Hello there I was supposed to work on another chapter of Unconditional Love but then I thought about a different story for Klaus and Hayley a very different AU. I hope you like it. This is a OneShot. At least for now. But I had to write it, don't ask me why. Imagine these moments were really hard...please share your thoughts with me and forgive me for every grammar mistakes. I'll do my best.
Cerulean Blue was the color who Klaus talked about during 1.17 episode of The Originals and Hayley' dress was of the same color I read some stuff online and I really loved this color meaning.
Cerulean Blue
Elijah checked his phone, he knew Rebekah would be called him at any moment, he withdrew it with elegance in his jacket , continued to look in the woods of Louisiana . He knew that he would find his brother somewhere, in all those months since the last time they had clashed, he had checked his desperate and uncontrollable actions. He thought he had seen him in his worst mood instead the last year had shown a ruthless monster without any feeling . But Elijah knew that his mask of evil was hiding something else. But it was too late to show it.
He found him, his mouth smeared with blood and the body of a woman who has just thrown to the ground, there was no satisfaction in his eyes , there was no desire to savor yet another death, there was nothing. He was a shadow. He acted as a war machine without thinking and without caring.
" I thought I was clear three months ago. I don't need a baby sitter, Elijah . " He had sensed his presence and his brother challenged him licking his fingers stained with blood .
"I carry with me no hope to see you back in control. Another witch?" He said, pointing to the corpse on the ground. Klaus didn't answer, grunted against his brother.
"Go away, Elijah . "
" So you can keep in your nonsense revenge ? Niklaus stop! We all feel a deep and immense pain , Rebekah desperately wants to see you but you don't let anyone get close, stop acting as if killing is the only thing that matters. What would your daughter say about you?" Elijah raised his voice.
" I have no daughter. " Klaus cried angrily. "There is nothing left I care about in this world. " Klaus looked at him straight in the eye and knew they were both thinking the same thing. To her .
"You have to go back to New Orleans. Today . " Klaus laughed hysterically in front of the request of his brother. But in his eyes Elijah saw tears.
"Goodbye, Elijah." he turned away going back to his car. It was just perpetually alone, Klaus had spent the entire year in the company of his demons and no one else .
" Niklaus, she is getting married!" Elijah shouted, remaining in his position with his hands in his pockets. Klaus stopped and was flooded with memories that struck him as white oak stakes . Rip his heart would have been a relief greater than what he was experiencing. "Today ." Elijah thought of the phone call the day before with Rebekah .
"And you really believe for a moment that this thing could move my emotions? " Klaus turned to face his brother this time the distance between them was minimal.
" There is nothing left inside of you. But even in her. You still want to be blind? She is sacrificing everything for a cause who doesn't even belongs to her! For something that we have created !it's our fault !" Hearing these words Klaus thought of the screams that had haunted him for a whole year and still haunted his nightmares . – she is dead, she is dead because of you! It's your fault your lust for power, the struggles of the intrigue, she's dead ... you have killed her ! –
Klaus struggled to breathe. He had never wanted to retrace the path of pain that seemed abandoned forever .
"I'm sure , Rebekah is sure that if you went back ... She needs you . Remember what you had . " Elijah put a hand on his shoulder.
"We lost everything we had." Klaus shook the hand of Elijah , in his eyes the empty and Elijah began to fear of being late , and he could do nothing to help his family.
Klaus was now moving away and no words could stop him .
" Kill all the witches of this world will not bring her back , Niklaus ! " What 's Klaus' shoulders hid to Elijah' eyes , were his eyes destroyed by that pain who the time believed away but his heart felt so close .
- She's dead . -
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It was the day of her marriage and she wanted to feel an emotion of any kind , but the truth was that night she was probably dead too. She felt no joy , or rethinking for a wedding that was going to meet just to save her family. The family she looked for during her whole life and now they couldn't help her. Nothing could make her fill the emptiness she felt in her heart.
