I do not own the characters, the show or the song. "Fighter" by CHRISTINA AGUILERA
Just a little song fic. In Catherine's POV after divorcing Eddie.
As I come home to an empty house again I feel some weird type of joy. Not because I am going to miss coming home to a family because I have Lindsey and she is my family, but because never again will I have to come home to Eddie.
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame
The past few days I keep feeling like I am going to regret what I have done. What I did to Lindsey and what I did to Eddie. But then there is that little voice that says to me that I can do better and that Lindsey will do better and that I don't need a man to verify my existence. Or do I.?
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, , oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
Eddie put me through so much and I finally got the guts and the will to stand up to him. Not own my own but I did it and I feel like a survivor, and I know that I am a fighter.
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Gil always told me that I could do it that I deserved better then the lying, cheating, sleaze ball that I was married too. The man who wasted my life's savings on God knows what with God knows who. How one man could hurt one person so much is beyond me, but it is possible because I just went through it.
Part of me wants to take him back when he calls me on the phone. Or shows up at my door. Part of me wants to believe that he can change, that he will change. But what about me. I have come this far and I don't plan on throwing everything away for him, I did it once, I won't do it again.
Not this time. Deep down I know that he won't change. What really bugs me is that he doesn't seem the least bit angry or distraught that I packed up and left, except when he is half In the bag, I think that was the only time he ever really cared about me, which totally sucks, because drunk or not I cared and loved him.
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave
Even though I found out that he bad mouthing me to all his buddies and telling them that he was the only one who tried and that he is the real victim I still feel for him. But why should I care what he says to them. Come to think if it I really don't because it's like Gil told me.
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
I am a fighter, everything Eddie did to me, and put me through made me stronger, made me a better person, made me a fighter.
I am Catherine Willows and I am a fighter.
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter