I am sitting in the library rereading the death section of the Fledgling Handbook.
Fledgling, it is an inescapable truth that not all of you will complete the Change to adult vampyre. Please understand that during your years at House of Night, you will witness the death of fellow classmate. Prepare yourself.
How was I supposed to prepare myself for the death of my beloved Jack? Jack didn't reject the change, he was murdered. I hear a person clear their throat. I look up to see Dragon.
"Oh, Merry Meet Dragon," I start to get up to respectfully bow to him.
"Don't get up Damien."
I sit back down and Dragon takes a seat next to me.
"Ah, I see you have been searching for answers in the handbook."
"Trying to, but nothing in the death section talks about when a fledgling is murdered. Only about when a fledgling rejects the Change." I smack the book down.
"Now Damien, don't take your anger out on the book. It didn't kill Jack."
"It didn't help me to accept it either."
"We never want to face the fact that a loved one has died. It was hard for me when Anastasia died." Dragon said.
I start to cry, but I try to hide it.
"Damien, don't hide your tears; it's okay to cry and let our emotions out."
I don't think I can take it anymore; I don't want to live without him.
"Dragon, I don't know how I can live without him. I close my eyes and see his smiling face."
Duchess comes and puts her head on my knee.
"I feel so alone without him," I go on.
"You know Damien; I felt the same way after the death of my beloved Anastasia. But one night Nyx came to me while I was reading the handbook and questioning it just like you."
"What did she say?" maybe this will help me understand.
"She told me that 'Those we love don't go away, they walk beside us every day; unseen, unheard, but always near; still loved, still missed, and very dear', you are never alone Damien. The others are having their struggles too."
"Thank you Dragon, but I don't think they are."
"No? Go to the gathering hall. I believe that Erin and Shaunee are in there."
After that Dragon leaves.
I stay in the library a little bit longer.