— This is crazy. You're insane.
That was the only though I had that morning, after I bought that ring. I mean, he gave me so many signs, that I couldn't have misinterpreted. I don't want to talk about all the womens I had. About all the signs I've ever read. I can't be wrong. I don't even want to think about that.
— That's insane. I can't do it.
Drivin' back to the motel I remembered something. He kissed me every night while I was sleeping. I've never really noticed, but I felt every kiss. I could feel the love. But I was so sleepy or even drunk that I always though... It was a dream. When I finally discovered that... My feelings about it... I just though that was a mistake. Something impossible, until I discovered that that feeling... Wasn't really bad. I haven't ever felt this way for someone. God knows how much I tried to. So many towns, so many roads, so many places... And all that I needed was on the other bed. On the other side of my room. All that I needed was him. And he was always mine. Always there for me. How couldn't I ever noticed? I was blind. Blind, trying to be what I wasn't. A regular guy, with his apple-pie life. I wasn't made for it. And I took so many years to realize. So many years that I could be on his side, not only like brother, but like... Lover.
— Lover.
I smiled when I said that word. Not like a 16-old-girl, I'm not like this, but... Damn, I smiled. Hell, I can't take this anymore. I'm tired of hide my feelings under a heavy stone. Maybe that's why I have this golden ring on my pocket. Damn, I stole a good credit card this time.
— Sam?
I said, opening the door smoothly. I came in and closed the door so nicely that I didn't even heard when it was completely close. I sit on his side of his bed, watching my little brother wake up, rubbing his eyes and smiled.
— I love you, Sam.
I whispered, caressing his hair with affection, feeling a little uncomfortable when he raised quickly from the bed, looking at me, like waiting some kind of joke. I look down, completely ashamed and then he hugged me. I closed my eyes, just feeling that moment, smiling and hugging him with all of my love when he said that he was waiting for this moment his entire life.
— Sorry taking too long to realize this. I love you, Sam.
I apologized, taking off the golden ring of my leather jacket pocket, showing for him on the palm of my hand.
— Will you...?
— Yes.
He didn't even thought about it. I didn't even needed to finish that phrase. I just smiled and put the ring on his finger. He smiled back to me and looked at the ring.
— Your smile is so beutiful...
I whispered, ashamed. He touched my chin and looked right into my eyes before kissing me. I kissed him with a feeling so strong that I couldn't even control it. I finally knew. And suddenly all of my thoughts became clear. That was love.
And that was the first night that we slept together.