It's been two months,one week,three days,eight hours,twelve minutes and forty five seconds,since Henry fell through a portal to god knows where,with his mother and grandfather,counting is the only thing I can do to keep myself sane,and it's stopped working.
Now I'm in the sheriffs station looking through a old book of spells I had taken from the shop belonging to Henry's other grandfather,hoping I can find a way to get Henry back.
I was reading a spell on turning people into toads when Henry's grandmother,Mary Margret,came rushing into the room with her six year old son Neal.
"You may want to hide" she says sitting Neal on the old black couch against the wall farthest from the door.
"What did Hook do"I ask thinking of Henry's stepfather.
"He is actually distracting someone you probably don't want to see"says Mary Margret getting Neal distracted with a colouring book and coming over to me.
"Oh god"I say getting up and running to the back room when I hear my mother's voice coming from the other room.
I had just shut the door when I hear two people walk into the room and I hear Hook start talking to Mary Margret,"This is Mrs Nolan,she knows everybody in this town,she'll tell you what you want to know".
"Hi call me Mary Margret,and you are"I hear her say.
"I'm Natalie Prescott,I'm here looking for my daughter Sarah I was wondering if you've seen her"I hear my mom say.
There's a pause and then I hear Mary Margaret start taking again,"I'm sorry,I haven't seen her"followed by another pause.
"Are you sure take another look"this comes from my mother,I imagine her pushing my photograph at Mary Margaret,not knowing I was hiding in the back room.
"This is a small town,your our first visitor in six years,but no one has moved here in well over eight years,I'm sorry"says Mary Margaret again.
But my mom being as stubborn as she is presses on"Are you sure,I mean maybe on the outskirts of town".
"Mrs Prescott if someone came to this town we would know about it"this comes from Hook and I wish that was true,but truth is a lot of people come to Storybrooke without us knowing,or how they got here for that matter.
"Alright well thanks for your time"says my mother as I hear her exit the room.
I wait thirty seconds just to be sure,then I open the door and step back into the room to find Mary Margaret and Hook staring at me.
"Well where'd you find her"I ask Hook after a few moments of awkwardness.
"Granny's,asking anyone who would listen is they knew you,they all denied it but she didn't believe them"says Hook flipping around a desk chair and sitting down.
"And she's not planning on leaving town any time soon"I say sitting back down in my chair and watch Neal colour for a second.
"Why don't you just talk to her,I mean could it be so bad"says Mary Margaret sitting down next to her son.
"Yes it can be that bad"I say putting my feet up on my desk being carful of the still open book.
"It's your choice,but if I was her I'd be glad for any form of communication from my daughter almost two years even if it was a lot of yelling"says Mary Margaret handing Neal a crayon.
"Can we talk about something else please"I say picking up the book and setting it on my knees.
"Sure,let's talk about getting everyone back,but should we do it with the child in the room"says Hook nodding to Neal.
"No we shouldn't,I'll leave you to it,come on sweetie"says Mary Margaret walking with Neal to the door.
"Bye Killian,Bye Sarah"says Neal waving at the door before disappearing through the door with his mother.
I smile,Neal looks a lot like Henry,Hook starts to talk the second they leave the room,"Did you find any thing in that dusty old book of yours".
"No,but if you want to turn someone in to a toad I'm your girl"I sat as Hook laughs for a second,since Emma's been gone he's barely slept,eaten or smiled,but this is a big step.
"I might take you up in that,so we have nothing"says Hook standing up and getting more coffee.
"No we know for a fact thanks to Gold that they are in the enchanted forest,and we know that as of three days ago they were alive,that's something"I say watching Hook polish off the pot I made a half an hour ago,Hook wasn't the only one not sleeping.
"That was three days ago Dashwood,they could be dead by now"says Hook drinking his coffee.
"We don't know that,we know them they won't give up with out a fight"I say standing up.
"Excuse me for being realistic"says Hook putting his cup down.
"Excuse me being positive and wanting my boyfriend back"I say slamming down the book.
