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"We are just friends! Nothing more!" That was what I was constantly telling myself when I would think about Riku and me holding hands, kissing, getting mar..
"Risa! Are you even listening to me?" My train of thought was immediately interrupted as Selphie yelled in my ear. "Huh? What?" I turned to look at her scrunched up face which quickly turned into a smirk. "Thinking about Riku I see? I don't see why you just don't ask him out? It's so obvious you guys have chemistry going on!" I was about to correct her with one of my sly remarks I usually give people when they analyze me...until I certain someone walked into the room.
It was him. His toned, lean body looked perfect with his white shirt and loosened tie as his platinum hair swayed with the wind. Selphie was sitting right next to me in the classroom, nudging me with her elbow. She was my best friend and the big gossiper of the town. She (and the rest of her family) knew everything about everyone and could never pass up an opportunity to tell someone. Her family was just about the only people who could get away with that and not get punched in the face. Selphie was also very athletic and popular with boys. Me on the other hand had long, straight, boring, brown hair. My eyes were green and my chest wasn't very big which topped off just ever so perfectly with my scrawny body. Selph claims I have "Amazing" hips, but I don't see it.
For the slightest second Riku and I caught each other's eyes. It felt as if the whole world had stopped. My heart accelerated and a slight blush crept up on his face. We did this a lot these days, but why did it seem as if these moments had so much meaning. Maybe I was starting to fall in lo...NO! I can't ruin the friendship we have right now, but then again, could I keep denying myself like this?
My thoughts were interrupted once again by Selphie's usual loud voice. "Here he comes!" , she said as a big smile crept up on her face. I saw her legs move and walk over to the other side of the classroom next to Tidus. I wasn't sure if she moved so she could get Riku and me alone or if it was so she could flirt with her newfound crush Tidus. According to her he spoke of nothing but pure poetry. Which to Selphie, included anything that had the words pretty and her name in the same sentence.
Riku came by and set next to me with a wondering smile.
"So you coming to my party?"
"Of course! I wouldn't miss it for the world. I just have to ask my parents." My eyes dropped at the mention of my parents. I quickly hid my face, hoping he didn't notice. But, to my dismay, he did.
"Are things still not going well?" I picked up my head and looked at his face. His aquamarine eyes were filled with concern.
My parents had been having a rough patch for while now and were thinking about getting a divorce. Selphie always tells me to think positive, but it seems as if the more positive I think the worse it gets. They were so caught up in their little fighting they had practically forgotten I was there. My parents had missed a total of 4 dance recitals, 6 choir performances, and didn't even look at me twice when they saw my extremely swollen eyes from previous nights of crying. I was getting fed up with everything and at one point no one even wanted to be around me which led me into further depression and my current eating disorder nobody knows about. But even when everybody was ignoring me, he didn't. He had always been there for me when I needed someone most. He would listen to me, comfort me, and let me cry in his arms for hours. Maybe...NO, scratch that! I know for sure I was in love with, and whether he felt the same way or not I was going to tell at the party.
"Hey , it's no big deal! Don't worry I'll be there!"
He scanned my face. I knew he knew there was something off, but he decided to drop it.
"Alright good then!"
"Good"
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It was the night of the party and Selphie was in my room blabbing about how cute Tidus' butt is in his blitz ball uniform. Of course, I wasn't listening to her. My head was focused on him and how I was going to confess to him. Should I come right out and say 'I love you'? Or maybe I should give him subtle hints so that way if he isn't giving them back I can back away. I was going crazy about what I should do and couldn't figure out anything. So, I did the unspeakable.
I asked Selphie.
"Hey, can I ask you something serious?"
She gave me an unusual look. I could tell she was trying to read my face which at the moment was blank . Selphie hesitated to answer, "Sure, what's going on?" My face got hot all of a sudden and I made eye contact with her. "It's about Riku," Her face seemed to light up at this and her legs crossed as she bit her bottom lip. "I think...okay I know that I like him! But, I don't know how to tell him. Any suggestions?"
Not giving it a second thought she quickly responded. This worried me. "OK, how about a command? You. Ask tell him. Tonight. There will be no butts, and, or ors! Understand?" I knew that she was 100% serious and if I didn't go through with this she would make me regret it. Then again it was either now or never, right? Finally giving in I grabbed my bag and headed out f my bedroom, motioning for Selphie to quickly follow. As I rounded the corner of the stairs, there lay my father, passed out on the couch with an empty vodka bottle.
