Warning: This story contains cutting and blood, if this triggers anything, don't read it.

Life becomes worst before it gets better

Chapter 1: First weekend at Uni

It's been 2 years since I was at school and now I decided to go to university. 2 years ago when I was at high school, it was a fun life and I had friends. Now I haven't seen them since graduation except for Sakura which I have kept in contact with. Basically she is the only one that I know is going to be starting uni with me. I was going to go to uni last year, but something terrible happened and I wasn't ready to go to uni. Hell I'm not stable this year, but I'm pushing myself this year to get through it. Since that terrible event, I have done something unforgivable to myself. The last time I did this unforgivable thing was last week and I have scars running up and down my arms. These days now even if it's a really hot day I wear a long sleeve top to hide my arms so no one can see what I have been doing. All what this unforgivable thing is doing is getting rid of the pain and thats the only way to get rid of it.

Anyway, I'm heading to the uni and to get there from my apartment is through a bus and it will take an hour to get there. While I'm on the bus waiting to get to uni, I was looking at all the pictures I have on my phone from the high school days. Looking through the pictures and I see a picture of a guy with black hair that looks like a ducks butt and remember that it's Sasuke. I remember Sasuke, he was the guy that made me find out that I'm actually gay. The reason for that is he was the one I fell in love with, I was the one that kept him company when he was having a hard time and get him to get some help because I saw him cutting, I'm hoping now that he has stop now. I shouldn't even say this since I'm doing what he did in high school.

Suddenly I felt the bus slow down and I look and saw the uni up ahead and so I got ready to get off the bus. When I arrived there, I got off the bus and walked to the gate of the uni and suddenly heard someone say my name.

"Naruto."

I turned around to find out that it was Sakura who called my name.

"Sakura, nice to see you," I said said while waiting for Sakura to come to me.

"Yeah Naruto, it seems like it's been ages since we last saw each other," said Sakura.

"It's only been a week ago we last saw each other, it hasn't been that long."

"Too me it seems like it's been ages."

"Just like you to seem things like that."

"Yeah, say won't we go in and find out who we are roomed with."

I agreed with Sakura and headed inside of the uni.

As I said before, the last time I saw Sakura was last week and we were just catching up with each other and talking. Sakura was wondering how I was, considering my parents death and she was the only one the knew about it and was the one that comfort me. She mentioned my parents and how lovely they were, that was what triggered me cutting myself last week and Sakura never knew about it.

When we entered the uni, we headed to the office and there was a line, but the line was short. When it go to me, I had to say my name and gotten a number. I looked at the number and it was C24 and I looked behind me and Sakura got sorted out too and headed to me.

"Naruto, what room did you get?" said Sakura.

"Um, C24," I said.

"I got F12."

"Now we have to find where they are."

"Naruto, we where given maps."

"Yeah, a lot of maps."

"Stop complaining and lets look."

We both looked the maps and found out that I'm am in the 3rd dorm building on the 3rd floor and Sakura is in the 6th dorm building on the 2nd floor. We went to where all the dorm buildings are, which are on the left side of the uni. When we got there, I said goodbye the Sakura and we both headed to out buildings.

When I got to my building, I had to walk in and go to the office there and say my name to say that I have arrived and I was given my schedule and room key. I headed to the elevator and pushed the 3 button to get on the 3rd floor. When I made it to the 3rd floor, I had to find 24 and which took me two minutes to find it. I arrived at the door which says '24' on, I got the key out of my pocket and opened the door. When I opened it, I saw a guy with black hair that looked liked a ducks butt and it made me flashback to Sasuke. The guy turned around and was wearing glasses and still the guy looked a lot like Sasuke, until his face looked shocked and whispered "Naruto." Then I knew that is was defiantly Sasuke.

"So, Sasuke it is you with the ducks butt hair," I said once I figured it was him.

There was silence and Sasuke said nothing and his face is still shocked.

"Hey Sasuke, you going to speak or do I need to slap you."

"Oh, sorry Naruto, I was just shocked, I can't believe your my roommate," said Sasuke.

"Yeah, I'm surprised too and was wishing to see you again to see how your holding up."

"Well I'm actually doing fine thanks to you for getting my head to get some help."

I got my suitcase onto the bed and started to unpack. I was regretting going to uni, but now I'm not since I have Sasuke as a roommate. The difficult thing with this is to get him not to know that I'm doing what he did in high school. Anyway, I'll worry about that later, I have to finish unpacking.

An hour later and I had finish unpacking and I looked at the time and it's 3 0'clock. It wasn't that late, so I decided to relax and listen to music because I am so tired and it looks like Sasuke is reading and I don't want to disturb him. Suddenly Sasuke was looking at me and looking back at the book. He kept doing that and I knew he wanted to say something, so I turned of my music.

"Yes Sasuke, you want to say something," I said.

"Um, yeah I liked to asked if you kept in contact with anyone from high school?" said Sasuke.

"Actually yes and a matter of fact she is starting uni today the same as us."

"Oh really, who?"

"Sakura."

"Sakura, really."

Suddenly there was a knock at the door and I went to it and it was Sakura. I knew she wanted to tell me something because she has a big grin on her face, until she saw Sasuke and then it turn to a surprised face.

"Is that Sasuke, Naruto?" said Sakura.

"Sure is, I was shocked too," I said.

"Wow, you have Sasuke as a roommate, that has to be awesome, I have Ino as my roommate."

"Really, how is Ino?"

"Well, she is a bitch, a flirty and a girly-girl, that Ino has changed, I swear something happened and I want to get to the bottom of it."

"Wow, I have to see for myself."

"Anyway, I have to leave before Ino brings men to our room, see ya Naruto, Sasuke."

