His eyes, lifeless. His personality, changed. Gone was his flames, replaced by a cold heart. A teenager who had held them close as a family, replaced by a boy which knew nothing, no one. Eyes that stared into souls, not hearts. A personality that were cold like ice, not burning like fire. A heart that beat, not cared. A boy who survived, not lived.

It had been a week, and the blue clad ninja decided to check on his brother, carrying spicy pasta, the way he liked it. He'd probably have to force feed him, but hopefully he'd eat. Unlikely, but hopefully. He opened the door, and gave a nod to say hello.

The boy groaned and turned his back to him. He said nothing however; these days he scarcely did.

"I brought you some food."

The blue ninja received the middle finger.

"Hey, hey, hey! I'm being nice!" Jay pouted, but shook it off as he danced to the bed. In a singsong voice, he said, "I got you spicy pasta!"

There was a huff from the teenager, and he sat up and took the pasta into his hand. Jay smiled as the teenager ate.

He wasn't expecting a reply.

"Thanks clown."

'A little rude...' Jay thought, but was shocked at the coldness in his voice. It used to be energetic, confident. Now it was a emotionless, monotone voice.

Like the true him had died.

He forced a smile onto his face. "Do you want to hear a joke?"

The boy shook his head, shoving his empty bowl onto the floor and snuggling back into bed.

"You wanna sleep?"

A groan from the boy confirmed it.

"Sleep tight buddy."

The boy didn't respond.

"Sleep tight... Kai."

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He didn't recognise the name that... guy had called him. He knew nothing. Nothing about anyone.

'I'm having trouble trying to sleep.'

He closed his eyes, but eyes haunted him.

'I'm counting sheep but running out.'

Those eyes haunted him, as a hand reached out.

'As time ticks by.'

More time, more time, give me more time!

'And still I try.'

No time left, Fire-boy.

'No rest for crosstops in my mind.'

Scream, Fire-boy.

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Cole ran into the room as he heard a thud, and saw Kai on the floor, having a seizure. The amnesiac had suffered many various types of strange happenings, such as bed-wetting, difficulty breathing, etc.

He, Cole, had witnessed many of these, and when the former ninja had wet the bed, he'd change the quilts before anyone was awake.

Kai called him Saiyō papa (Cole didn't know Japanese), and Cole didn't mind.

Cole was the only one the Fire Ninja trusted.

That's why Kai was so heartless toward the others. He didn't trust them.

"Kai?" Cole tentatively asked after the seizure stopped.

Kai looked up at Cole, who held him in a hug. "Saiyō papa?" He murmured.

Cole nodded. "Mhm hm."

Kai yawned and nestled into the hug. "Saiyō papa..."

Cole smirked. That was pretty much all Kai said to him. Kai was soon asleep though, which was why Cole put him into bed. His face soon held a sorrowful expression as he looked at the amnesiac. "Sleep safe..."

He sighed and left the room.

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He scarcely spoke - what could he say?

'There's nothing left to say now...'

He knew nothing, no one.

'There's nothing left to say now...'

Only trusted the emo.

'I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...'

It hurt to try to remember.

'I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...'

So he gave up.

'There's nothing left to say now...'

My voice hurts, probably from the screaming.

'There's nothing left to say now...'

You can't scream, can you Fire-boy?

'I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...'

Give it up, Fire-boy.

'I'm giving up, giving up, hey hey, giving up now...'

I'm the only thing you'll remember.

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Zane walked into Kai's room - to find he was asleep - for a reason unknown. He smiled. Cole had made it clear that Kai was asleep, and deserved it. That had been almost nine hours ago at almost eleven o clock in the morning, and tea was ready. He went to shake him awake, but he saw Kai shaking in his sleep.

"I need more time! Please! I'm sorry!" Kai was almost screaming.

"Kai?" Zane whispered.

'It seems he is having a nightmare.'

Having a female robot in your head was annoying. Zane knew this the hard way.

"I see that, PIXAL."

'I would request the others' help.'

"...I shall do such." He called Nya, Sensei, Jay and Cole, and they came running.

They didn't need to try wake him up, since the ex-ninja woke up screaming. Nya attempted to calm him down with a lullaby, and succeeded. But he started swearing at her, telling her to fuck off, go suck a dick, calling her names like a bastard, a cunt, etc. She was taken aback, but Jay assured her that this was normal.

He was screaming at them, and, despite noticing Cole, carried on.

"I don't know you! Get away! Leave me alone! I don't care! You shouldn't either! Go away!"

Tears prickled his amber eyes, which he hoped would go unnoticed. But they didn't, to his dismay, and it wasn't long until Nya was sitting on his bed. He tried to push her away, but she hugged you gently. He got angrier and pushed her to the floor.

"WHY CAN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE?! I DON'T KNOW YOU! I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING! JUST GO AWAY!" He screamed at her.

Tears prickled her dark blue eyes - inherited from her mother - as she stood up slowly. "Don't you want to?" She stammered.

