Journal of Peeta Mellark Entry 31.
The crowd roared as I stepped on stage. Today was the day I confessed my love for her: Katniss Everdeen. I didn't plan to tell anyone but Haymitch somehow managed to persuade me to. I was still not one hundred percent sure what to do as I shook the hand of Caesar Flickerman.
As we exchanged small talk about the showers and smelling of roses, I began to form a plan in my head. I would tell everyone of my undying love for Katniss. As I finished my plan, the dreaded moment came. Caesar spoke his lines and seconds later I was confessing my love for her, the crowd roared with excitement as I left the stage.
It all happened so fast. One second I was descending the stairs, the next I was pinned up against the wall and there was something pressed roughly against my neck, however my vision was blurred due to the fact I had hit my head. When it cleared I was shocked to see that it was Katniss who had attacked me. Before I could even question her motives she began shouting at me. What was that for? I asked after she pushes me to the floor and I landed on a smashed urn.
'You had no right! No right to go saying those things about me!' she screamed.
I could now feel the stinging pain in my hands. She was about to shout at me again but then the others appeared and Katniss turned to Haymitch while Cinna and Effie helped me up.
'This was your idea, wasn't it? Turning me into some kind of fool in front of the entire country? She screamed.
When I tried to explain to her that it was my idea, she began shouting at me, again.
'Yes, Haymitch is very helpful. To you!'
What Haymitch said next annoyed me a bit because even though Katniss was being stupid, I still loved her.
'You are a fool. Do you think he hurt you? That boy just gave you something you could never achieve on your own.'
The arguing continued between them for a while. During this time I just stood there wondering if I had made the right choice, Katniss sure didn't think so, but then Haymitch said something that reminded me why I did it.
'He made you loo desirable! And let's face it face it, you can use all the help you can get in that department. You were about as romantic as dirt until he said he wanted you. Now they all do. You're all they're talking about. The Star-crossed lovers from District Twelve!'
The arguing stopped after that and we were lead back to our rooms so we could prepare for our first day in the arena. I guess that this will be my last entry as I don't plan to make it out alive. All I care about is Katniss and that she returns to District 12. If only I told her my feelings before but now it is too late because if I had the choice I would die so she could live. Because I love her.