"See ya Sakura."

Once Sakura left I plopped down on my bed and was really tired. Then suddenly Sasuke spoke.

"How's your parents, Naruto."

"Um, yeah, their fine."

I wish he didn't mentioned my parents, now it triggered me and I needed fresh air and went out.

I went to the back of the building and I started breathing heavily and I got the small scissors out of my pocket, rolled up my left arm sleeve and opened the scissors, I moved the scissors across my wrist really hard and blood started oozing out. Suddenly my eyes started to tear up and I cut more times on my arm and didn't have the care in the world. Once I came back to reality, lucky I had a handkerchief with me just in case. I got up and once the blood stopped pouring out, I rolled down my sleeve and went back to the room. It seems every time people mentions my parents, I go like this and I can't stop it.

I got to my room and when I walked in Sasuke had a worried look on his face because I walked out just as I said how my parents were. I wouldn't be surprised that he is worried, but I'll just lie to him that I am fine.

"Are you ok Naruto, you just suddenly just walked out," said Sasuke.

"Don't worry Sasuke, I'm fine, I just remembered something and needed to go to the office and if I didn't do it quickly I would forget, you understand," I said as I lied.

"I understand, as long as you are ok."

"I'm fine, no need to worry."

I never knew that Sasuke would be the worry type. I guess since he got help he had changed and less depressive it seems.

Next day on Sunday, I woke up and Sasuke wasn't in bed and found out that he is in the bathroom. As I was waiting for him to get out, I got changed and made my bed. Still after that, he hadn't come out and I was wondering way he is taking so long. A minute later he came out and he was dressed.

"So what were you doing in there that took you so long," I said as I was looking curious.

"I was doing nothing, just having a long shower," said Sasuke.

"You know I don't believe that Sasuke because I know why, I have been to your place several times and the only time you take this long is if your cutting yourself, I know this remember."

"I told you, I got help and stopped cutting, I don't do that anymore."

"Really, roll up your sleeves and prove it to me."

"No, why can't you believe when I say I don't."

I shouldn't be saying this since I cut as well, but I need to know.

"This has happened before Sasuke, I believed you, but found out later on you lied, so I can't believe you now, so roll up your sleeves."

"No I won't, just believe me."

"Sasuke, show me now or I will do it myself."

"No."

Suddenly he ran out the door and I didn't even chase him because whats the bother.

2 hours later, he came back and he was really not fine at all and I knew I was right that he cut himself. It looked like that help doesn't work fully, but still I shouldn't say all these things to him when I'm hiding it from him too. For the rest of the day he didn't speak to me and that just made me frustrated and wanted to tell him what I have been doing, but no, I'm not ready to tell him. So, I decided to take a walk and clear my mind from frustration. As I was walking, I bumped into a guy with black hair in a high ponytail.

"Why does everyone bump into me, geez," said the guy.

"Sorry about that, I wasn't watching where I was going," I said.

"Hey, you look familiar and your voice too, can you tell me your name?"

"Ok, sure thing, I'm Naruto Uzumaki."

"Naruto...why does that sound familiar?...oh that's right from high school."

"Sorry, from high school."

"Naruto, don't you remember me, Shikamaru Nara."

"Oh right Shikamaru, haven't seen you in ages."

"Yeah, like wise, but sorry Naruto I have to run, I'll catch up to you later."

Then Shikamaru run off.

I decided to go back to the room to make sure Sasuke isn't doing it again and if he is in there again, I'm going in and stopping he even though I shouldn't, but he isn't me. I got to the room and he was just reading, which was good and so I went to lay down on the bed and listen to music. Suddenly flashing memories of my parent came to my head and seeing them both happy and then seeing them in their grave. I felt my eyes welling up in tears and I quickly turned off my music and ran out of the room before Sasuke notice that I'm about to cry. On the way to the same place as before, I bumped into Sakura. I looked up with tears running down my cheeks and Sakura had a worried look in her eyes. Sakura knew why I was crying because the only time I would cry if I remember my parents.

"Naruto, lets got for a walk," said Sakura.

We both started walking and was in the universities park, we found a park bench and sat down.

"Let me guess Naruto, your cry because you got memories in your head of your parent, ain't I right," said Sakura as the wind was moving her pink hair.

"Yeah, your always right, you know that," I said as I was wiping tears out of my eyes.

"Well of cause, I'm always right because I was always there for you when your parents died and before that I have never seen you cry, until then and now I know what triggers your crying."

"Your just too smart, Sakura."

"No, I just care for you too much and also lo..."

"What were you going to say, Sakura."

Sakura started to blush, I knew what she was going to say.

"Don't worry about that, anyway you should come to me if you are upset or need to talk, I don't care what time, just call me."

"I know that, you told me several times you know."

"Yeah, just making sure, how about we got back to our rooms, it's getting dark."

"Yeah, we should, of cause I have to face Sasuke being worried again."

We walked to our rooms

When I got to mine, Sasuke was walking back and forth in our room with a worried face. When I entered he stopped and went straight me.

"Naruto, you ok, you just suddenly went out and looked like you were about to cry," said Sasuke.

"It's ok, don't need to worry, I'm ok," I said as I walked to my bed.

"Are you sure that you are ok."

"Sheesh, Sasuke the last time I saw you, you were never worried at anyone, but now your a worry wort."

"Really, I never noticed that I worry a lot."

"Understand this Sasuke, I am fine."

"Ok, I believe you."

After all this talking to the worried Sasuke, I went into my backpack and got out my lyric book. Thats the book I write lyrics in and seeing all the past lyrics I have made. All of the lyrics are saddening, but I put all my feelings into it. Hope Sasuke doesn't get a hold of this or he will figure things out which is a bad thing.