She was sitting on the shore in an old abandoned shack, near the lake, out everyone was waiting for her to come , she was supposed to appear beautiful and radiant but it was not what she wanted. Jackson was waiting . And he wasn't the problem ... he was indifferent. It was useful to provide a bit ' of peace in the clan of wolves to provide stability to the city for their future . But when she found himself looking into a mirror Hayley tried to remember the girl she was. The girl who was before that night. The girl who was going to marry someone she loved.
She had lost everything in one night. Her life, love . Herself .
" The dress we had chosen was much more majestic. " When Hayley saw in the mirror Rebekah' blonde hair believed for a moment she felt an emotion. She turned to hug hinting at a smile. Hayley wore a simple dress, color cerulean blue , no makeup and yet she was still beautiful despite on her face there was no trace of feeling. " May I? " Rebekah said, touching her hair. Hayley sat down in front of the mirror while Rebekah began to work on her hair slowly.
" To see you ... it's such a surprise. " Rebekah smiled.
" I couldn't miss the wedding of our queen. " Hayley looked down.
"There is no queen. As soon as things calm down I will go away . Jackson just wanted to prove to everyone the clans are united. " Her eyes were not those of a happy bride .
" Hayley ... go away will not fill the emptiness you feel. " Rebekah let go of her hair looking into her eyes .
"I don't feel anything Rebekah . I don't want to feel anything . "
" So why do you keep it? " Rebekah indicated a small picture in the box near the mirror close to the bracelet that Hayley wanted to wear . Hayley knew what she was referring to. She hadn't the courage to look. Her eyes grew moist.
"I keep a lot of things for no reason." She wiped the tears trying to compose herself .
" Hayley ... "
" Don't do that Rebekah please, I can't listen anymore to people who tell me that it wasn't my fault, our fault ... I don't want to listen to anyone. I just want to get away from this damn place ."
" You have been struggling to find your family , you know that I have always admired you for that. " Rebekah tried to break through in her emotions but didn't seem to be anything left .
" You were wrong . I haven't fought for my real family. " Rebekah remembered the pain of Klaus . They were so similar in this too.
" You were happy Hayley, we all were. We can start over."
"How can you start over if there is nothing left to start with? " Rebekah stood in silence in front of Hayley . "I have to go or they will be looking for me , thanks for coming ... "
" I wished I could see you at your true wedding… months ago. " Hayley gasped there were so many memories that she had hidden in her heart with walls of indifference. Her marriage. She recalled the proposal , the dress, the joy , the baby. They were supposed to be married. Months ago. She left the house to go out and perform the duty that her wolf's nature required. Once out Rebekah approached the jewelry and picked up the photo. The joy that shone in the faces of Klaus and Hayley, it was a rare comet in their lives. Clutching their baby in their arms, their precious little girl .
Kayla Rebekah Mikaelson . Although she still felt pain in retrospect . She remembered her tears at the very moment she was born and they had revealed their intention to give to the baby girl her name.
"You're gone away with all of us , little Kay. " Stroked the baby in the picture and put it back in place.
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Hayley had never seen a marriage between wolves families but she hoped that it would all be over soon , she was tired of everything, of every face of every word . They were celebrating her marriage and her mind was in a dark place and away to relive the same night ... again and again. There was no chance to forget , she wanted to be a vampire to turn off the emotions and live. But was that a life, or not? She saw the Klaus' face petrified , destroyed watching the witches who had killed her. She was crying and even though everyone could pretend that it was for the wedding she was choking pain .
Not a sound came from her mouth , but inside there was a storm. She could almost see Klaus among those invited but she didn't know where he was, she had never seen him no more after that night when their broken hearts were flung against one another . But maybe was it worth the effort to be there and marry someone who would not give her anything? For what purpose? She would have run away months before like him.
Just like him.
Him
" It's time to talk , little wolf ." His voice enveloped her and brings her back to reality , darkness vanished. Hayley stood petrified unable to turn; everyone was staring at him in the midst of the guests standing in a wonderful suit . And she didn't expect to see his face. Hayley didn't know to still have a heart, but something inside her warmed , her heart began to beat hard. Jackson stared at her puzzled no one expected that Niklaus Mikaelson could ever go back to town .
