Hey LOVES this is a new story that I came up with. I don't even know why I'm doing another story because I haven't updated my other stories for a while now. Please don't be mad, I will be updating both of my stories. One day this just came to me so I hope you like it. Don't worry eventually there will be HANNILY because I love them too much. Plus they are very cute. It's going to be sad the first chaps but stick with it. Thanks LOVES
Hanna's POV
Gosh look at them. It makes me very jealous seeing Paige and Emily whispering and flirting. This is not aw-they-are-so-cute-I-want-that jealously. I'm seriously jealous because I am in love with Emily Fields, my best friend who has a girlfriend. I know it's very confusing especially if I. myself have a boyfriend. I hate this situation, I wish I didn't have feelings for Emily I really do. I'm just setting myself up for my own heartbreak that's if I tell Em. Nobody knows about how I feel towards her which I'm surprised by because I don't hide it very well. I just can't help how I feel towards Emily, it's like I'm addicted to her. I feel a lot of things about the whole issue. I'm jealous because Emily is happy with Paige instead of me. I feel guilty because Caleb is like the sweetest guy ever but I'm just not feeling anything anymore. It's not fair to him, I feel bad. Confused is a big one I'm confused about myself, I mean am I gay? If I am why would I be in love with one of my best friends? That's weird right? Lastly I'm depressed well because I can't have what I want and It's very clear that Emily would never feel the same way. I can barely make it through the day anymore because of Paige and Emily. So when I get home I drown myself in alcohol. Then the next day I ignore my pounding brain, this has been a routine for some time now. I wish I can stop but it just makes forget about everything for a while. I guess have too problems alcohol and my addiction to Emily Fields. Both are taking a big toll on my life, somebody please help me. I'm sitting a lunch with Spencer, Aria and the two love birds. Ugh.
" Have you guys finished that project for Mr. Cruz's class yet?" Spencer asks all of us while drinking some of her juice.
" No, not yet I just have to glue everything on my poster board. I already did all the research." Aria explained.
" Yeah Paige and I finished yesterday." Emily said clinging on to Paige's arm and my blood instantly started to boil. I crossed my arms and leaned on the back of my chair.
" What about you Han? Did you finish?" Aria asked me noticing how quite I was being. Everybody looked at me waiting for my answer.
" Umm yeah I already finished it too." I answered truthfully because I really did finish it with some help from Caleb.
" Wow Hanna Marin actually doing her work, I'm surprised." Paige said and all of them laughed. I hate Paige.
" Okay you don't the first thing about me, so don't act like you do." I said with a very rude attitude.
" Chill Hanna, she was only kidding." Spencer said to me and put a hand on my shoulder.
" Whatever." I said with a puff and Emily looked at me curiously.
" Are you alright Han?" Emily asked me.
" I'm fine. Now can I not be hot topic of the damn table." I answered back and Emily looked at little hurt. Now I feel bad.
" Well clearly you're not." Paige giggled at little. I'm so tired of her little sly comments.
" Well clearly you can't hear correctly, I said I'm fine." I told Paige pissed off and she glared at me so I glared back.
" Hey you two calm down, you guys look like your about to rip each others hair out. This is not smack down what has gotten into you two?" Aria said trying to be peace maker.
" Oh I can totally do more than rip out her hair." I said standing up.
" Please I can totally drag you across the floor." Paige said standing up too.
" Guys I totally agree with Aria just calm down because the will be no kind of fighting going on here." Spencer said.
" Hanna can I talk to you for a second?" Emily said getting up from the table.
" Somebody is in trouble." Paige said I rolled my eyes before following Emily into the hallway.
" Okay, seriously Hanna what is wrong with you?" Emily asked crossing her arms and waiting for my response.
" What is this don't listen Hanna day. For the last time I'm fine." I told her even though there clearly is a problem which is Paige.
" Han I know what you said but you have anger in your eyes. What is up with you and Paige?" Emily said grabbing my hand , I love the way she tries to make me feel better but it's only making things worse for me.
" Well maybe because you're little girlfriend likes to make comments she should keep to herself." I explained to her.
" Han... Paige is just like that you know." Emily said with a shrug.
" No I don't know and to be honest I don't like her, she's a bitch. I don't understand why you are with her." I said and accident but really meant it.
" Don't talk about her like that, you don't even know her that well. For you info I'm with her because she makes me happy." Emily said to me and her words really stung my heart.
" You're right I don't know her that well but I know her well enough not to like her. Paige started with me first can't you see that. Plus she has something that I want." I said back to her. Can I be more obvious?
" Hanna I am your best friend I know there is something wrong with. Why can't you just tell?!" Emily said loudly and I jumped when she asked her question.