"NO!" He screamed, after much hesitation. "I DON'T!"

Nya stood up slowly. "Kai-"

"WHO IS KAI?!" He screamed angrily. He curled up in bed and turned away from them. "Just... Just go away."

All but Kai turned to Sensei.

"Leave me with him." The wise old man ordered his students, who nodded and left the room.

Soft sobbing came through the sound waves and into Wu's ears. It came from Kai, and the Sensei shuffled to Kai's bed, which the ex-ninja had become so used to. In a forced whisper, he uttered a mere word, a question, "Kai?"

There was no reply.

"Kai, you must answer me."

...

"Kai!"

In a voice that was choking down tears, a reply came. "W-What?"

"What is wrong?

No reply.

" I will not ask you again. "

...

"..." A sigh instead of words left the white bearded man.

"Leave then." The same voice that choked down tears came again. The old man almost refused to believe that this scared, confused, quiet boy had been a, HIS, fearless, reckless, defiant Fire Ninja.

Who had down this to (HIS) Kai? They must be so twisted (insane) to do this to Kai.

Sensei Wu admired Kai's bravery, his determination, and although he was a bit rash, he wouldn't have it any other way. Kai, like the others, played a huge part in the safety of Ninjago, and everyone in it. If one were to crumble, so would the others - and Ninjago.

Kai wasn't crumbling.

He was breaking.

Breaking was worse.

And damn, he was breaking fast.

A silence hang in the air, tension wrapping itself inside the silence, and Wu gently held out a hand to touch Kai.

"Leave then." Suddenly the silence disappeared, and both were startled, unprotected, and Kai regretted speaking almost immediately.

Why did he speak?

Now he was unprotected?

Damn damn damn damn!

Sensei Wu sighed.

Kai didn't move his gaze from the wall he faced. He didn't try to stop his tears, he'd learnt not to. When he'd been captured... His captor... He'd loved to taste his tears. When Kai cried, his captor would pin him against the wall and lick them off, suck them off, brush them off... He never left Kai to cry.

To the Fire Ninja's dismay.

He didn't make a single movement.

And it would stay that way.

Soft sobbing came through the sound waves and into Wu's ears. It came from Kai, and the Sensei shuffled to Kai's bed, which the ex-ninja had become so used to.

"You are Kai. You are the Fire Ninja, the Red Ninja. You were an Elemental Master, and the other Elemental Masters, no one else, except I, Misako, Garmadon and Nya, nicknamed you-"

"Fire-boy?"

"...Yes..."

"I remember... A teenager. He wore a mask over him, so I couldn't see his face, but he could see me. But I knew he was a male - he sounded like one and told me himself."

"How did you meet this teenager?" Wu gently asked, placing a hand on Kai's shoulder.

"... He... He captured me. Kidnapped me. He hurt me..." Kai whispered, not exactly sure why in the Underworld (or whatever these people would call it - probably the same as everyone else) he was telling this... man (who looked like he was the son of the Creator - old - and a bit creepy) what had happened.

A look in the man's old eyes whispered, "Go on... Please... I'm genuinely concerned."

Kai took a deep breath. "He... He..."

"He what, Kai...?"

"He... He raped me."

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He looked at his captor through the fire.

'So light 'em up, up, up'

Tears of fear and pain glistened in his amber eyes.

'Light 'em up, up, up'

It burns! Please! Stop hurting me!

'Light 'em up, up, up'

No can do Fire-boy.

'I'm on fire'

It's funny. Watching you squirm in pain.

'So light 'em up, up, up'

Still putting up a fight.

'Light 'em up, up, up'

Even though you know there's no point.

'Light 'em up, up, up'

You know - putting up a fight.

'I'm on fire'

Because you know it's gone - the fight in you.

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Scream, Fire-boy.

I'm the only thing you'll remember.

Because you know it's gone - the fight in you

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A/N: This is after the Tournament of Elements, before Season Five and was started ages ago. Before Season Five. Yeah... I don't think it'd been introduced then. That's why the start is so crappy. Obviously, it'll be kind of disturbing at times (I think you would of got that from the bit where Kai says whoever captured him raped him), so if this kind of stuff disturbs you, please, if you don't like reading it, click off it. To those who wondering why I'm writing this shit, it's because I'm trying to get rid of some of my ideas (which is practically impossible. Dude, Neuro would go insane if he read my mind. No, seriously), and I actually write this stuff. I'm planning an original series called the Blood series, and one of the bad guys is a rapist and a slut. :) So yeah. If this gets deleted, damn. Yes this will probably have swearing (mostly on my behalf XD) and disturbing scenes. So yeah... If you want to read this, I warn you:

- Crappy writing

- Disturbing moments

- Possible corruption

- Kai amnesia fic

- Very little Lloyd

Okay, if there's any more information you need, be free to ask. No flames please, as I will get depressed and have suicidal thoughts. -.-

Okay, A/N DONE!