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The sun shone on the window. It was a bright sunny, May day. It was hard to believe it was sunny in the small, rainy town of Forks, Washington. And instead of being outside like most normal teenagers, I was inside writing in my journal. I would normally be out with my best friend right about now, but she was busy with her family and I was alone again. I could hear the voices of my parents from downstairs but I couldn't go down and join them. I was all alone in this huge world. Waiting for something to come along and make my days better. I mean I did have my best friend and my journal but that wasn't enough. I wanted someone else. Someone different, who will change my world. I rested my chin on my knee and sighed. It was amazing how a person can feel alone while being surrounded by other people.

Dear Diary,

I'm alone again. It doesn't seem like a big deal, it happens everyday. But that doesn't make it better. It should have. I've had 18 years to get used to being alone. Sometimes I wonder if I will always be alone. Maybe forever will make me get used to being alone. I guess not. At least, at school I have my best friend. But then there's Rosalie, my arch nemesis. I don't know what I did to make her hate me, but she does. A lot. Although I do have Jacob. He's in my class this year and yesterday he even asked if he can sit next to me in history. But I had to go and ruin it by stuttering and acting like an idiot. He must think I'm insane. But better late then never, I did talk to him though. I am happy that we are making some progress in our relationship. Well it's not really a relationship but it's something. I can't have a relationship with him until he breaks up with his girlfriend, Rosalie. Maybe, that's why she hates me.

The weather is turning bad now. In the morning it was good. It's like my life. Good at first and horrible now. Well more later, I have to go down and eat now.

I closed my journal and hid it behind one of the pillows on the window seat. I didn't want anyone—namely my Mom—finding it and start wondering about my obsession with Jacob Black. There was something about him that drew me in. Something so mysterious. I felt like if I touched him he would disappear. It made my crush on him so much more… intoxicating. But it isn't very likely he was going to date me. Rosalie Hale was the head cheerleader, therefore she was perfect. She had perfect blonde hair and a perfect body and every guy wanted her. What made her so much better than the rest us?

I pulled down my t-shirt and went downstairs. I would really like to spend the day in my room but I had to come down to eat. It was required for survival. My parents were in the kitchen silently eating. It was the silence that followed a rough argument or worse, a fight. Looking on the bright side, my parents loved each other, they just had arguments. I got a bowl, poured myself some milk, got the cereal box and sat down at the table.

"What are you doing today, sweetie?" My mom asked. My mom is Renee Swan. She is really eccentric and a wonderful mother but sometimes I felt like she was smothering me. She always questions everything I do. I mean come on; it's not very likely I'm going to do something she doesn't approve of. And what was with the small talk? I'm not trying to push her away from me but I don't want small talk. It makes me think she's forcing herself to talk to me. I'm her daughter, can't she have normal conversation with me.

"Um… nothing. Alice has a thing with her family, so I'm going to stay in all day," I mumbled. Alice was my best friend and normally I would spend the whole weekend with her but she was busy today. Although, she was taking me shopping tomorrow for new clothes; Alice loved shopping. I think if I begged long enough she would let me off the hook. Shopping tired me beyond belief.

"What about tomorrow?" Renee asked.

"Tomorrow she's taking me shopping," I said, chewing on my cereal.

"That's nice. What are you going to buy?" Mom asked getting excited. I smiled slightly, my mother loved shopping. Renee plus Alice equalled my worst nightmare. But before I could reply my dad spoke up.

"Renee, leave Bella alone. She's old enough to decide what she wants to wear." My father is Charlie Swan. He loves me and my mom, but he never speaks up. That's what I loved about him. He doesn't think it's necessary to make small talk. I'm like him in so many ways. I would rather spend the day holed up in my room not talking to anyone than be here. I smiled at him, as a thank you. He was always there to defend me. My mother sighed and got up to put away her breakfast dishes.

"Do you think she'll be fine, having me as her daughter?" I asked my dad.

"Don't worry, she's gotten this far." He got up too, and patted me on the back. Then he too left and I was alone in the kitchen.

That was quick. It seemed to me that I emptied a room just by being in it. Maybe they couldn't stand to see my loneliness, but no one ever said anything. Oh well, might as well get over it. It's a long way before this life will be over. A long way before I will no longer be lonely. It has never occurred to me that I should end my life. However it is I like it. I don't want to die, I just don't want to lonely. I don't even know why I am this way. At least now I had someone to share my loneliness with. My best friend. Alice and I met in 5th grade and have been best friends ever since. She was just as lonely as me but she never let it show. She's happy as long she has me and her shopping. I sometimes wondered if I can be that happy just as easily. Never the less, loneliness doesn't go away easily, you have to drive it out and I was just too tired.

I got up from the chair and walked over to the sink. I rinsed my dishes, dried them and went upstairs to my room. I sat down on the bed thinking what I should do now. I have nothing to do and a very long day ahead of me. I tried reading a book but my mind kept drifting off to dreams of Jacob and me together. I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I knew I was dreaming.

