Yaten to Minako. The night before the Starlights leave.

I do not own Sailor Moon, because if I did, Minako and Yaten would celebrate their wedding at the end of the stars-season. (as well, as Usagi/Seiya and Ami/Taiki).

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This night seems to fall down on me.
And my head is aching because of so much thoughts.
Peace on earth doesn't mean peace for our hearts.
Not for mine, at least.

This place isn't mine, I'll leave tomorrow. I finally reached the target, that I thought, was my goal. And still, I know that my real goal will stay unattainable to me.

The smile on your pretty face reveales your exhaustion and hope. I propably will never touch those delicate beautiful features.
Hoping for eternal peace. That everything will be allright. And I smile when I think of your never fading hope of love and dreams. I guess, this helps you to keep your shiny facade in front of everyone.

Don't try to fool me!

Your mask of empty laughter and faked smiles fell a long time ago in front of my eyes.

You just don't know it. You don't want to know it.

Don't worry, I won't tell anyone.I will act, as if I don't know about it.

-Everything is okay with you, right?
-No need to justify, I know, yes,I know, you are allright, huh?

It amuses me, saddenes me, even hurts me.
It opened my eyes in a way I tried to avoid.

And ,contemporary, my mask fell, too.

There were those moments when my cold, ignorant fasade, so different from yours, was transparent to you and I almost lost control over my acting.

How I damned this Idol contest.

I never told anyone what you did to me that day.
What you're still doing to me since that day.

A last glance from your blue eyes - tired, hopeful and with a shade of melancholy-
and I know, I missed my chance.

But you smile. You always smile.

Even in hard times, and I can only sense tears behind those huge oceans of your eyes.

But you will keep smiling.

The pale clouds hide the large ice-cold moon for a moment and my face, actually ice-cold,too, softenes in the shadow.

Ignore this sorrow inside of you. Push the pain away. Swallow the tears. This makes it easier for me, to hurt you.
Everything I say, is the opposite of what I really feel.
Every hard word that lefts my mouth when I talk to you, is just there to hit you, to cut you, to wrest you in pieces.

A protective, destroying shield.

To hide my love.

The sun melts in your endless golden hair
I'm blinded, mesmerized, fascinated

Keep flirting with me.

Make fun of me.

Tease me.

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No matter how much I'll try to make you bleed, you have the strength, I will never have.
'You shined the most'...I guess, you think, this was the nicest thing I could ever say to you, not knowing, that these phrase was just a desperate try to replace three magical, deep and yet simple words.

I love you

these words signify everything and ,yet,nothing
I never told you

And I would rather die before admitting that you are the only person in the universe that can really hurt me seriously.

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Standing at night under the full moon and screaming your name

My voice doesn't reach you anymore

You won't hear me

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I push you away just to caught you in my arms

I hurt you, just to heal your wounds

I hit you, because it's the only way to touch you and not beeing that obvious.

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Don't scream! No one will hear you,but me.

Don't fight! No one will bleed for you, but me.

Don't cry! No one will kiss your tears away,but me.

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Don't ask for love!

Because no one will love you as much as I do

I´m a hopeless Minako/Yaten supporter, and this piece of writing was born at a night in October, when I was listening to disturbing, beautiful music. lol, however, please tell me what you think!