" I can't tell you." I said closing my eyes shut and leaning against the wall.
" Why not? You can tell me anything." Emily said and something in me just went off.
" Emily you are wrong I can't tell you anything because there are too many complications and you are one of them. I will tell you when I figure if out myself I'm so confused and I have a lot of things going on I can't take it anymore. I have too much on my plate more than I can eat. Just do me a favor just stay away from me until I have everything wrapped up. Okay?" I said tearing up a little.
" Fine I'll stay away but I thought we were better than that Han, talk to me when you stop being an ass and can explain yourself." Emily said storming back into the lunchroom.
I wait a couple of minutes before I went back into the lunch room. When I walked in I saw Emily crying on Paige's shoulder. When Paige saw me she got up and waited for me to arrive back to the table. Dammit I didn't mean to make her feel worse .
" What the hell did you say to her?" Paige asked me walking up to me. Ugh what does she want.
" Mind your own damn business." I said. If it wasn't for Emily I would totally kick Paige's ass.
" Emily is my business and I need to protect her from anyone that hurts her." Paige said and I laughed.
" Are you joking right now? You don't have to protect Emily from me I'm her best friend and I wouldn't hurt her." I said seriously.
" Then why is she crying then?" Paige said and I looked over and saw Aria and Spencer calming Emily down.
" Whatever. I'm out of here." I grabbed my bag and began to walk away. This day was not what I expected, I made the girl I was in love with cry.
" Han wait." Aria called after me and grabbed my arm.
" Aria let go I just need to cool off." I said as I yanked my arm from her and bolted out of the cafeteria. I just had to get out of there so I drove home and skipped the rest of day. When I got home I went up to my room, turn on my music and drank the whiskey I keep under my bed but not enough to get drunk. I was glad my mom wasn't how because I don't need anymore drama right now. I fell on my bed and looked at the ceiling until I got a text from Spencer saying her and Aria were on the way to my house.
Spencer's POV
I had no idea bringing up the topic of our project would have Hanna and Paige ready to pull out their gloves to fight, Emily in tears. I was really confused on what was going on between Paige and Hanna. I mean there is something behind that argument if you ask me. At first I got why Hanna was a little mad with Paige joking around with her. After that it went down hill from there they looked like they wanted to bust each others skull open. I have never seen Hanna get so mad over something so little. I wonder what is wrong with her, I guess Aria and I are about to find out because we are on the way to her house.
" So what do you really think that was at lunch?" I asked Aria who was driving.
" I don't know I'm just worried about Hanna and Emily." Aria said shrugging and not taking her eyes off the road.
" Yeah that's what I'm talking about not Paige and Emily but Em and Hanna." I explained to her.
" Oh I don't know about that either, but I thought Hanna would be the last person to make Em cry." Aria said looking over at me.
" I did too. I wonder what Hanna said to her and why Paige kept on making comments about Hanna." I told her and she nodded her head side ways.
" Well I guess we are about to find out." Aria said pulling into Hanna's driveway looks like her mom isn't home. We got out the car and made our way to the door and when we got their Aria just barged in.
" Hanna." Aria called out. Then we heard fumbling and bumping upstairs.
" I'm up here." Hanna yelled and we headed upstairs to her room. The door was ajar so I opened it slowly and we saw Hanna sitting on the edge of her bed with her head down.
" Hanna, what is going on with you?" I asked her and she looked up at us and sunk her head down again.
" Han are you okay?" Aria asked taking a seat next to her and began rubbing circles on her back.
" I'm really don't know the answer to either one of those questions." She sighed heavily and lifted her head.
" I never seen you like this, tell us and we can help you." I explained to her and sat on the other side of her, grabbed her hand and gave her a reassuring squeeze.
" It's not that easy guys, I can't tell. I don't even know how to tell you if I wanted to." She explained to us.
" Han, whatever it is you can tell us we're your best friends." Aria told her and Hanna let out a small laugh then frowned.
" That's exactly what Emily said." Hanna said and put her head down again. I looked at Aria and she shrugged at me.
" Why was she crying at lunch?" I asked trying to slowly get answers for her.
" Because I'm stupid, so stupid I can't figure anything out for myself. Guilt, confusion, jealously and depression is eating me from inside out." Hanna said getting up from the bed and she began pacing back and fourth with her head in her hands.
" Hanna seriously what is wrong with you? Just tell us we want to help you through this." Aria said trying to calm her down.
" Okay I have an uh addiction." She said as she stopped pacing around her room.
" Like drugs and alcohol?" I asked because Hanna has done that stuff in the past but it was never really an issue.
" Well alcohol but there is something else." Hanna said brushing her hand through her hair.
