My head is banging. My heart is racing. I feel sick .But I know the feeling. I've felt nothing but nauseous the past few weeks. I don't why. Once I was actually physically sick. That wasn't fun . I was sick all over James Quidditch jumper but then he held my hair and wiped my face and kissed my lips. Then, the next day I was sick all over Severus cloak. That was even worse, but he took me home and wet my forehead. That felt good, although afterwards mother and father asked why I had a boy bringing me home. I said he was Miranda's brother. That was a lie.

But this has been the best summer ever. But the highlight was that night with James. I couldn't have imagined it to be better. But then again the Hogwarts leavers ball was fun, Severus took me to that.

I sound like a right tart, talking about them both like this. But I need to choose which one of them to date before this summer is over and we all have to start living our own lives. I don't know which one I really love my heads all over the place and my heart , well that's another story. I asked Miranda who she thinks I should date. She just talked in that annoying American accent , I swear she puts on to sound cool.

"Lilly" she whined "who do you love, you gotta follow your heart not your head."

"But Miranda" I replied " what is love" I wished I hadn't said because then she started telling me this long story about her and Sam and how he kissed her in the rain and how she wanted him to meet her parents but didn't know how they'd react. Gosh! That made my headache even worse.

I don't even know where that headache has come from, just suddenly out of nowhere and it couldn't have come at a worse time.

I asked Miranda about that, but she just whittled on.

"Lilly, are sure it's a headache not a heartache and are you sure you're just not love sick, cos , no amount of medicine or potions can cure lovesickness , gosh! I should know".

I felt like screaming then so I just curled up into a ball and shut my eyes.

"You see, I love Sam so much that I get heartache whenever I'm not with him and he says he gets the same, do you think he does?"

I rolled over , grabbed my cushion and thrust it at her face.

"Gosh Miranda! Shut up!" She took this as a chance to play and started hitting me with my favourite teddy. I grabbed it off her and held it close to my chest.

"Gosh Lilly! Are you ok?"

"No , I really don't know what to do". I could feel my eyes water and my lips tremble.

"Lilly are you crying?"

"No of course not, who do you think I am?" I sniffed in embarrassment.

"Erm, I think you're human Lilly, everybody cries it's a natural process, you shouldn't be embarrassed."

"Shut up!" I screeched, "I'm not crying , go away!" Miranda ran out of my room in tears.

"Miranda, Miranda" I could hear my mum called and then I heard the door slam. "Lilly dear" mum shouted up the stairs "What's happened". I opened my mouth but I could already hear her rushing up the stairs.

She burst through my door.

"You could have knocked" I said angrily.

"Lilly dear what's wrong?" Mum's always calm.

"Nothing I sobbed."

"Then why are you crying and why did Miranda just storm out the house, did you guys fall out?"

"Yes" I sobbed.

"You guys haven't fallen out since she stole your colouring pencils, what happened?"

"Mum" I sat up and dried my face "don't you just hate that accent?"

"Yes, it can be annoying, but you've been acting weird recently, Lilly tell me what's wrong please."

"Honestly mum it's nothing."

"Don't block me out Lilly. Tell me what's wrong, is it a boy problem, who was that guy that brought you home the other."€

"I told you mum he's Mirandas brother."

"Lilly, do you think I'm stupid? We've known Miranda years and she's never mentioned a brother."

"Yes her mum had him adopted."

"Lilly , who do you think I am?"

"My very nosey mother?"

"Lilly don't take advantage of me."

"Mum , don't take advantage of me."

"I'm not I just want to know what's wrong with my little girl."

"Mum! I'm not your little girl anymore I can sort out my own problems."

"So there is a problem then.."

"Did I say that ?"

"Yes , spill"

"Ok , so there's these two guys.."