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Decisions Hurt

Bella POV.

i just got told by my mum that I am moving back to forks in Washington DC , we moved from there when i was 7 to go to Arizona for my mum's work because she got offered this big promotion, it caused a big rift in my parents' marriage and so they got a divorce soon after and my dad stayed behind as chief of police. As a result I haven't saw him apart from birthdays and Christmas's, but now at 16 I am going back to live with my dad so my mum can have a well earned rest apparently. Nice to know your loved :/ ha-ha oh well, it isn't that bad actually as my dad is quite easy going and I get to see my best friend Edward again, we kept in touch via email of course after I left, but it wasn't the same and seeing him in person after 9 years will be great !

I will also get to meet this girlfriend he always talks about, Ashleigh I think her name is? I leave in two days for the rainy town of forks, I have never been happier, I never liked the sun of Arizona and never really made any friends, and one of the things I miss most about forks is goofing around with Edward and trekking up to my special place. It is quite silly really but I still think of that little meadow in the woods if I ever need to calm myself.

Still thinking about how pleased Edward may be at seeing me again (I hope) and wondering what Ashleigh looks like, for she sounds the slightest bit controlling by what he tells me in his emails, i settle down at my computer to email him.

Hey big bear,

Just had the biggest pizza I have ever seen, you would be proud! Mum is being her usual annoying, dependent and demanding self. I swear even though she makes the money and has this biiiiiig job, she has no friggin clue how to run a house! Come and save me from this hell hole?

What have you been doing ? Jake still hogging the limelight? I don't get why you put up with it, he treats you like crap from what I hear .. hmmm take care Eddie and say hi to Esme and Carlisle

Bella

With that over with I threw on my oldest sweats and oversized top and climbed into bed for the night thinking of Edwards emerald eyes..

Edward POV.

i feel like utter rubbish today with so much going around my head, i may seem like nothing bothers me... when I am always laughing and smiling, but it does, everyone always goes for Jake, compares me to Jake, wonders why am not more like Jake.. ARGH! Why can't they get am just me ? even Ashleigh wants me to be more like him, he doesn't mean for everyone to compare us, they just do, it seems like the only person who accepts me for just me is Bella, and she doesn't live here anymore... she hasn't for 9 years, and yet she is still who I go to if I have a problem, if we didn't email I don't know what i would do, speaking of i need to check if i have one.

I did, smiling to myself at her nick name for me, I read it over and laughed, she was always moaning about her mum but truth be told she loved her, she loved to take care of people, but no one ever takes care of her..

Hey mouse

I would love to save you but your complaining simply gives me too much entertainment my dear ! hahaha ..

as for jake, I dont know, maybe I never will, off to sleep speak tomorrow

Eddie

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