" Maybe another time , Klaus . " an angry Jackson said, trying to remain calm. Klaus didn't listen and took a few steps toward them, slowly closed the distance between them, Hayley still in the same position. Klaus reached out a hand to her...
"Just a moment. " Klaus' voice was low and soft , Hayley turned slowly to look at him and there was no recall or blurred image that would do him justice . It was and always would be the only person who can make her feel so alive . It was more beautiful than she remembered and found the same void in his eyes. Without realizing it she slid her hands into Klaus .
"Just a moment." Hayley repeated his words almost mechanically.
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The pier wasn't far away and they quietly walked up to join it. It had been so long since the last time they had spent a few moments together. It was another life. Their lives.
"Cerulean Blue." He looked at her simple dress that marked her slim and perfect figure, the same that had once so tenderly carried within her... their child. That color was one of Klaus' favorite colors, he always loved that color. Hayley knew it.
" Why are you here? I thought ... I wouldn't see you again. " Hayley was finally able to speak. She put her hand on stomach feeling a huge weight within her .
"I just wanted to make sure ... I wanted to see you." All they had lived , all the times they made love, their best moments swooped on Hayley . His voice was a torment to which, however, she couldn't escape .
"Because I'm about to marry Jackson? " Throughout the long year nothing had stirred Klaus.
"Do you love him ?" Hayley felt hurt by his question. Klaus looked at her with her beautiful green eyes so deep but so full of pain.
"How can you even think that there is love left inside of me?" Hayley wanted to scream at him but he didn't have the strength . She gave him her back taking a few steps on the pier. Klaus walked over to her placing his hand on her shoulder.
"I'm sorry, little wolf. " He whispered close to her ear.
" Don't call me like this, please, don't. " Desperation shone through in her words .
"I've always called you like that."
"It belongs to a life that no longer exists. It reminds me of everything I had ... and ... I can't have. Not anymore. " Hayley let out the tears and seemed almost a liberation after months and months where she was no longer able to let go any tear.
" ... We had a wonderful life. Those days with you were the most real I've ever had. Remember the sound of her breathe is the only thing that makes me think I'm still alive. " Hayley couldn't stop the tears that had already lined her entire face.
"I can't . " Klaus thought she was referring to him, but Hayley was thinking about something else . "I hate you for that. You can remember her , you can relive her , you can feel her so close ... I would just like to have a memory , the smell of her skin , the warmth of her skin on my chest ... I'm forgetting ... I'm forgetting our daughter." Hayley tried not collapse but it was so difficult. Klaus stood in front of her and showed her the palm of his hand.
"I can show you her again. But it won't make it easier Hayley . Remember every details of our daughter every day destroys what is left of my heart. " Klaus dropped a tear.
"Do you think I still have a heart? All I remember is her death . As if she had carried away even the best memories. Our memories. " Hayley shrugged, almost smiling.
"Let me bring Kayla back to us. " All that he showed was surrounded by peace and joy. Hayley dreamed to hold her in her arms, to be able to caress her face, kiss and protect her. Klaus let their daughter come back to them , even if for a brief moment . When the vision ended Hayley fell to the ground on her knees, unable to bear the weight of her loss. They had never wept beside each other , they had never been able to do that the pain was too much.
"We didn't had enough time with her... " he cradled her in his arms, let her cry for the death of their child. A death caused by the eternal feud between vampires , wolves and witches. Hayley clutched to his chest and for the first time in a year she felt something. She raised her head slowly looking at his face, his lips, she leaned her lips on his, nothing had changed since last time. Their lips danced together as if they had known each other forever. Klaus returned her kiss long, while gently stroking her face full of tears. They pulled away from each other but without separating their faces too .
" You were supposed to be my wife... " Klaus whispered . Hayley was covered by a shiver down her spine. She remembered perfectly the proposal and her joy in saying yes .
