AN: Hey everyone this is my first Fanfiction ever and I'll hope you'll enjoy it. English is not my first language so please excuse the grammar and spelling mistakes that you'll definitely find in there. This story takes place a few days after Alec kissed Magnus in the hall of accords and is completely made up from there. Also, Valentine is not beaten yet and still on the loose. All characters belong to Cassandra Claire, I own nothing. So have fun!

By the way, reviews and any ideas of improvement are highly appreciated :)

Chapter 1

How can this love be wrong?

There were a thousands directions this could have taken, and this isn't one.

Can't be one.

Alec is tripping over his own feet, his thoughts a mess because its over, his timer had been down to he last minutes and he still hadn't figured out how to escape this situation.

How to escape this nightmare.

His worst fear has come true.

Magnus, his one and only love, was going to suffer badly and all because of him.

There was no way he could possibly stop that.

His breath quickened as his emotions overcame him and he didn't even register the tears that have started to freely stream down his cheeks. His whole body jerked violently with uncontrolled sobs as he collapsed against the cold brick wall and slowly slid down to the floor. Alec could see the world in front of him getting blurry before everything went dark and he passed out.

Relieved, he welcomed the state of unconsciousness that would finally allow him to not feel the sharp pain of his aching heart anymore as well as his memories that are constantly haunting him.

Even if it was just for a while.

The morning sun is shining brightly through the curtains and covers the bedroom in a soft shade of red. Alec blinks a few times and lets his eyes adjust to the sudden brightness that has woken him up from a good night of sleep. His eyes automatically focusing on the man, sleeping peacefully next to him. His caramel colored skin seems to sparkle under the sunlight and Alec can't help himself but admire his boyfriends perfectly toned torso. As if sensing Alecs gaze, Magnus suddenly turns around and snuggles into the crook of Alecs neck, inhaling his sent. His defined abs now full on display, Alec can't resist the urge to touch this perfect man in front of him and absently starts to draw patterns on Magnus stomach, slowly following the firm muscles underneath smooth skin, his touch light as a feather. Soon he can hear Magnus mumble something under his breath and feel soft lips brushing against his neck. He instinctively bows down his head and is greeted with the sight of Magnus sleepily opening his golden cat-like eyes. Like every time when Magnus drops his glamour of human brown eyes to reveal his real ones that are marking him as a warlock, Alec can feel his heart miss a beat, getting lost completely in the depth of the sparkling gold. Contrary to what every one else seems to see, he just can't find anything demonic in them. It doesn't matter how hard he tries, for him, those eyes are simply beautiful.

Only Magnus low voice snaps him back into reality. "What are thinking about, darling?", he asks quietly, making Alecs skin tickle as he can feel Magnus breath against his neck.

"Oh nothing… I'm just thinking how beautiful you are." Alec sputters out without thinking and already regrets his honesty as he can feel the familiar red blush appearing on his cheeks. But Magnus eyes grow wide at the unexpected compliment and seconds later his lips are gently brushing against Alecs, making him forget every embarrassment he might have felt before.

"I could get used to waking up like this" Magnus whispers against his lips, just slightly pulling away.

"Yeah, me too.", answers Alec, already pulling Magnus back in for another kiss, both men smiling against each others lips. This time the kiss gets more heated and intense with every passing second and their lips colliding with more force each time. Magnus rolls over so that his body is now hovering over Alecs as he holds his weight on his elbows, palms flat out at either side of Alecs head. Their bodies are less than two inches apart and Alec can feel the heat radiating off of Magnus body, suddenly very aware that Magnus is still shirtless and only dressed in his silk underwear. With the sudden desire to be even closer to the man above him, Alec grabs Magnus hips and pulls him down so that Magnus weight is pressing flush against him, enveloping him in warmth. A satisfied moan escapes Alecs lips as their bare chest finally collide together. Feeling encouraged by this, Magnus nibbles at Alecs lower lip, asking for entrance that the shadowhunter gladly allows. His lips part and Magnus tongue enters his mouth, exploring every dark corner of it and every time their tongues brushes, Alec feels a shock running through his body. All thought left Alecs mind as he completely melted into the kiss.

There was nothing else in the world at that moment, only Magnus and Alec, kissing almost desperately.

As Magnus runs his hands along Alecs sides, he bows his back slightly, running his fingertips lazily along Magnus spine, making him shiver under his touch. They continued kissing passionately for a few minutes until they have to pull away reluctantly in order to regain their breaths again. However Magnus still doesn't remove his lips from Alecs skin, instead he starts kissing along the line of Alec jaw to his pulse point, sucking and nibbling slightly on it and making Alec moan in pleasure once again. His Hands finding its way in Magnus hair and slightly tugging on it. Pleased at Alecs move he murmured his approval against Alecs neck, causing another vibration that makes him tugging on Magnus hair even harder, earning a muffled moan from the older man above. Just as Magnus is about to continue his way down Alecs chest, outlining his parabatei rune with his tongue, a piercing sound fills the bedroom, making both men groan in disapproval.