" Like what?" Aria questioned trying to think of anything else that could cause Hanna's problem.
" When I say something I mean someone. Come on think because I really don't want to say it out loud. Aria and I sat and thought for about two minutes until it hit me right in the face.
" Hanna do you...like Emily as like more than a friend?" I asked her and she didn't respond.
" Oh my god. Is that true Han?" Aria asked with a smirk on her face.
" Yes it's true but instead of like try love." Hanna smiled.
" Aww Hanna loves Emily. Now that I think about it you were so obvious and we were so oblivious." I giggled.
" Yea so I guess this explains lunch today with Paige and Emily crying." Aria stated.
" I was really pissed off today." Hanna sighed and sat in her desk chair.
" Why was Em crying? What you were talking about?" I asked.
" That was my fault I called Paige a bitch. Em asked what was wrong with me I told her I had too much going on and I told her to stay away from me until I figure it out. Then she got mad, called me an ass and went back into the cafeteria." Hanna explained to us.
" Why would you tell her to stay away if you love her?" Aria asked standing up from Hanna's bed and walking to a picture of Hanna and Emily.
" Because it's too much She has a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend that cares about me a lot. I can't do that to him and if I did break up with him I doubt Emily will come running in my arms. I'm so confused I just want to make this all go away." Hanna said and she look at us and a single tear roll down her face.
" I'm sorry Hanna but you obviously can't get rid of this you Have to tell Caleb and most importantly tell Emily how you feel." I said walking of to her and wiped her tear away from her face.
" It's not that easy Spence, if I tell Caleb he will get heart broken. If I tell Emily and she doesn't feel the same It'll ruin our friendship. Oh, not to mention her guard dog I mean girlfriend would totally be on my ass but I'm not worried about that part." Hanna said as she sighed loudly.
" Hanna it's not fair for you to be unhappy in a relationship that you don't want to be in. I highly doubt Emily would do that to you if she didn't feel the same way you guys would still be friends." Aria said and I took Hanna's hand and stood her up.
" Aria is right I think you should go talk to Emily. Not about being in love with her and stuff just apologize to her." I said with a smile.
" Yeah I should, I'll go right now. Thanks, I love you guys." Hanna said as she put on her shoes and jacket.
" No problem Han just know we will always be here for you. So if something is really bothering just tell us because we don't want you doing anything dumb." Aria said as she hugged Hanna.
" Yeah when ever you want to talk about this again we are just a phone call away." I said a got my own hug from her.
" Thanks again guys and don't mention this to Em." Hanna told us.
" We wouldn't do that to you." Aria and I said in unison then laughed.
" Okay let's head out." Hanna says as she turns her lights off and headed down stairs and we followed. She locked her front door and we bid our goodbyes.
Paige's POV
Today was not what I had in mind. Emily is so kind and sweet to everybody especially her friends. Hanna made her cry today at lunch and from what I heard Emily just wanted to help Hanna with whatever she is going through. Just as I stated to get along with Emily's friends not I have an issue with Hanna for making Em cry today. Something tells me Hanna never really liked me like the way she acts around me. Hanna always has this rude attitude around me but I can't put everything on her it's me too because I don't like her that much. It's like when ever we're in the same room together we bump heads but today was different I felt like Hanna was going to hit me and we would start fighting. I guess we'll see what happens in the future. Em and I are at her house but I had somewhere to be.
" I can't believe Hanna would do that to me I was only trying to help." Emily said as we cuddled on her couch watching TV.
" Yeah me neither I can't believe she called me a bitch when she is the bitch." I said to her and rubbed my hand up and down her arm.
" Hey don't call her that she is still my best friend." Emily said sitting up.
" I'm sorry em." I told her.
" You're not the one that should be apologizing to me." Emily sighed.
" Did Hanna say anything that was bothering her." I asked her.
" All she said was she has too much on her plate and I was one of those complications she has going on. When I asked her about you she said you have something she wants. Do you know what she is talking about?" Emily asked me. What do I have that Hanna wants? She has everything she needs.
" No, I have no clue what she is talking about." I answered honestly.
" Well if she wants me to stay away from her I will." Emily said getting worked up.
" Yeah you don't need her when she is acting like a bad friend." I said to her it's true if Hanna is being rude she doesn't deserve Emily's help.
" It's fine if she pushes me away she'll just come crawling back." Emily laughed but I could tell she was upset.
" Em it's going to be okay but I have to go now." I said and gave her a kiss on her forehead.
" Where are you going?" She asked me.
" Uh my mom wanted me back uh early." I lied.
" Okay see you later." She hugged me and I headed out the door. When turned around I saw Hanna walking up Emily's pathway.