"You think I don't want them back that's my wife and step son we're taking about"says Hook coming over to me,I'm wearing two inch heeled boots and he still has several inches on me.
"We want the same thing,so let's figure out a way to get them back,without killing each other first"I say going back to the book.
"Alright fine"says Hook going back across the room.
"There is nothing in this damn book that can help us"I say flipping through the rest of the pages and slamming the book down on the desk again.
"Alright now no need to freak out there Dashwood"says Hook brewing a new pot of coffee.
"You did"I say sitting down in my chair again.
"Yes,but I'm a pirate we're allowed to freak out"says Hook waiting for the pot to full.
"There is nothing here I'm going back to the shop to get another book"I say grabbing my leather jacket and heading for the door.
"And while your out pick up some more coffee"Hook calls after me.
I walk out of the sheriffs office,it's starting to rain,I walk as fast as I can alone for a few minutes until someone yells my name after me,"Sarah",I turn and look right at my mother.
I keep walking,I hear her yell my name again,this time when I turn,I stop and say,"How the hell did you find me".
"Your cellphone,I got ahold of your new number from the school,which you apparently dropped out off to come to this charming little town"says mom as the rain falls harder.
"Aren't you going to ask me why,and find out the very good reason I had for coming here"I say moving the book to my other arm.
"It doesn't matter what I say,you'll still be mad at me"says mom popping her umbrella.
"Damn straight"I say turning to go to the direction of Gold's shop.
"Sarah please wait"says mom and it causes me to turn again.
"I need to be somewhere,and I really don't like standing in the rain,so make it fast"I say moving the book to keep it dry.
"I just want the chance to make it up to you,for everything I did to you"says mom.
"I need to go"I say as the rain falls even harder.
"Alright,but know I'm not leaving until you talk to me"says mom as I walk away.
I reach Golds shop a few minutes later,completely soaked,I go in and Belle was holding her and Golds eight month old daughter Rose while talking on the phone behind the counter.
"Alright thanks Ashley"she says as she hangs up the phone and then notices me,"Sarah your soaked,"she says setting Rosie down in her bassinet next to the counter and comes over to me.
"Well it's raining and I needed to return this"I say handing her the book.
"Not a drop thank you,come in and take off those clothes I've get extras in the back"says Belle slipping the book back to the shelf and going into the back,coming out a few seconds later with dry clothes and then sends me into the back to change.
I come back out a few minutes later my wet clothes in a plastic bag and start looking through the many things on the shelf while Belle takes another phone call.
"So is it true there that someone came to town looking for you"ask Belle when she hangs up.
"Yep"I say taking a little figurine on the shelf and setting it back down.
"Would you like to talk to me about it"asks Belle picking Rosie up again.
"If I wanted to talk about it I would have with Mary Margaret"I say going back over to Belle.
"Well I guess that's true,so I suppose your here for another book"says Belle as Rosie plays with her mothers necklace.
"Yes please"I say looking in the glass cases,every time I come in here it never ceases to amaze me what Gold has gotten his hands on over the years.
"I don't know what you hope to find in these books,if there is something in here that could help us Rumple would have found it already"says Belle as she hands me Rosie and climbs the ladder behind the counter.
"I need to feel like I'm going something,and looking through these books,is something"I say.I watch Belle for a second and then turn my attention to Rosie.
She,like Neal,remind me of Henry,Neal has his sense of humour and Rosie has his eyes,at this moment them and Henry's younger sister Cosette are,all I have of him.
"Here you go"says Belle climbing down the ladder and places a book on the counter.
"Thank you,and here's your baby"I say handing her Rosie.
I take the book,my bag of wet clothes and say goodbye to Belle and leave the shop.
It's still raining but not as much,I start walking towards the store to get the coffee,when I see my mother walk in to the bed and breakfast.
She really wasn't kidding when she said she wasn't leaving.
I don't what I was worried about,When she catch's a glimpse of what Storybrooke is really like she won't be able to get out of town fast enough.