INTRO

It was just this day that Remus John Lupin woke up with a dizzy mind. It still was there though, of course it couldn't go away after all this time he had those feelings, let alone in one night. It was traumatic and the worst thing was that he even couldn't describe to himself what exactly he was feeling. It was that morning just like any others, except it was the day before the first quidditch match this year. Remus yawned and sat straight upon his bed. He looked at his friends, who were still asleep. Remus didn't mind waking them up, they still had 3 hours left to wake up, eat and prepare for the first class that day. Besides, it wasn't like James, Sirius and Peter really cared for the classes anyway, and if they would they haven't been showing it. Remus stood up and pulled a sweater on over his pajamas, he walked downstairs to the common room without noticing someone seeing him leave.

Sirius Pov.

Some cracking door noises definitely woke me up, not that I'd care, I should probably hurry anyway if James let me sleep through the first couple of classes again, which he didn't do in a long time, the more reason to do it now. But when I looked out of the window I saw that it wasn't light at all, and when I looked at James' bed he was still sleeping there. Same counts for Peter, but when I looked across the room at Remus' bed, it was empty. This happened a lot lately. Or he ''fell asleep while studying at the library'' or he ''was just doing some homework with Lily'', but I doubt if he was telling the truth in any of these situations, though he always had Lily's back. It was kind of weird, their friendship, actually they could be equivalent opponents as they're both top of the class, but instead they had decided to become friends because… I didn't know why actually. Probably because a lot of stuff, Lily was a muggleborn, while the same didn't count for Remus who was halfblood, they still might've felt unaccepted and inferior as Remus had this huge secret of him being a werewolf and Lily having such a trouble with her sister's approvement. Not that Remus told her about his secret, he was scared for what her reaction might've been, but I guess she could feel that he hid something for her. I see why it's a huge secret though, Remus once told me I didn't understand any of it, but it's just that I think it's a shame to just avoid making close friends. When he told us about his secret he was quite upset, as he didn't want to tell us but it didn't seem like he had a choice after we confronted him with much evidence of him sneaking away every full moon. We tried to cheer him up by calling his secret ''his furry problem'', which he didn't appreciate at all, with as the consequence him not speaking to us for over a week. That was hard. Not because of the homework or studying, we could handle all that, with some effort which made it unimaginably boring. Anyway we were so happy when he wasn't that ashamed anymore and came to talk to us about it. I think our friendship became way stronger because of that.

''Moony? Are you there?'' I yawn.

No answer.

''Dammit'' I sigh. Waking up isn't my strongest point, there's no reason for that. All I can say is that I'm not a morning person. With a deep sigh I sit straight upon my bed. I really need coffee to wake up. ''I definitely need some'', I whisper under my breath. I stand up and walk to the Common Room, feeling more awake with every step I take.

''Padfoot! Did I wake you up?'', a surprised voice asks.

I know that voice: Moony's. Remus is sitting in a couch, staring at me.

''Uhm. No, actually not'', I say overwhelmed. It's only after I said it when I realise I lie. It probably was him waking me up, by closing the door that caused a cracking noise.

''Well than, what are you doing here? You're never up so early'' He asked, not really meaning it. ''Unless you're worrying if some girl likes you or not'', he concluded eventually.

I grin, as I plopped down on the couch. It was quiet, and I could feel the atmosphere getting more and more awkward by the seconds. So I stared at the fireplace, the warmth of the red fire really appealed to me, and let me dream away in my own world. In the fire I happened to see a red figure, which reminded me of a stag. It wasn't really there of course, just my imagination with the fire. It was peaceful though, till Remus woke me up with words.

''Hey, are you okay?''

He is serious this time, and I look at him.

''You look dreamy'', he says as if he's a spiritual expert.

I grin. ''Well, yeah I guess.'' I look at him and he looks back, with an unreadable expression.