" ... We were supposed to be parents. " Hayley said, trying to escape his enveloping gaze.
"I still want you. It's the only thing I know."
"How can you still want me ? What can you want from me ? " Hayley seemed to almost beg .
"I want you to be my wife." This proposal was sincere , Hayley had learned to know him well and she knew he wasn't lying .
"There is nothing left inside of me. Nothing."
" What makes you think that I still have something inside of me , little wolf ? " smiled and Hayley fell in love once again of the wonderful dimples that formed on his cheeks every time he smiled .
"You came here . Perhaps you ... " Hayley didn't want to quarrel with him , and she knew that what she was about to say could hurt him irreparably .
" Never think , even for a moment, I don't miss her. I think of her every minute of every day, every damn time I spend on this earth. But when I remember the pure love I've felt holding her in my arms I also remember something else. " Hayley looked at him and waited for him to continue. "She reminded me of you. Her eyes, her wonderful eyes. She was so tiny but so strong ... she was a part of you ... and me. " Hayley felt her cheeks wet again .
"The weight I feel, the pain I feel ... I don't know if I'll ever be brave again as you 've always seen me. " Hayley struggled to admit it but she was destroyed. "Sometimes I think I'd like to have a reason to continue living. I can't even say his name ... " she said holding up her tears.
Klaus said nothing looked long and stroked her arm with his hand. Then he leaned over her and kissed her again softly.
"I spent the whole year to kill witches. But there never was one time when this thing has given me relief. " Hayley was aware of what Klaus had done in the past year. She knew about his desire of revenge. Revenge. For their daughter. But she never felt relief in this. " Seeing you today with this beautiful cerulean blue dress ... I felt something today ."
" I wanted to have you beside me. " Hayley said, throwing her arms around his neck.
"I'm here , I'm here. " He hugged her so hard to hurt Hayley.
"How can we deal with it? " Hayley said over his shoulder as she clutched at him.
"Come with me , little wolf . We have lost so much, you're all I have left ... what do we still have to lose ?" he made her move and kissed her once again.
" Klaus ... I have to go. " Hayley was afraid of everything, she was starting to feel in her heart. Back to Jackson seemed the only thing that made sense in the sea of thoughts that crowded her. She stood up settling the dress. She was about to go away , but Klaus grabbed her by the wrist.
" I will not let you go, not this time."
"There is only pain when we look at each other's eyes . " Hayley tried to protect herself by returning to the safe path that she was running.
" Our daughter was not only pain. Your love for me was not just pain. You believed in me. You have loved me ."
" Klaus, I can't..."
"Why?"
" Because I love you!" Hayley almost screamed when she said it and Klaus felt almost thrown from the weight of those words.
" I left you alone in the most terrible moment of our lives ... and you still love me? " Klaus took a few steps toward her. Stunned , amazed and in disbelief ... how could she still love him?
"As soon as I turned around to look at you a few hours ago ... as soon as I saw you, it was as if my heart had suddenly found a way to come back to life."
"Then come back to me." Klaus met her . "Hayley . You don't have to marry him. You don't have to do anything of this."
" And then what? Something bad will happen , who will die this time? Rebekah ? Elijah ? My clan of wolves... yours? Maybe we don't deserve to be happy. "
"I spent 1000 years on this earth believing to be doomed to be alone forever, doomed to not being able to love to not have anyone at my side. I will not let you go. I'll never you let go. I already did this mistake once." Klaus shook her arms in his hands . "I was happy. With you. With our baby. And even if we'll never be again I want you by my side because I know that our torment if shared with you will be less painful. You're my only hope as you were when you were pregnant."
Hayley wanted so desperately to let go to the love that they both still felt for each other.
"We were happy. " Hayley smiled looking at him.
