Hello All! This is my first Outlaw Queen fanfiction and my first M rated fanfic! Big day for me! Anyways, this story takes place after the heart-wrenching season finale. The idea wouldn't leave me alone, so I hope you all like it! Let me know what you think

Disclaimer: It ain't mine.

Chapter 1:

She thought she finally had it; her second chance. What a load of crap that was. She was the villain and villains don't get happy endings. Why she let herself think that way was idiotic. The "savior" could be damned to hell for all she cared. She had been fine before. All she needed was her son and she knew she'd be ok. Sure, she'd wondered occasionally what could have happened had she gone into that tavern, all those years ago, but that was useless. It didn't happen, so it was absolutely pointless to spend time pondering the "could have beens"; and Regina didn't have any use for frivolities.

Since Henry came into her life, she'd never really felt alone. She knew she'd always have him…until one day…she didn't. Words could not describe the emptiness she felt. And then a thief, at one of her darkest moments, helped her up…literally. She handled their first meeting like she usually would, with sarcasm and disdain. But, the truth was, she felt something different with him. For the first time, in a very long time, she felt like there may be something to have hope in. Little did she know, at the time, he was her hope.

Eventually, she allowed herself to be happy with him. She stupidly allowed herself to have hope; to believe she was capable of having a second chance at love…and then the unthinkable happened.

Regina had spent that last two weeks hauled up in her house. She rarely made an appearance in town for fear of the whispers that were taunting and haunting her. Sure, she'd dealt with cold glances and hurtful words before. But this was worse; this was pity…and she hated it. So, two weeks into her depressive state, she finally decided that this was enough. Sure, Robin had been her chance at true love, but if he didn't want her, then she didn't need him. It was time to get up, put on her highest heels and sexiest lipstick, and prove to the town that she did not need a man. Thus, with a final, determined breath, she put on her black trench coat, for it was unseasonably cold outside, and made her way out the door, head held high.

It took a couple days of her getting back into her routine, for the awkward glances to stop. Eventually people started to treat her normally and she was quite grateful for that. But, unfortunately, she did not think ahead when creating the unthinkably small town of Storybrooke. There were times where she'd be walking confidently through town, allowing nothing to bring her down, but one quick sighting of them would show her confidence for what it was…an act. She'd seen them a few times frolicking through town with Roland in tow. Roland would get excited and wave enthusiastically at her, shouting "Gina! Gina!". She couldn't allow herself to go up to him; it'd hurt too much. She'd politely throw up a hand at the boy she had allowed into her heart and smile, continuing on with her walk. Though, she did not miss the pointed glare that Marian aimed at her.

Now, it had been a month since the night her heart was ripped in two. Aside from the occasional sightings of the Locksley family, she was doing well. Robin kept to himself and his family, only offering a soft smile if their paths would cross, and she would do the same. However, that could only last for so long.

Regina was on the way to her office, one morning, when she bumped into a solid figure. She, admittedly hadn't been paying attention, allowing her mind to wander, so she thus, offered a polite apology to the figure, keeping her head cast down. And that's when she heard his voice. How she hadn't recognized his sent immediately, was surprising to her. Her apology faltered in her throat when her eyes met his crystal blue ones. He lightly grabbed her elbow, keeping her from making a quick getaway.

"Milady, may I speak to you?" Robin asked, his brow furrowing.

Regina sighed. She did not want to have this conversation right now. She had finally made a step in the right direction, but seeing him was bringing all of her previous feelings to the surface…fast. "Listen, Robin, we had a nice couple of days. I don't see why we have anything to talk about. Your Maid Marian is back from the dead. You should be with her…not spending time with me."

"Regina, you know that the time we spent together was more than just a nice few days." He paused, briefly, trying to collect his thoughts, as she bowed her head, trying not to show her true emotions. He brought his hand up to trace her cheek, bringing her chin up so that her eyes would reach his. What he saw there broke his heart. "Please, Regina. I know you're heading to your office, but can we just talk there. I promise I won't take up much of your time. I just…I just need to figure this out; because I don't think I can go on like this anymore."

Regina sighed and led him through the door, and up the stairs. No words were spoken as she nervously rustled with her keys and managed to open the door. "Ok…talk."

Robin sighed, watching her as she undid the buttons on her coat. She collapsed onto the loveseat closest to the door and stared up at him. She was closed off…cold. He did this to her. He knelt down in front of her, taking her hands in his. "Regina, I am so very sorry for the hurt of caused you. You entrusted me with your heart in multiple ways, and I have failed you. Please accept my apology and know that I never meant to hurt you."

Her eyes filled with unshed tears, "what does it matter? You have a wife Robin; one who is very much alive."

"But she doesn't make me feel alive…You, Milady, you are all I can think about. Every second I'm with her…"

"Don't." Regina stopped him. "Please, I can't take this. I don't want to hear about your time with her. This is too much…Robin, I thought that what we had was real. And there's a good chance that it might've been, but that was before. Miss Swan ruined any chance of this lasting." Regina's voice becoming cold, she stood, turning her body away from him and walked over to her desk. "You need to go to your wife. I'm the Evil Queen, remember. This thing between us…it just wasn't meant for me to have."

She barely heard him make his way toward her, but she certainly felt his presence. She registered the heat from his body on her back.

"If you'll remember correctly, I never quite understood the evil moniker…" He whispered, into her ear.

Let me know what you think!

For the record, this story does contain adultery. I do NOT condone adultery, in the slightest, but there is still a big outlaw queen fan part of me that doesn't care because that man is Regina's! Haha :) Anyways, please let me know what you think! I can't wait to hear from you!