Sadness and sympathy filled my heart all at the same time as I watched him there with swollen eyes. My mother had recently packed her things and left temporarily, giving me a kiss on the forehead and a long talk that I didn't want to remember. From that day on I would just sit there by the window in my room, silent. Still deep in thought, I felt Selphie's eyes dart from me to my dad. Perhaps she knew what I was feeling at the moment, but I highly doubt it. Her small hand hesitantly came into contact with my shoulder. Me not wanting to continue with the subject, slowly nodded my head and headed for the front door and into Selphie's car.
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The ride to Riku's house had been silent most of the way. Most likely due to shock on her behalf. She has always known my situation wasn't good. I guess she didn't know how far off it was? It was becoming extremely awkward. Even when we arrived at the curb of his house she kept silent. I had tried to say something to lighten the atmosphere, but when my eyes came into contact with hers she swiftly turned the other cheek. Feeling slightly betrayed, I darted through the long, gravel driveway of Riku's enormous house. I mean this thing was huge!
Of course, I had been here a few times, but it still amazed me every time just how big it was! Off to the side of his house was a luxurious pool along with the pool house. Expensive looking sports cars were set in front of his garage, and I swear I saw Selphie run up to one of them.
Walking up to his front door, I finally felt the butterflies flowing in my stomach. Before I could even knock, Sora was already there looking at me in awe. He put on his little goofy grin of his and spoke with near happiness, "I'm glad you're here! Riku thought you weren't coming and was bugging the hell out of me!" He gave me a weird look, like he was trying to hint at something he said. But I ignored it. I didn't need any false hope. I just nodded and walked in.
The music was blaring and teens were in every inch of the large mansion. Of course, Riku could have been spotted from a million miles away. We had made eye contact from across the room, his mouth curling up into an award winning smile! My face instantly lit up as he rushed over to me taking my hands into his. A blush slowly creped on my face from the feel of his warm hands embracing mines. "I'm glad you came. It was becoming very boring without you here!", he said in his usual cool tone.
"I think someone's over exaggerating!"
"Not at all. I'm serious about what I say and what I say is serious! You always seem to lighten my mood even on my worst days! Not too sure how you do it, but you do it every single time " His words had meant more to me then he had even known or realized. I wanted nothing more than to place his lips to mine at that very moment, but knew I couldn't. Although, I began to wonder what his reaction would be in a situation like that!
Before I could reply, my eyes caught Selphie's who was over by the punch bowl with Kairi admiring the expensive glass with a huge smile on her face. I laughed in my head. That was Selphie for you! Her smile seemed to die as I gave her a small smile. Her head slowly turning to look back at Kairi. I had noticed the sadness and guilt in her eyes, but I didn't know why she would be any of those things.
Feeling betrayed again, that sadness she had reflected in my eyes. The only person who now knew exactly what I was going through, the girl who I called 'best friend' didn't even want to have anything to do with me. Hurt, pain, guilt. All of those feelings came rushing to me at once and I knew the solution to releasing them. Prior to coming to party, I had eaten a huge meal. Well, that was about to go in the toilet!
Not feeling guilty about what I was about to do, I asked Riku where the restroom was. Thank God, he directed me to the one upstairs by his room. He said that way no one would disturb me while I was doing my business. He had said that in a playful tone, almost making fun of me. Oh how little he knew.
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I couldn't say that throwing up healed the pain completely, but it seemed to wash it away for moments at a time when I needed it. In my black purse was a Spinbrush toothbrush that I always carried in case of emergencies like such. Spitting out the water and mouthwash, I turned off the faucet and walked out the restroom. Only to be faced with person I had least expected.
It was Riku
"Risa? Did you just do what I think you just did?
Oh shit!
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How was that for first chapter? I feel as if it was way too short for my liking, but oh well! This is my first fanfic so I'm very excited! If you're wondering why you feel like you've read this before its because I redid the story for Thief of hearts! Also, feedback is always welcome and I'm always happy to hear suggestions! Happy reading and please review and look forward to the next chapter!