"I swear that better be important or I'll kill someone." Magnus grumpily complains as he rolls down from Alec to reach his phone from the bedside table. Alec can't help but chuckle quietly at the warlocks obviously mood swing and earns a playful glare from Magnus who has now reached his phone.

"Who dares to disturb the high warlock of Brooklyn?!" he demands, his voice filled with faked annoyance, that once again makes the shadowhunter laugh quietly beside him. But as soon as he recognizes the voice at the other end of the line, his mood drops instantly. It's Izzy.

Since he had kissed Magnus in front of everyone in the Hall of Accords and therefore outed himself as gay he gave his best to avoid every contact to the institute, including his siblings. He doesn't even know why he is acting this way. Jace and Izzy knew that he was dating Magnus anyway, even encouraged him to do so. It's just the fact that they keep trying to get him to talk to his parents, which he just can't stand to do. He felt so happy and relived after he kissed Magnus and everything was finally out in the open, but as soon he looked into the shocked and even disgusted faces of his parents and other shadowhunters around him, he knew that he would never be accepted completely. Not even by his own parents.

And even tough he doesn't want to admit it, this realization just broke his heart.

That's why he was hiding his feelings and his relationship with Magnus in the first place. So he could pretend that everything was alright. That he would still have a future as a Shadowhunter. He knew that him being in love with another man, a warlock with that, would not be easily accepted without consequences by the clave and the shadowhunter society.

Being gay was seen as wrong, disgusting and overall sinful.

But Alec was determined not to let these outworn and homophobic agendas influence his relationship. He doesn't ever want to feel ashamed of his feelings again, even more ashamed for Magnus. This nearly ended their relationship when they started dating and Alec was still in the closet.

He can't do this to Magnus again. He can't loose him.

And he is just afraid that facing his parents, not even mentioning the clave, will bring back those feelings and will make him want to hide himself and his feelings again. Hiding his love for Magnus. That's why he has been staying at Magnus loft the last days, living in his own bubble of happiness.

But apparently it's time to step out and face the truth. Beginning with facing his parents.

The time Magnus started talking to Izzy, trying to explain to her that Alec doesn't want to go back to the institute, he recognizes Alecs body going tense, no evidence left of how relaxed he had been just a couple of seconds ago. He hardly resists the urge to just hang up the phone and kissing his shadowhunter all over again to see him smiling and chuckling again like he had before. He just wants Alec to be happy.

He can tell that the boy is no longer listening to him and Isabelle talking, too occupied with his own thoughts. Intertwining his fingers with Alecs' he tries to silently comfort his boyfriend and is surprised when Alec seems to focus again.

"Tell Izzy I'm going to come over to the institute today." he announces, his voice barely audible. Magnus just tightens his hold on Alecs' hand and nods before he quickly ends the phone call, leaving a confused Isabelle behind.

"Alexander…" Magnus starts, his voice filled with concern, "Are you sure about this? You don't have to…."

"Yes I do, Magnus." Alec interrupts his boyfriend, his voice more audible and strong this time "Shadowhunting is my life, you know that. And I just need to know if I still have a future in the New York institute. So I need to talk to parents at least. I can't avoid them forever. Even if I wanted to." Alec finishes quietly, avoiding Magnus pitiful gaze.

"You are an excellent fighter, brave and smart." Magnus gives him a reassurance smile, trying desperately to take away the boys fear of being rejected by the ones he loved. "They will come around eventually. Never underestimate a parents' love, darling." He finishes, praying to whoever is listening that he is right.

He knows from experience, that sometimes a Mothers or fathers love to their child is just not strong enough. That sometimes there is just no unconditional love.

Alecs relationship to his parents, especially to Robert, has always been tense, but Magnus still hoped the best for his shadowhunter because you could certainly tell that family meant everything to him.

And Magnus really doesn't want him to loose this.

Because of him.

Because he was in love with this adorable blue eyed man, who for a wonder, loved him back and told the world about it.

A sudden sorrow overcame Magnus as he started to wonder if all this trouble he had caused was worth it. If he was worth Alec risking so much.

"Thank you Magnus." Alec's soft voice interrupting his dark thoughts "I love you". A wide smile immediately spread out over Magnus face, as he he gently reached out to caress Alec blushing cheeks. He still wasn't used to Alec's open love confessions.

