A/N: I do not own Grey's anatomy, it's characters or any of it's dialogue. Everything typed in italics is from the show, everything else is from my head.

So this is a completely different fic for me, not all chapters will be like this but I needed it to start out this way for it to get to the point where the story really starts to get full of angst. It will have more dialogue in the next chapter but this really was needed to get to that point.

"Thanks again Janet, so you'll be out here in a month baring any problems." Meredith bit her bottom lip as she waited for the response. "I will, I need to get Mom settled, then I will hopefully have time to find a place to live, unpack and sort." Meredith looked down at the list she held in her hand going over it mentally checking things off the list as complete as she listened to Janet on the other end of the line. "Yeah I know I have my Mom's place, I just can't do it. It hurts too much to live there. Look I need to run, I have some last minute packing to do here before you pick me up for the airport." Meredith sighed as she hung up the phone and got back to completing her list of chores to be done before she ran out of time.

Two weeks later

Meredith woke up sprawled face down on the couch, quite obviously lacking clothing. Finally noticing her surroundings she looked down and noticed the guy on the floor, grabbing the blanket off of him and dropping a cushion on his gloriously naked butt she winced as he stirred before she could make headway up the stairs.

"This is….uh…" Meredith stopped the man from speaking before he could say anymore.

"…humiliating on so many levels. You have to go." Meredith stands beside him grabbing the bra that he dangled from his fingers.

The man looked up at her with desire and interest to continue what started the night before. "Why, why don't you just come back down here and we'll pick up where we left off."

Meredith looked down at him as she moved towards the stairs quite obviously embarrassed by the situation. "No seriously you have to go. I'm late which isn't what you want to be on your first day of work, so…"

"So, ah, you actually live here?" he said as he stood up and started to dress.

Meredith, "No."

Looking up in confusion he said "oh" before returning to pull up his pants.

Meredith retracting what she said before, "Yes, Kind of."

He looked at her again in confusion but then spoke with a twinge of hilarity in his voice. "Oh. It's nice. A little dusty. Odd. But it's nice. Huh. So how do you kinda live here?"

Meredith bit on her bottom lip. "I moved 2 weeks ago from Boston. It was my mother's house. I'm selling it."

He looked at her with a sad expression on his face. "Oh I'm sorry."

Meredith looked at him with questioning eyes. "For what?"

"You said was." He pointed out.

In a nervous manner with her free hand waving around, "Oh my mother's not dead. She's … you know what? We don't have to do the thing."

"Oh. We can do anything you want." He smirked at Meredith hoping they could go back to what they had started the night before.

Meredith looked at him like he was an idiot not getting the hint that she really didn't want to know anything about him nor did she want him to know about her. "No the thing. Exchange the details, pretend we care. Look I'm going to go upstairs and take a shower. Okay and when I get back down here, you won't be here. So … um … goodbye … uh …"

"Derek." Derek said this as he jumped over the back of the couch holding out his hand to Meredith for her to shake.

Meredith giggled as she tightened her grip on the blanket that covered herself up. "Derek. Right, Meredith."

Derek, smiling at her, "Meredith."

Meredith returning the smile "Yeah. Mmm hmm."

Derek laughed lightly as she politely kicked him out of her weird collection of mess that consisted of her home. Glancing from the fishing pole in the corner to the toilet scrub brush leaning against the picture on the fireplace. Laughing to himself at all the post it notes stuck on the different items. "Nice meeting you."

Meredith turned and ran up the stairs calling over her shoulder. "Bye Derek."

When Meredith was informed that the new attending would be taking over the case she was working on she was stunned to find out that her one night stand would be in her life for an indefinite time period. "Oh god" she groaned as she ran from the room Derek hot on her heels.

Derek grabbed Meredith by the arm dragging her into an empty stairwell. "Dr. Shepherd." Meredith stated with a firm voice as she looked around the stairwell, checking both the floors below and above them.

"Dr. Shepherd, this morning it was Derek, now its Dr. Shepherd." Derek looked at her in a way that was way too familiar.

In a voice full of shock "Dr. Shepherd we should pretend it never happened." Meredith replied.

Smirking Derek responded, "What never happened? You sleeping with me last night? Or you throwing me out this morning." Smiling widely. "Because both are fond memories I'd like to hold onto."

Frustration and anger tainting her voice, "No. There will be no memories. I'm not the girl in the bar anymore and you're not the guy." Glaring again at Derek's smiling face. "This can't exist. You get that, right?"

Nodding his head before speaking. "You took advantage of me and now you want to forget about it."

Gasping at Derek's statement, "I did not take …" Interrupting Meredith, Derek states "I was drunk, vulnerable and good looking and you took advantage."

Smiling at his disillusion, "okay I was the one who was drunk and you are not that good looking."

"Maybe not today. Last night? Last night I was very good looking. I had my red shirt on. My good-looking shirt. You took advantage." Derek smiled at her as he looked at her flustered features.

Meredith totally aghast, "I did not take advantage."

"Want to take advantage again? Say Friday night?" Smiling as he asked her out on a date.

Shocked Meredith looked at him like he'd lost some brain cells. "No. You're an attending and I'm your intern." Derek gave her a smile as he leaned in to kiss her. "Stop looking at me like that!"

Derek paused in his lean, "like what?"

Exasperation lacing her tone of voice Meredith replied "like you've seen me naked." Seeing that he's now smirking at her statement. "Dr. Shepherd! This is inappropriate." Derek looks at her with confusion but she continues to speak. "Has that ever occurred to you?"

Derek sighed as Meredith left him staring at her back as she bolted from the stairwell.

Meredith ran down the hall still not believing her misfortune of having a one-night stand with her boss. Yes she's had a few over the years but never one to come out as awkward as this one. She is mortified but at the same time needs to talk to Janet. Pulling out her cell phone she dialed the numbers she had long ago memorized listening as the phone rang and waited for it to be picked up. Finally leaving a brief message for Janet to call her back when she could talk to all three of them she hung up and returned to Katie Bryce's room just as Derek, err um, Dr. Shepherd, she needed to remember that, anyway just as he was finishing up explaining what was going on with Katie to her parents. As he left the room he passed the chart to Meredith telling her she needed to keep an eye on Katie.

Meredith's shift continued to leave her running around, running off to Katie's room as she received two 911 pages, the first one being a false alarm while the second one left Meredith questioning her decision to become a doctor and running for the nearest exit as the food in her stomach leapt towards her throat wasting no time to find the quickest route out of her. Her shift ended in a high though with Meredith having scrubbed in on the surgery to fix the bleeding in Katie Bryce's brain. Just after Derek walked off to let the Bryce's know that the surgery was a success Meredith's phone rang in her pocket. Pulling it out she smiled as she saw the caller ID.

"Hi Janet, how's it going?… Oh no, is she all right? How'd she break her leg?… Oh wow give her a hug from me. No I totally agree you need to stay there for the next month, do you what you need, call Jeffery if you need to… okay look I need to run but next time we talk I'll talk to them, yeah don't wake anyone up if they're sleeping. Okay Give them all a hug for me… Bye." Meredith hung up the phone and rubbed a hand over the back of her neck before she stood up from the chair she'd been slouched in and headed towards the locker room. Knowing that she needed to put in a quick visit with her mom who was having issues settling into the nursing home Meredith quickly changed into her street clothes before stuffing her scrubs into her bag and grabbing out her stuff to go home.