I didn't know where I was, because I had never seen this place before but it was beautiful. I fell in love with it immediately. It was some sort of a meadow, and it was filled with flowers of all kind. A light breeze was blowing, making my hair stir gently. I could hear the rush of water nearby. I looked around and noticed that I wasn't alone in the meadow. There was someone there with me. A guy. He turned and I realized it was Jacob. I smiled and started walking towards him. When I was close enough, I looked up into his brown eyes but they weren't brown anymore. They were a striking color of green. The eyes were so vivid and so… lonely, I felt my heart clench. Pain seared my heart like fire. I took in this stranger. The guy was not a lot older than me, and had copper coloured hair. He wasn't smiling but looking down at me with astonishment, like he was surprised to see me here. Hello, it was my dream. I should be the one surprised to see him, but I felt a strange calm in his presence. Like I had been empty before I had met him and now I was full. It was like he had a gravitational pull; I couldn't walk away from him. I opened my mouth to say something to this handsome, mysterious stranger but I didn't know what to say. He seemed confused too, unable to speak.

"Bella, Bella, wake up."

I heard a squeaky voice and opened my eyes to see a pixie sitting on my bed beside me. I was thankful that Alice was finally here but angry that she had ruined my dream of the mysterious stranger. I felt empty now; I wanted to go back to my dream.

"Finally, I thought you wouldn't wake up. I decided to come over since my extended family decided it doesn't matter if I'm there or not. My dad was a bit anxious to let me go but I told him I'll be fine," Alice said in that same high pitched voice of hers. Alice Brandon is my best friend. She's 4"10' and has black pixie cut hair surrounding her like a halo. She lives with her dad because her mom left when Alice was a baby and no one knows where she is now. The great thing about Alice is she has never let that affect her.

"Ali, you woke me up, I was having an amazing dream," I replied groggily. I sat up in bed and adjusted my eyes. It was darker outside now than it had been when I went to sleep. The light in my room had shifted. What time was it? I looked at the clock and realized it was almost dinner time.

"Oh! Was it about Jacob?" Alice asked clapping her hands and jumping up and down on the bed. Alice is always excited.

"At first, yes. But then there was this guy there who I don't even know and I have no idea why I was dreaming about him. But when I was there, in the dream, I felt great being next to him. I didn't feel alone anymore," I explained to Alice, who listened with rapt attention.

"Was he cute?" Alice asked after a moment.

"Alice!" I chided. Here I was telling her about a dream and she was wondering if the guy was cute. Well, I don't blame her. She doesn't have a boyfriend and like me had a crush on a guy who already had a girlfriend.

"What? It's a reasonable question," Alice said innocently. I just shook my head.

"Why are you here? Don't get me wrong, I'm glad you are, but I thought you won't be free until tomorrow," I said to her as I got up from the bed and stretched.

"Are you kidding me? If my dad would have forced to spend the night with the whole family I would have gone crazy. So I invited myself over for a sleepover." Alice lay down on the bed and propped her head on her hand.

"Great, I don't want to be alone anymore. Please tell you bought some food with you, I don't want to go downstairs," I begged.

"Sorry, no food, but I bought my car, so we can go out and eat." Alice jumped off the bed and ran downstairs. She didn't need to ask me if I would like to eat outside, she knew I will. I checked myself in the mirror and grabbed my wallet. Who cares how I looked? Nobody was going to be watching me anyways.

I ran downstairs and out the door. Alice would have told my parents where we where going. They wouldn't have an objection, since me and Alice ate outside a lot. It was fun eating dinner just the two of us, away from our parents. I got in the passenger seat and Alice started the car.

"Please drive slowly," I begged again. Alice only laughed. Who was I kidding? Alice was incapable of driving slow. It was one of the reasons why we never took my rusty old truck wherever we were going. She hated my truck, apparently it was too slow.

I always tell Alice if her dream to be a fashion designer doesn't work out she can be a race car driver. She'll make a lot of money and she'll be popular with the guys. We drove around for a while looking for someplace to eat. Half of them were dismissed because we didn't like them, the other half because it was the 'most likely' hangout of people from school and we didn't want that. So we went to a secluded pizza parlour. Pizza is one food we never say no too. We got out of the car and walked inside. It was mostly empty except a couple of college guys and we wouldn't be getting any trouble for them, so we found our favourite spot and went to sit there. It was Alice's turn to order so I just sat at the booth and looked out the window.

It was a beautiful night outside. The moon was full and the stars were shining brightly. It was really humid outside and I wished it would rain already. The streets were empty except a couple of people out and about on a Saturday night. I saw a couple of guys from school walk by and quickly turned my head. I was so not in the mood of being asked out by a bunch of nerdy looking guys. After they left and I was sure they wouldn't come back, I looked out the window again. I saw a shiny, silver car drive up to the parlour and park. I had never seen this car before. Forks was a small town, so everybody knew everybody's business.

As I watched silently and waited for the owner to get out I got a warm fuzzy feeling in my stomach. I just passed it away as excitement to see someone new in a town this small. Finally, the drivers' side door opened and out stepped... no way.

AN: Hope you enjoy the new story. Lots of love