"How can one man be so bloody stubborn!"
Nymphadora Tonks screamed to herself as she flopped down on her bed ignoring the mismatched pillows that fell to the floor in the process. She had just trudged through the door of her little flat just outside of the crowed London strip, she had been at Grimmauld Place all afternoon with her cousin and his best mate Remus Lupin, the one man that she was talking about, just talking after a particularly long Order meeting sharing a bottle of pixie-wine, her favorite, and without even thinking she let herself have a bit more than she knew it would take to build up her courage and if all else failed she could come round the next meeting and apologize saying she was drunk.
But that was not the case nor how it happened at all! It happened more along the lines of her having one sip to many and when Sirius left the room for a moment to feed Buckbeak she let her feels burst from her mouth without time to give her the excuse to be drunk, they had hardly opened the bottle of wine, her words hung thickly in the silence as her face flushed and her mind screamed RUN IDEOT but she couldn't move as she looked at the older werewolf before her.
Remus didn't meet her eyes but rather kept his on his half full glass of pale pink wine running his finger one around the rim before he took a breath and looked at her his blue eyes boring into her soul and piercing her heart like daggers as it beat wildly.
"Nymphadora-"
"Don't call me that! Please..."
She was surprised how her voice became small and her face flushed deeper.
"Tonks...I've told you before and I'll say it again, I am too old, too poor but above all I'm too dangerous...you deserve someone younger, someone who can give you what you want in life, someone who isn't a danger to you..."
Dora felt her cheeks redder again but not of embarrassment but in anger, it wasn't the first time he had used these three things against her and it wasn't the first time she had tried to make him understand she couldn't care less.
She opened her mouth to counter but about that time Sirius came back and she closed her mouth trying to act like she didn't want to knock some sense into the man sitting across from her but every now and again when Sirius was distracted he'd steal a glance at her but look away when he met her grey eyes.
Finally after half of the wine was gone she decided it was time to go fearing that if she had any more she'd start picking arguments she didn't want to happen. She got to her feet and said her good-byes before walking to the door only to stumble as her head became slightly foggy by the wine, she somehow managed not to fall and when she looked it was because of the rough and page worn yet gentle hand that was wrapped around her forearm. She fallowed the faded jumper covered arm to the scared but young face for Remus making her heart skip a beat then whirl into overdrive.
She straitened up and cleared her throat as he slowly released her arm.
"Um thanks."
She didn't wait for him to answer before leaving the house and now here she sat her face buried in her patched quilt hating the world when there was a tap on her window. She aromatically got to her feet wand drawn but relaxed seeing the little black owl on the window sill. She opened the window and took the letter from its beak before moving and pointing to the tray of owl treats and water on the small table.
After the owl flew to the table and began eating she sat down on the bed to open the letter looking over the neat writing with a confused look. The words 'We need to talk, away from Sirius and the others.' Were written in an almost calligraphic way. Moments later there was a knock on the door down stairs making her set the note down and carefully make her way down the stairs and to the door and drawn as she opened it enough to peek out but the person outside was not who she was expecting to see even though she had no clue who to expect.
sorry abouth the length of this chapter it's a bit of a water tester and I wanted to cut it off before I got to far into it, please reveiw and thank you all!