pocket then picked up my cell phone and called Alice.
"Hello?" She answer after the first ring.
"Alice? Bella has taken Renesmee to Forks. She's freaking me out."
"I know, I'm on my way over." Just then I heard a honk from outside. I looked out the window and saw Alice in her yellow Porsche waving at me. I hung up the phone and headed out the door.
I got in the passenger side of Alice's car. "Hi."
"Hi." She was way to perky for me this early in the morning. "Forks, Washington, here we come!" She giggled.
Bella pov
2 hours down, 3 to go.
Which means Renesmee would be waking up at any time. I'm going to be dreading that conversation.
"Faithfully" by Journey started to play on the radio and the tears started to flow down my cheeks. Edward and I sang that song at a karaoke bar on our last date before he proposed. That had always been our song. Every time we heard that song, our lips met into a passionate kiss. We never felt the same after that. We were always different in the morning. We would be happy beyond our wildest dreams. We sang to that song at our wedding. It played when I rocked Renesmee for the first time. We conceived Renesmee to that song. I couldn't let that go. I loved him too much.
I couldn't let it bother me. He hid it from me. He lied to me. He lied to my baby. He let her down. He let me down. I had to have some time to myself. He wouldn't get it but it will take time to get it into his head.
But I refused to let it get too far into my head. I couldn't get lost in my head.
"Mommy?" I heard a little voice ask from the back seat.
"Yes, baby?" I looked at my, eye rubbing Renesmee, whipping the tears from my own face.
"What are we doing? Where are we going? Where's daddy?" I looked back at that 4 year old face that sadden. She got me through everything and I don't know if I could be there for her. She has been there for me and I keep wondering if I could be there this one time. And hold myself together.
"We are going to Baboo's. Daddy's not coming with us this time." She looked at me with the saddest eyes I have ever seen. She had been calling her Grandmother, 'Baboo' since she could talk. Grammy Esme wasn't the easiest for her to say at a year old.
"Why not, mommy?"
"He wanted to stay at home." I hated lying to her but as a mother I had to.
"Okay. Can I have something to eat?" She laid her head on the side of her car seat and looked up at me. I got an apple out of the bag in the passenger side floorboard, and handed it to her.
"Thank you momma!" She gave me a big smile.
"No problem, baby!" I love that she looks like Edward and acts so much like him. I missed him so much already.
Edward pov
"Alice will you please SHUT UP!" She had been on my nerves ever since we had stopped to eat about an hour ago. She had not stopped talking since then. And most of it was stuff no normal human being wanted to know. It was stupid shit. Like how long an earth worm could get. Like I said, stupid shit.
"What? I just having fun!" She defended with a smile creeping up her face.
"You are acting like Sheldon from The Big Bang Theory." I had loved that show since it had been aired and hadn't when I realized I had a Sheldon in my own family.
"Oh now you didn't have to go there!" She punched me playfully in the arm.
"Well I did!" I laughed and punched her in the arm back.
I swerved the car and I thought for a second she could actually kill me. Alice had always had a temper on her. Even when it was just about a car, which we could buy another one if it did get wrecked.
My family had always been on the wealthy side. Since Dad had become a doctor we had been pretty fortunate throughout our childhood. Mom died when I was 6. Alice and Emmett where only four years old at the time.
They didn't have a lot of time to get to know her but I remember everything about her. The way she smelled, the way she would dance with Dad every time a slow song came on the radio.
Renee Alice Cullen died of breast cancer. The battle was more that I could take. I remember the day she told me. It felt like my whole world fell apart around me. Like I was punched in the gut.
I can't dwell on that fact now. I had just gotten a hold of my feelings toward her and now the only thing that I was going to think about was getting Bella and Renesmee back.
Bella pov
We arrived at my parents house just before dinner. I got out of the car and made my way around the car to the passenger side to get my bags and my little trooper out.
We made our way up the walk to the front door trembling.
I walked up to the door and was about to knock when the door opened and my dear sweet mother came barreling out to give me a hug.
"Bella! I'm so glad your here for Christmas. Why hello my sweet little girl!" She looked down at Renesmee and smiled. "How's my little Nessie?" She picked her up and swung her around.
"Momma, her name is Renesnee, not Nessie." I chuckled at my Mothers nickname for my little girl. It was always a joke between me and my Momma.
"Bella dear, how are you doing?" I looked at her and the tears threaten to fall right then and there. She picked up on the look in my eyes and turned toward Nessie. "Nessie, why don't you go on in and find your Aunt Rose."
"Okay Baboo." She hopped down and ran into the house.
Momma put her arms around me and I let out the tears I had been holding in for the past two days.
She sat us down on the porch and just rubbed my back and rocked us while telling me everything was okay.
Esme Swan is the best woman at comforting. After I finished my crying streak, Momma picked me up off the porch and dragged me inside and got me settled in the couch with a steaming hot cup of Starbucks VIA coffee.
I was ready to face the rest of the family.
"Bella! How's my baby sister?" Jasper plopped next to me on the couch and wrapped his arms around me. I breathed in his scent. It smelled like my brother. I had missed that smell. He smelled of...home. I heard him laugh and blushed when I realized he heard me sniff him.
"I stopped drinking about 3am this morning." He chuckled.
"No I wasn't sniffing for booze, you just smell like home. I've missed you!" I smiled and pulled back to look at him.
He had a dirty blond color to his ultra curly hair. It was always a mess to fix before school. And I was always stuck fixing it. Now it couldn't be cuter on anyone else. He was always the cute one in school. All the girls would swarm him in high school. After he hit his growth spurt he was a killer.
Now he's 6'7" and has mastered how to fix his hair. His style has matured since then.
He was wearing a pair of loose fit jeans with a dark brown belt. His shirt was a long sleeved, white button up with a tan vest on top. He finished his Aeropostale look with a pair of black Converse shoes. He stood up and jutted his chest out. He had a model look to him.
"I know, I look good, don't I?" He chuckled, then turned toward his twin sister Rosalie and waved his hands up and down her body. "But doesn't my twin look smokin'?" I stood up to examine her blond hair. She smiled real big and shook long, wavy, locks. "Yeah, I needed a change of pace." I laughed. She had always changed when she had the money or the chance to change what ever she could.
I looked her up and down. She had changed her style also. She had on a tight fitting tee with a light colored cardigan over it. She had on her normal skinny jeans and had on 3 inch heals at the end of her mile-long legs.
"Damn, Rosie! What happened?" I stepped back to survey her look. "You look sexy!"
She laughed. "Well it may have something to do with a certain guy." I had never seen her blush so hard.
"Oooo what's his name?" I snickered. I never thought she would find a guy to make her blush like she did.
"Oh...you know." She was suddenly very interested in rearranging the chair behind her.
"Cough it up!" I punched her playfully in the arm.
"Okay, okay, his name is Emmett Cullen. And he's super cute." I froze. I couldn't hear a thing. All I could hear was the blood pounding in my ears.
"Emmett Cullen?" I asked her louder than I intended.
She looked at me with a confused look on her face. "Yeah why?"
"Because that's Edward brother your dating."