"I love you too, Alexander" Magnus responds, locking his eyes with Alec's and resting his forehead against his. They stay like this a couple of minutes longer, just enjoying each others company. Alec is the first one breaking apart, taking a deep breath before untangling his fingers from Magnus' and standing up.

"I really should get going if I don't want to miss out on Mom and Dad. They are usually heading to Idris in the afternoon for Clave business" he sighs while putting on his black faded jeans.

When he turns around to grab his favourite sweater he notices Magnus staring at him, his eyes following every movement of Alec's body. With a sudden boost of confidence, he starts to stretch his limps, lifting his arms above his head, his fingertips touching. By then Magnus mouth is slightly open and his unglamoured eyes seem to be a few shades darker than they were before.

Only when Magnus sees an amused smirk appearing on Alec's face he snaps back into reality, finally able to free his eyes from the pale, rune covered skin of his boyfriends torso.

"You better stop teasing me darling." Magnus says with a mischievous grin, "or you might not be able to get this sexy body of yours out of this bedroom today." he finishes with a wink, leaving a furiously blushing Alec to put on his ratty black sweater.

Getting dressed with a snap of his finger himself, Magnus stands up watching Alec putting on his combat boots.

"Alec, do you want me to come with you to meet your parents?" he asks, not really looking forward to go to a place, he knows he is not welcomed in at all, but determined to support his boyfriend if he wants him to be there.

"No." Alec slowly shakes his head "I need to go there alone to do this by myself. Bringing you with me would just make things more complicated. I just don't think it would help the situation to show up at the institute, a place full with prejudiced clave members, with … with a-."

-With a downworlder,

Magnus thinks to himself, but instead offers "with your magnificent warlock boyfriend?" in an attempt to lighten mood, ignoring the numb feeling spreading out in his chest at the thought of what Alec was just about to call him.

"Yes." Alec admits, noticing the hurt expression crossing Magnus face. "Magnus…" Alec starts pleadingly as he steps closer to Magnus, closing the distance between them.

"This is has nothing to do with my feelings for you, ok? I would love to have you by my side, but as I just said it would make things even worse. And not because I don't want to be seen with you or because I want to deny our relationship again, but because of the reactions of all these homophobic and racist people there that will definitely follow. I know how most of them they see the downworld or their feeling towards me liking a man and it's okay. It's okay when they let me know just how much of a disgrace they see in me and when they show me how much they detest me, but I can't stand there listening to them talking bad about you or our relationship and calling you…. names. I just can't loose myself at the institute and endanger everything that I have left there." He finishes, his last sentences nothing more than a whisper.

It barely ever happens that Alec talks so honestly about his feelings, but when does it's the purest thing Magnus has ever heard. He automatically feels bad for underestimating this good-natured soul in front of him that would to everything to protect the ones he loved.

And Magnus was one of them now.

Alec would never reduce him to just being a downworlder.

Looking into Alecs blue eyes that are begging him to understand, he takes Alecs face in his, the shadowhunter leaning slightly into the touch and kisses him gently on his forehead.

"Oh Alexander." Magnus whispers against Alec's smooth skin, before gently lifting his head forcing him too look into his eyes.

"You are so much more than you think of yourself. You are perfect, -"

"No you are not gonna make me flush again, Magnus!" Alec playfully protest, visibly relaxing.

"Hm but I really do love that beautiful blush of yours..." Magnus complains, his hands sliding down to get hold of Alecs upper arms.

"Just promise me not to believe a word of what these bigoted shadowhunter are saying, alright? I know they can be cruel, even to their own kind…" Magnus drifts off, once again being reminded of a young shadowhunter he met centuries ago.

After all this time he still can hear the boys muffled screams, sounding like the screams of a soul in hell or a soul being ripped apart from heaven. And that's exactly what had happened. This was the claves punishment for disobeying their rules.

That's what happened to Edmund Herondale.

He got disowned and stripped off his marks, simply for being in love with the wrong person. For loving a mundane.

Yes, Magnus is aware that the time has changed and being gay nowadays isn't against the law, but that doesn't stop him from worrying about Alec. He experienced first hand to what some clave members are capable of.

Before Alec gets to question his statement, Magnus continues speaking.

"Call me if things are getting bad, will you? Just one call Alexander and I'll open a portal for you to get back."

"I promise." Alec says, looking in the warlocks concerned eyes.

"And I will call as soon as I want to leave the institute" he continues, kissing his now smiling boyfriend goodbye.

"And Magnus..." he turns around, one hand already placed on the doorknob "Thank you."

With this the shadowhunter leaves the apartment, hurrying down the stairs to the front door before he has an another chance to think about were he is going and get a chance to chicken out.