My name is Phil, honestly I don't know how to explain the situation. I mean I'm moving to London with my crush. I'm not exactly complaining, but I don't know when I should tell him my secret. Honestly it's been bugging me and I started to notice it happening more and more now.

I don't know how to tell him, how could I? He's the friend I'm moving in with, we've known eachother for a long time, and I just don't know how to say it. Well, let's just hope I wont be the clutz I usually am in this situation. I hope I wont have to tell him untill I die.

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My friend is hiding something from me, I can feel it. Though, it'd be bad if found out any of my secrets and I wouldn't tell anyone if I were hiding something from them, so I just wont ask. Though he really seems troubled by it. I wonder if he witnessed a murder with how he was freaking out, it was seriously possible. Though, I seriously want to help a friend, I'm sure he would freak out even more than he is. Though, he seriously can't lie to save his life. He keeps on looking at me like he wants to tell me something, though he talks himself out of it every time.

"Hey Dan, you need help packing?" asked Phil, who was already done with his despite him being worried about something.

"Sure, though there isn't much left to pack anyway." I replied. Phil now packing my stuff in a box, still looked bothered and scared of something, I wish I knew so i could help out my friend. May be he needs a distraction.

"Hey Phil, want to go get some lunch and see a movie after this?" I asked.

Phil looked bright pink and refused to look up, "Umm...sure, though I don't want to see any horror movie Dan. Not like last time. I don't want to watch another one, last time was horribly scary and I don't want to see people get killed- even if they're actors. I'm still haunted to this day after watching that movie." He was really cute during times like this, not going to lie to myself about that.

"What? When you were so scared that you kept on jumping more than a rabbit does in it's entire life, hugging me in the process and managed to pass out when we got home. On top of me!" I mockingly said, and he looked like a tomato, he was blushing and embarrased enough to actually look like one. He was figity and still blushing up to his ears. He was kinda cute during times like this.

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"Hey! I thought I told you to never mention it again!" I said, while throughing a stuffed Totoro at him. Dan was smiling, you could even tell he was happy just from looking at his eyes, the beautiful brown eyes complimenting his beautiful face and... Wait, what am I thinking?! He is my friend I can't just...Why can't i just fall in love with someone else?!

"Well sorry, but it was kind of hilarious and cute-" I cut him off "Cute? Did you just say that I was cute?!" I asked. Why did he tell me that, I must be blushing like crazy. Why does he keep making me feel like this?

"It's true, you were hugging me like a little five year old and you freaked out more than the 6 year old that was in front of us! Also you were cowering in fear hugging me. Even girls I dated didn't freakout like you did during one movie. I mean seriously, you looked really pitifull. Like a bunny about to get eaten by a wolf." Dan said, laughing to the point he was in tears. This seriously didn't help me in the slightest.

My phone went off. "Who's that calling?" Dan asked. Why does my mom interupt me during the conversations when it'd make sense to tell him my feelings every single time?!

"It's just my mom, probably wants to know something " I replied, then answered the phone. Picking up the phone and placing it against my ear. "Hey mom, what's up?"

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"...Oh, that's horrible. Yah, I'm really sorry. I have to go. Bye." Phil said, he then hung up the phone. The grey blue eyes of Phil's were tearing up until he busted into tears and hugged me very tightly crying into my chest. Now wasn't the time to be asking him what happened, the only thing I can do now is let him cry it out and not ask quetions. He'll tell me what happened when he's ready to.

I hugged him back and just let him cry it out untill he feel asleep, in my arms. I've never seen Phil this upset about something. I wonder what it could be, it'd have to be terrible to have Phil cry like this, especially infront of other people. He usually always smiling, so no one would have guessed he could cry like this. I wish he could tell me what happens when ever he gets like this.

Though, that didn't matter to me. Not as much as Phil falling asleep in my arms. He looked happier in his sleep, he was resting peacefully and looked like a black furry bunny with blue eyes curled on top of me. It was honestly quite adorable. I kissed his forehead and feel asleep hugging Phil. I was tired and Phil refused to let me go and I didn't want to leave him when he was this upset about something.

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When I woke up, Dan was hugging me and I was hugging him. Might as well bask in this moment, while it lasts. It will never happen again knowing Dan. My head was against his chest, close enough that I could hear his heart beat, it soothed Phil and he slowly drifted back to sleep with the comfort that Dan was by his side.

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I slowly woke up finding Phil hugging me and me hugging him. He looks really peacefull in his sleep, I don't want to wake him up only to take him away from the happiness when he's in when he's sleeping. So, I got out from his very tight grip and put my jacket over him to keep him from getting too cold. I seriously hope Phil could stay happy and not get hurt as often he does. I could only wish, though I really want to know what his mom said. Well, it's about time for dinner so, I can re-heat left overs and give him happy things to think about.

There was knocking at the door. It's Phil's mother, I refuse to let her know Phil is here. So, I opened the door and said,

"I'm sorry but Phil is out at the moment. If you want you can tell me instead and I'll pass the message to Phil." She gave me a look of confusion and disgust, which confused me, but I'm not letting her see that. Not even a little bit.

"No thank you, do you have any idea where he is? I need to talk to him about moving to London with his roomate." she replied, with a smile on her face.

"Well your in luck because, I'm Phil's roommate. Anything you have to say to him, you can tell me." I retorted

"Well, I need to talk to him about moving to London with you because of his sexuality." Phil's mother replied, with a look of discumfort.

"Geez, it's not like he's a little rabbit, he can take care of himself." I said, in a tone that would make her back off for now.

"What? ...It's not like you two have feelings for eachother or dating right? I mean I know Phil is gay, but I'm afraid that he'll get hurt himself." Phil's mother replied

Phil's gay? How come he hasn't told me? Why didn't I realize it before? Whatever, now that I know that, I can get her away for now.

"You know he's out with some friends and if you want to talk to him, at least invite him out another time. I also have to get going, because I have to edit my next video before my fans freak out and say I lied about the time when I post my videos." She imidiately gave me a even bigger look of disgust and gave me the mom look.

"Well alright then, tell him to call me when he gets home." Phil's mom started walking away pissed out of her mind. Like hell I'll tell him that, he was here the entire time, she just had a stick up her ass so she couldn't tell Phil was here and that I didn't know he was gay. It's not a big deal that Phil is gay. It's just a small part of him and probably the reason why he waouldn't be friends with anyone who made fun of gays. Wow, if that's the case, I have A LOT of asses to kick for saying that in front of him.

I heard rustling of my jacket and Phil moving around. Well, I'm gonna stay next to Phil and protect him for a long time starting now and I cuddled up next to Phil. I put my arm around him and put my head on his neck, having an urge to take off his shirt and make him completely mine. Wait...what was I thinking? I can't do that to my friend, especially Phil in such a vuleranable state. I then felt tired and fell asleep once again.

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I woke up with Dan hugging me, his head on my neck and felt his cool breath against my neck. I really am horrible for liking this so much.