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All eyes were on her as she walked into the school. With her bubble gum pink hair thrown in a messy ponytail, her exaggerated make up, and perfectly different uniform, she looked like a dress code violation waiting to happen. But her resting-bitch-face expression said she didn't care. She pulled her ponytail tighter to her head, listening in to all of the rumours that were already starting, glaring at anyone who tried to get in her way.
"Who's that?" someone asked their friend in a hushed tone. "She looks like she's ready to fight someone."
"I hear her name is Hinamori Amu." the friend responded in an equally hushed whisper, which was still loud enough for said Hinamori Amu to hear. "I hear she was kicked out of her old school for doing just that. Sent a girl to the hospital, too."
"That's scary…" the first person said. "Wait, she's looking this way, pretend you said nothing."
Amu snarled. "What? You've never seen a new kid before? Scram before I make that rumor true."
The two friends looked at each other warily before turning and walking away, whispering about how scary that was, and over-exaggerating how traumatized they were going to be after that confrontation. Amu rolled her eyes, muttering about how stupid rumours were lately. Like, how did people come up with them? Haven't they heard not to judge a book by its cover?
Amu sighed and found the classroom she was assigned to and peeked around. No one was here yet, good. She stepped inside, examining the room and finding the locker she was assigned to, knowing she'd have to introduce herself once class officially started.
Just as she turned to leave again, she noticed someone else walking in and froze. He was fairly tall, even for Amu, who was tall for a girl herself. He had striking blond hair, and deep crimson eyes. His blond hair was neatly combed and framed his face very well. And his uniform was much more prim and preppy than Amu's chain and cross covered, unkempt uniform. His entire embodiment looked like the complete opposite of her appearance.
But he's so cute… she couldn't help but think, before mentally slapping herself. No, Amu. Don't even think about falling for him. There's no way someone as preppy as him would even look at you.
The blond teenager stared at her for a bit, probably judging her like all the other people. He tilted his head before reading her nametag and breaking into a dazzling smile, which nearly caused Amu to faint, but she tried to maintain her intimidating front, crossing her arms in front of her chest and putting on her best glare. However, that didn't seem to faze him, as his smile didn't falter at all. Amu was about to give another one of her aggressive comments she did when she had no idea what to say, but the dazzling blond beat her to speaking.
"Good morning!" he said in a chipper voice. "You're the new student, aren't you? Nice to meet you. I'm the principal's son, also this classes class president, Hotori Tadase. Welcome to Koken High."
Amu blinked, once again at a loss for words, so letting her aggressive side show as she spoke up. "And? If you're done, I'm leaving."
Tadase kept his sweet smile, unfaltering. Amu wondered how long he practiced to force a smile that well. "Class is starting soon, so just stay. I'll help you introduce yourself and feel like you fit in."
Amu allowed herself to lower her guard for a second. Was this guy actually helping her? Or maybe it was just his job as class president to make all new students feel comfortable. Seeing as nothing about her looked approachable. She put on her bitch face again.
"Fine, whatever. I'll do what you say for now," she said. "But don't think that this makes us friends."
Tadase let out a small laugh and nodded. "Alright. Come with me for a second so I can check on a few things on your paperwork."
Tadase had, in fact, noticed Amu's change in expression. He chose not to say anything though, and just led the pink haired teen out of the classroom and towards the staff room. Amu felt a little awkward being in a staff room, it always felt like she was in trouble, but she followed Tadase nevertheless, mentally beating herself up, since she actually did want to be friends with this Tadase kid.
Tadase talked to their homeroom teacher, who was just getting ready to go to their class to start the day. Amu stayed quiet, half worried she'd get told to fix her uniform or something, even though she liked how she looked. However, her homeroom teacher looked much more unkempt then she did.
His hair was a reddish-brown crows nest, which stuck up at odd ends and was much messier than Amu's hair. His beige shirt was wrinkled and seemed a bit too large for him, and his blue button-down shirt was half tucked into his pants, much like how Amu's shirt was half tucked into her skirt. His brown eyes hid behind both his bangs and his thin-rimmed glasses.
"Ahh, you're the new student?" he said in a very annoying, nasally voice that didn't sound very natural. "I was just heading to the classroom, so just follow me. Hotori-kun you can go back now, thanks."
Tadase looked at Amu once more before nodding, bowing, and exiting the staff room, leaving Amu alone with this strange teacher with the annoying voice. The teacher looked at her with a cheesy, somehow mysterious grin and turned her around, leading her out of the staff room, talking as he practically pushed her to the classroom.
"So, your name is Himamori Amu-san?" he asked.
Amu tried to stop to yell at the teacher for getting her name wrong. "It's Hinamori," she grumbled as the teacher continued to push her forward.
"Oh, by the way, Himamori-san. I forgot to introduce myself." the teacher stopped in front of the classroom. "Call me Nikaidou-sensei~ Now, wait out here until I call you."
Amu blinked, staring at Nikaidou's back as he walked into the classroom, wincing when she heard a loud thud, peeking through a window to see he'd fallen on the ground. She rolled her eyes, listening to everyone laugh. She heard Tadase call everyone to bow, then Nikaidou proceeded to talk about the new transfer student, AKA, Amu.
"Transfer student, you can come in," Nikaidou called out, causing Amu to stiffen slightly.
Panicking, she hesitantly opened the door, perhaps a little too forcefully, as the sliding door made a loud slam as it hit the end of its slider. Some of the students jumped in surprise, and seemingly cowered in fear. Amu sighed as she made her way to the front of the room after carefully closing the door again.
"Class," Nikaidou said loudly as whispers came from the students. "This is…uh…"
Amu rolled her eyes. There was no way he'd forgotten her name that quickly. He was totally just trying to be funny. "The name's Hinamori Amu."
"Ahh, right. Sorry," He didn't sound very sorry. "Everyone welcome Himamori Amu."
He still got her name right. Who did he think he was? Amu stomped her foot in annoying. "I said its Hinamori."
"Yes, that's what I said. Himamori."
Some of the students snickered. Amu crossed her arms with a light snarl. "Whatever. Where do I sit?"
The students looked at a few of the classes empty seats warily, probably thinking they didn't want Amu to sit there. Nikaidou just shrugged and surveyed the class before pointing to the spot next to Tadase, which was, naturally, by the window. She stared at the seat for a while before eventually going to sit down.
How cliche… she thought, putting her bag down and gazing out the window.
Nikaidou started the class after doing a brief attendance, where he got everyone's name but Amu's right. On purpose. Again. Amu was already getting tired of hearing it. She drummed her hands on the table, but tried her best to listen to the teacher, despite his voice already giving her a headache.
Somehow, Amu survived through morning classes without ripping her hair out. Luckily, she didn't have to deal with him in her classes after lunch. When she was getting her lunch from her locker, she heard people whispering about something and looked over to see Tadase, that same sweet smile on his face, lunch already in hand.
She cleared her throat, slamming her locker shut, causing a few students to retreat, but Tadase stayed put. "What do you want?"
"I told you I'd help you the first bit you're here." Tadase replied calmly. "So I wanted to ask if you wanted to have lunch with me? You'll just be eating alone anyways. And you might get to meet my friends, too."
Friends. That was a touchy subject for Amu. Especially after leaving all her old friends. She worked hard to open up to them in the first place, but then her father's job came up and they had to move. Lord knew if anyone here would warm up to Amu as much as her old friends had. Or even, visa verse. So she hesitated answering Tadase.
Plus, if they didn't end up meeting Tadase's friends…she'd be alone. With a cute boy. Don't get her wrong, she had a couple male friends at her own school. But she'd never thought about them as being…boyfriend material? Not that she seen Tadase as that either…yet. But he was cute. And made her confused.
Finally, she let out a sigh. "Alright. Only because you're the only one who will talk to me, and I don't want to eat alone."
Tadase's smile increased into a grin. "Great! I know a great place. Follow me!"
Amu couldn't help but let her guard down and laugh softly at Tadase's enthusiasm, be it fake or not. This intrigued Tadase slightly as he started walking out of the classroom, glancing back occasionally to make sure Amu was actually following him. He flashed her another smile when their gazes met, causing Amu to look down and blush slightly.
"So, what's up with this whole'attitude' thing?" he asked casually, leading Amu out of the school.
Amu almost tripped over her feet at the sudden question. Was it that obvious that she was putting up a front? Or…maybe she heard wrong. She took a breath, managing to say, "What do you mean? It's just who I am."
Tadase let out a chuckle. "There's no way someone like you could do anything the rumours said. Plus, when I was looking at your papers, there was nothing about getting kicked out of your previous school, and practically no blemishes on your reputation."
He stopped walking, causing Amu to almost run into his back before she caught herself and stopped as well, looking around, forgetting about what Tadase had just said, which probably exposed her 'badass' front. The two were standing in a lovely little grassland with trees clustered around a small white gazebo. Amu had no idea such a place like this existed at the school. Then again, she hadn't gotten a proper tour, either.
"Whoa…" she made her way towards the gazebo, her lips turning up slightly into a smile. "It's so nice…perfect for a hot, sunny day."
She spun around in a circle, not noticing Tadase watching her with an amused smile. He followed her up into the shade of the gazebo, sitting down on the bench in the center. Amu realized what she was doing and stopped, stiffening up again as she awkwardly sat at the very edge of the bench, subtly trying not to sit too close to Tadase.
"It's got a nice view, doesn't it?" Tadase asked, seemingly not fazed by how nervous Amu was being, in fact finding it quite amusing. "I always eat out here when all of my other friends are busy during lunch."
Amu nodded, trying to make it seem like she didn't particularly care, but let her brain to the talking for her as she slipped out in a much less rough voice, "It's nice. I can see why you like it. Did you come here alone?" she froze, realizing what she was saying, quickly adding. "N-not that I care."