" What are you doing here?" I asked her and crossed my arms.
" I came to talk to Emily." She told me.
" Why? You know right don't answer that Emily was right." I said with a giggle.
" What did she say?" She asked curiously.
" Oh nothing why don't you find out yourself." I said as I walked passed her.
" Paige wait." Hanna called after me.
" What?" I asked.
" I'm sorry for acting like a jerk I j-" Hanna was saying until I cut her off.
" Just have a lot going on, yeah I know but you should be apologize to Emily. I'm sorry too by the way." I said to her.
" Okay catch you later." She said as she walked up to Emily's house.
Emily's POV
After Paige left out the door there was a knock at the door. Assuming Paige had left something I opened the door for her. To my surprise it was Hanna.
" Hey Em, can I come in?" She asked with her hand in her back pockets.
" What are you doing here Hanna? You know what just leave." I said as I was closing the door but she stopped it from slamming in her face.
" I just came to talk to you and apologize." She said looking and my eyes and made a cute little pout face. Who can say no to that face?
" Fine come in." I said as I moved aside so she could walk in my house.
" Before you say anything I already apologize to Paige when she was on her way out." She said as she sat down on my couch and patted the spot next to her.
" Okay that's good but I don't understand why you here. Didn't you tell me to stay away from you and look at you crawling back." I said still pretty anger at her but I need to hear her out on what she has to say.
" I know what I said and it was stupid Em, I'm sorry I didn't mean it." Hanna said as she grabbed my hand.
" I'm sorry too for trying to push you to tell me what's wrong with you. It's your business, but I'm just worried about you Han" I said as I squeezed her hand to let her know I was worried about her.
" You don't have to say sorry for anything, I was the one being a jerk. You were just trying to help me with my issues." She said and she looked down.
" You're right I am here to help you Hanna. So what do you have going on since it's too much?" I asked her.
" It's kind of hard to explain." She laughed. I had no idea why she was laughing if something is wrong with her.
" Well at least give me some hints. Is this about Caleb?" I asked and as soon as I said his name she stiffened up.
" He is part of it, like I said it's hard to explain. I can't give you hints either or you'll know exactly what my problem is." She sighed heavily.
" Who else is a part of it? Am I apart of it?" I started to ask questions that I thought that could be useful for this situation.
" W-why would you be a part of it?" She stuttered out and remove her hand from mine. All of a sudden she seemed nervous, maybe I'm on to something here.
" Today you said that I was one of your complications. Is that true?" I asked her tilting my head, batted my eyelashes and poking my lower lip out a little.
" Well since I can't lie to that face yes, you're a part of it." She said honestly and smiled at me.
" What did I do? I'm sorry Hanna for whatever I did." I apologized to her and she laughed.
" Emily you didn't do anything wrong. It's just... I can't tell you." She said as she grabbed my hand.
" I think if I'm a part of your problems I deserve to know so I can help you." I explained to her.
" I'm to only one who can fix this Em, I have to figure this out before I can tell you. Can you just trust me on this one?" She said to me.
" Fine, I trust that you understand you'll tell me. So I didn't do anything wrong? Like I borrowed something and didn't give it back or something else?" I was being serious because the last thing I would ever want to do is do something bad to someone and not know about it.
" I promise you didn't to anything. You're perfect Em I hope you know that." Hanna said as she looked away then looked at me and smiled her wonderful smile that I love.
" You think I'm perfect?" I asked blushing and looked down our tangled hands.
" No I don't think I know and you should to. Let's see your sweet, funny, athletic and absolutely beautiful." She explained to me as she smiled like crazy but never made eye contact with me.
" Well thank you and I guess you're alright." I thanked her and we laughed.
" So am I forgiven?" She asked with a grin on her face and her eyebrows raised.
" You're more than forgiven if you promise to tell me what's wrong with you when you sort things out." I told her trying to make a deal.
" I promise you'll be the first to know. I love you Em thanks for being here for me." She said as she rubbed my hand with her thumb. I love when she use to do that before Paige came along. Now that I think about it we haven't been this close since then.
" I love you too." I said as I pulled her into a tight hug and when we let go she kissed my cheek and I blushed.
" I should get going. I'll see you tomorrow." She said getting up from the couch.
" Or you could stay here with me for tonight." I said with a smile.
" I'd liked that a lot." She said as she returned the smile.
I'm glad Hanna and I worked things out because I don't like anyone of my friend mad at me or doesn't want to talk to me. I'm happy that she came over now we can hang out that was long over due. That's probably why Hanna was acting like that at lunch today, she is jealous of Paige because I don't spend as much time with her as I use to. That's exactly it Hanna is scared that she'll lose me because of Paige.
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