((Ritsuka's point of view during episode 9 (Skinless) when he and Soubi are alone while the Zeros fight each other.))
I didn't feel threatened, but I didn't feel safe either.
Holding me close to his chest, I smell his last cigarettes. His fingers in my hair bring shivers I fight back in my spine. His is the only one who has ever held me like this. I don't know how to feel in his embrace. It feels like a daze when I should be alert. It feels right when it should feel wrong.
"Other people don't matter." His words echo through my mind as I try to make sense of their meaning. Words have double meaning when they escape his lips. I know this, yet I don't want to believe it. I want to believe everything he says to me is truth.
I am worried about the others. They are outside fighting while he only wants to love on me. I'm not used to these feelings. How can one person feel so deeply for another? How can he put me before everyone else? I can hear his heart beat against my ear. I wonder, does it beat when I'm not near?
Cupping my face he looks into my eyes. I want to trust him. I want to understand him. The back of my mind wonders if this is safe. My heart tells me he is good. His eyes are glazed as he lowers me on the bed.
I do not stop him. Maybe it's because I want to see how far he will go. Or maybe I want to see how far I will let it go. Do I really want it? Am I testing myself? I don't even know.
He grabs my wrist and for the first time my heart begins to race. My body reflects my nerves as he plants a firm kiss on my jaw line. At this moment, my body betrays me and acts on its own free will. I pray he doesn't notice. But now my body burns for more as my inner self begs for everything to slow down.
Suddenly, we hear screams.