Just friends
We smile at each other
Like we are communicating something without words
Or of which I believe its what were doing
You talk to me like you understand me and that you like me
Yet you don't
You leave me with false hopes and dreams
Which are crushed instantly when I try to express what I feel
You shoot them down one by one
I thought you cared the same way I do
Maybe I read into things too much?
I don't know
Maybe you're just shy
I tried to tell you that I liked you
But you shot me down
Now im scared that maybe the way I saw you is how I see everything else
False hopes and dreams that will never turn into realities
I liked you
You broke my heart
I try to avoid love
Yet I thought you were different
I thought you wouldn't reject me
But you did
So now I continue life waiting for someone to sweep me off
My feet
The funny thing is though that if I ever do fall in love
You will always be in the back of my mind
In the future if I find someone close to you
I hope they make me happy
How could I have been so blind I wonder?
I spose the cliché is that love makes people blind
Some people may say it was just a crush
But I thought more
And you will never read this
Which is even more heart breaking
The only way I can express myself is by writing
I get gushes of courage sometimes
To do something stupid
And I did
I sent you a message that sent my heart down the toilet
A risk
This is the message that will remain unsent
Hopefully I will read this in 10 years time and laugh at how
Stupid I was
I hope
That's all I can do
Is hope
And wait
And dream
And cry
Wait for someone to sweep me off my feet
Dream of a life that included me and you
And cry over what I felt
You are probably with friends at the moment
Smiling and laughing
A million thoughts away from me
Where as I am thinking of you
Typing this on my computer
On the verge of tears
I am pathetic I know
Nothing really happened
But I guess that's why I'm crushed
Nothing happened
Nothing