Authors Note: Ok I wrote this and I have no idea if I should continue so that is really going to depend on reviews. Please review good or bad I am always looking to become a better author.

Disclaimer: as sad as it is for me to admit I have absolutely nothing to do with Shonda Rhimes or Patrick Dempsey

It was 5 am and Derek sat next to Alexis an 11 year old girl who had been diagnosed with cancer. She was mature for her age and had quickly become friends with a great deal of the staff, especially Meredith. Alexis liked hearing stories of Meredith's life and how twisted it could be sometimes. Hearing other people's problems made it easier for her to feel more normal. She encouraged Meredith and Derek's relationship and was very blunt. She would often say things to Derek such as "Why did you choose her?" but Derek would just walk away. He felt he didn't have to explain himself to an 11 year old, but he soon learned she was much more then just a regular 11 year old girl.

Derek just sat there watching her. She had gotten worse over the last week. No one could bear to think of what it would be like if she died. Her parents could hardly look at her without crying which had caused Alexis to hate when they came to visit once a week. She wished they could be stronger for her sake but they weren't.

"You're awake!" said Derek

"How long have you been here" Alexis stated in her usual sarcastic tone. She had a way of making everything sarcastic.

"Only an hour"

"Jeez, only an hour, what the heck did you do sitting there for an hour?"

"I was just thinking."

"Be a little vaguer, what were you thinking about?"

Derek laughed "Do you have any respect for people's boundaries?"

"Nope not at all." replied Alexis, managing to keep a completely serious face on.

"Were you thinking about Meredith, you were, weren't you?" Alexis was now suddenly all excited and captivated by the conversation.

"None of your business!" replied Derek smiling

"No really why did you choose her? Please don't walk away this time." Alexis said with a somewhat pleading tone in her voice

"She's my wife" Derek said those words for the second time and walked away. Leaving Alexis alone to consider what he had just said.

5 minutes later Meredith walked in. Alexis wanted to be a doctor, if she lived, and always begged Meredith to keep her informed on all the cool surgeries. Meredith had come to not even need to wait for Alexis to ask about the surgeries, it had become how they would start there conversations.