"Stay . " Klaus insisted and at that moment something in the look of Hayley changed , they began to kiss passionately , forgetting the place where they were. They laid on the pier, Klaus lay down on top of her taking away her cerulean blue dress , and kissed every inch of her body and dragged her to him; they made love once again becoming one person, just one small broken piece. He hold her so hard he wanted to make her sure that he would never let her go again . They loved each other, it was more pure than their first time together, the night where everything began. He had missed the scent of her skin , her hair, her breath on his neck, her kisses , he had forgotten how wonderful it was to hold her and know that she belonged only to him.
Hayley was lying on his chest in silence, around them just the noise of the forest. She wanted to savor every moment of his time with Klaus .
" I've never apologized for having accused ... for having accused you of her death. " Klaus kissed her head.
"I've done a lot worse. Pain made blind ... especially me. " Hayley got up and began to stroke his face as she leaned her breast on Klaus .
"She would have loved you as a father. " Klaus didn't want to cry, but being a good father was everything she had dreamed of. Always. He wished to had had more time ... but their only child had been with them for such a short time .
"I 've loved her since she was in your womb and I will do as long as I am condemned to live on this earth. " Hayley continued to stroke it . There were a few long minutes of silence broken only by their breathing and the sound of water .
"Ask me again . " Hayley whispered in his ear. Klaus seemed not to understand . " Ask me again . "
" Little wolf , would you marry me ? " Hayley felt in a long time joy inside her, more than a year before,s he had already responded to Klaus but it was even more exciting than the first time .
"Always and forever ." She replied , kissing him softly.
Hayley stood up and Klaus helped her get dressed. His hands walked her back which was immediately shivered . They took a few steps toward the place where the wedding was taking until shortly before...
" I can take care of everything ... I could kill them, they were going to take you away from me ." He said jokingly .
"I can manage a clan of wolves." she joked , but after a few steps ... Hayley stood pensively into the forest . Klaus stared at her for a moment he didn't understand what was going on in her mind .
"... And if one day we will be happy again ?" Hayley looked almost frightened at the thought but a little before on the pier she felt alive again . With him.
" ... We will be happy thanks to her, she put us together, she brought you back in my life. Without her I would have nothing . We would have stayed lonely souls." Klaus looked at her tenderly .
" She was our little miracle . " Hayley looked down.
" She will always be our little miracle , as you 'll always be my little wolf . " Hayley came up to him and kissed him fleetingly . She had to go to fix things with Jackson ... but she wasn't afraid she had nothing more to lose. She could only hope that one day the pain would be lessened.
" I don't know what is left of my heart, but even If it was just a little piece... I'll give it to you, you'll keep it in your hands. It's yours."
Hayley smiled from afar.
"I'll be back to pick it up and keep it inside of me forever. " Klaus saw her to meet his clan and talk with others , he realized after a few moments of having someone at his side .
" You're back. " Rebekah was happy to see him, she had lost hope that something could move him . Both began staring at Hayley who spoke with Jackson.
"She is born to be a queen." Rebekah smiled looking at her, her fierce and determined attitude sometimes remembering how Hayley managed in the past with her clan of wolves.
"She is my queen." Klaus let out a smile , while far from Hayley was returning to him, to take what was left of his heart, and care for it. She found a safe haven in his embrace, before Rebekah who was moved by them. There was a sort of peace around them, or maybe she was just hoping that for a moment they could return to live together.
" Let's go home . " Klaus whispered in her ear.
"I want... " Hayley looked up at the sky , trying not to cry. "I want to bring flowers to Kayla. I would like to do it with you." She said with a sweet smile and a little tear, looking straight into his eyes . Rebekah looked at them a short distance and couldn't hold back the tears . Klaus nodded, holding her tightly to him and they went away.
Their agony was lighter as they hold on on each other.
"They'll be ok?" Rebekah felt the outline of Elijah behind her.
"It will pass, not now, not forever. But our brother is living a pain so terribly human and finally he chose what to hold on to. The time will help them heal. They have all the time in the world to do it. " Elijah took a deep breath while Klaus and Hayley had disappeared from their sight. Rebekah laid her head on his brother shoulder.
"Even in a broken heart can enter a ray of sunshine ." Elijah kissed Rebekah forehead.
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