My balcony is the only place outside I'm comfortable in...seems i'm only awake during the nighttime anymore and even then I sleep most of that time away too. today I dreamt i was on that balcony and a butterfly, or maybe a moth, a flying bug made of something blue, like pure light or something...it landed on some of my fingers and fluttered and spread its wings. what was a Butterfly doing out at night? it was the same color as the light topping the hills around my apartment, the same color as the stars in the dim sky. the city was gone....besides the hilltop light and stars, black surrounded my balcony. not even the moon was showing its face to me. i havent seen the ground below in daylight for weeks, much less under my feet...the butterflies aren't as beautiful down there anyway. i like my balcony, and I love my Dreams. they're the only refuge I have now.