Tadase hummed, watching Amu with a curious gaze. "Not until recently." he opened up his lunch, wondering if opening up to Amu help her open up herself. "I…had a girlfriend. She goes to school her, her name is Yamabuki Saaya." he glanced over at Amu for a minute, noticing a change in her posture as he continues. "We broke up a bit ago, though, and she hasn't talked to me since."
Amu nodded slowly, leaning on her hand as she nibbled on her bento, which her mother had made her, chewing on her chopsticks, once again speaking without thinking when she blurts out, "Your ex…what was she like?" Again, she stiffens back up. "Again, not that I care. I just…want to know who to look out for so I don't get into any trouble."
Tadase smiled realizing his plan had worked. Even if she was still trying to keep up her 'act'. He took a second to respond to her question, allowing himself to chew and swallow the rice he'd just put in his mouth.
"Well, she wasn't…bad. She was pretty nice at first. Maybe a little clingy and obsessive, too."
"Oh." Amu lamented on Tadase's response, curious about one more thing, but trying to think of a way to make it sound like she didn't care that much. "Last question, so I can maybe blackmail her if I see her… How'd you two break up. Though I'd probably break up with someone who was clingy and obsessive, too."
Amu waited for a bit, but realized Tadase wasn't replying. Was she being too nosy? See, this was why she would rather everyone be afraid of her. That way she didn't have to get attached or something. She moved a little closer, frowning slightly as Tadase just continued eating with his head down. She bit her lip, looking away.
"S-sorry," she mumbled to the air. "If I'm not being brash, I'm being too nosy. You don't have to answer that. I-I can just leave."
She moved to close her bento box, shouldering her bag slightly, but still not getting up for some reason. She looked at Tadase, who eventually raised his hand dismissively and raised his head to look at her with his crimson stare.
"It's okay…Hinamori-san," he said slowly. "The reason why I broke up with her is just…very personal. And I'm not very comfortable talking about it, usually…"
Amu stood up quickly, crossing her arms as she looked away from Tadase. "T-that's why I said you didn't have to answer."
Tadase reached his arm to sit Amu back down with a light laugh. "I wasn't finished. You look like someone who can keep a secret well, so…I'll tell you. So…if you'll just listen…I'll be grateful."
Amu, by accident, forcefully pulled her arm away from Tadase, too embarrassed to say sorry, but she leaned closer slightly. "Are you serious? Y-you...want to tell me? Even though I literally just said I was willing to blackmail your ex if I had to?"
"Yes." Tadase said firmly, placing his lunch aside and crossing his hands in his lap. "Though…it's a little…embarrassing." Amu just nodded, telling Tadase to continue. "So…about a year ago…I was at Saaya's house. I was still a little awkward with the whole kissing thing, so we hadn't done much of it yet." he paused to bite his lip. "But I decided to give it a chance and we…you know…until she started trying to unbutton my shirt.
"I stopped her, since I was starting to feel a little uncomfortable, we'd only been going out for maybe 3 months, and I didn't think it was a good idea to go too far, since we were only 15. But she just said 'Oh come on Tadase, we both know you want it too' and kept trying to make an advance…"
Amu froze, realizing where this was going. Why would Tadase trust her with such a serious secret? Stupidly though, she asked, "Wait, you mean she wanted to have sex with you?"
She covered her mouth when she realized what she said. She somehow felt a little heartbroken when Tadase nodded sadly. Who would dare push such a prince-like boy into something he didn't want to do? Somehow she really did want to blackmail this Yamabuki Saaya.
"Uh, Hinamori-san. Do you mind if I leave for a second?" Tadase asked abruptly.
Amu looked over, wondering if he just needed a moment to himself, or maybe just had to use the restroom, but nodded. "I don't care. It's not like you have to ask me everything."
Tadase nodded as well and stood up, jogging back toward the school, leaving Amu alone to eat and take in his story. It was quiet for a few minutes, and she just ate her lunch in that silence. When a shadow fell over her, she expected to see Tadase. Instead, she saw a complete stranger. Despite that, however, she had a feeling she knew exactly who this stranger was.
A/N: Yes, hello. I have rewritten Love vs Jealousy and decided to rename it Jealousy Incarnate (for now?) Not to be mistaken for the Korean drama of the same title. Though the idea of the title might've been my inspiration. I plan on making it shorter (we'll see how that works out) so a lot of stuff from the original story will be changed/removed. Expect longer chapters because of that. I also decided to stress Amu's...badgirl(?) attitude a bit more so she doesn't seem as...weak? And changed a few things with Tadase. You'll see later into the story though.
Anyways, I really hope you enjoy this re-write of my old, crappy story which somehow had the most reviews out of all my fanfics? Hopefully this remake will be the same way? Tell me what you think in a review please~ I love reading all your lovely, positive reviews~ For now, how about, since I have the first 9 chapters fully re-written, I'll post chapter 2 if I can get...10 reviews? I'm sure you all can do it!
Also, yes, I did change my name to fit my name on most of my other sites. Sorry if I change my name too much. Hopefully this will be the last time. ^^
