I feel so tied down and restricted these days; like I truly have no other life except the one that revolves around Edward Cullen… These past couple of weeks since Edward has come back from Italy; he has been super controlling. Everyday, he would say where I can and can't go, do and can't do. I wanted a boyfriend not a second dad. My relationship with Jacob Black has increased, and with Edward constantly holding me back, and his prejudice views, there is absolutely no way I can see him. So I had to do what must be done, I had to break up with Edward Cullen. I thought he was my soul mate, I thought I wanted to give up my soul just to be with him for all eternity. But I just can't, I love him I honestly do but I can't be held back from life. So I had to go the one place I knew where Edward couldn't come stalking into my window…The Quileute Reservation.
All during the day, before Edward had come over for his daily visit –until nine o'clock—I had spent the entire day making arrangements. I begged Charlie to let me go spend a few days down with Jacob, and luckily despite my being grounded I got to go. Jacob loved the idea; he was absolutely thrilled, he told me "I am so glad you're finally ditching that disgusting leech." The way he had said disgusting really did sound acidic.
Jacob was picking me up at 10:30 sharp in his 1986 Volkswagen Rabbit. For some odd reason, I was super eager for him to get here. I could finally be myself, with people that were just as stupid and reckless as I wanted to be. –
The clock struck 10:20; I stood with my back facing the sink, with my messenger bag slung across me. "Really this eager to leave bells?" Charlie had asked puzzled at my anticipation to leave. "You have no idea," I had mumbled not wanting to upset him. Making Charlie think I was leaving to get away from him and cooking was the last thing I wanted to do.
I kept glancing at the clock when it hit me, I had written a note for Edward and it was still tightly gripped in my hand. It was now 10:25 almost time for my savior to arrive. I quickly ran up the stairs and flew into my room. I sat the note onto my nightstand, and opened the window. I had memorized word for word the note had said:
Dearest Edward,
I am terrible sorry that this conversation couldn't be face to face. If it were I don't think I could have done it. I am leaving; I need freedom which is something you are not allowing me to have. I feel too trapped with you. You wanted me to have a normal life, here is my chance. Just please for me; DO NOT go to the Volturi. Think of Esme, Carlisle, and the rest of your family. I hope that one day maybe this can all be sorted out but for now, I need to be away and alone.
I am truly sorry,
Bella
As I stood there remembering the words on the paper I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. I can't believe I am being so heartless to him. Before more pain could sink in I heard three loud knocks on the door. I wiped away the tears that had now filled my eyes, and headed back down the stairs. Before I got to the staircase I could hear Charlie and Jacob talking. "Thanks for letting us do this." Jacob has said the excitement in his voice was very, very noticeable. "No problem, just remember Jacob you are welcome here whenever you want to come over. Just please make sure you to don't get into anything dangerous."
Before Jacob could say anything further I began to walk down the stairs. Jacob had a huge grin on his face, and I couldn't help but to smile also. "All set Bella?" He asked me with a child-like voice. This was the Jacob I loved, not the serious angry Jacob, but the child-like happy-go-lucky Jacob. "Yeah, I think so." I stated as I continued my descent down the stairs.
As I walked outside to the Rabbit, Charlie waved good-bye and I threw my bag into the back seat. Jacob quickly hopped into the driver's seat making the car sink lower to the ground. – The beginning of the ride we were both silent, I just sat there off in my own little world, not realizing I was staring at Jacob's russet colored skin. He has grown so much lately, instead of the body of a sixteen year old, it was more like that of an adult body builder.
"So what makes you want to leave that bloodsucker?" Jacob had randomly spoken making me jump slightly. I wrapped my arms around my waste and closed my eyes. "I…I don't feel like talking about it…" I said each word carefully fighting back the tears. The sudden realization of what was happening had just hit me; I bit my lower lip and tried to come to peace with it.
Jacob had understood I guess because he hadn't spoken about it, instead he tried to take my mind off it. "Did you know I bought an x-box off of Embry, I don't get much time to play it because of going on patrols and stuff but maybe tonight we could?" He looked over at me with a half smile. "We'll see." I spoke lightly I really just wanted to think. He is my best friend but deep inside I feel like there could be more to us.
Before I knew it we, his little red house came into view, we were now in La Push. When the car parked I noticed Billy had just rolled out onto the porch. We both got out of the car – Jacob with my bag— and walked up to Billy. Billy had greeted me with a one armed awkward hug and a peck on the cheek. "Glad you decided to get a way for awhile." He said with a smile, I knew he was just glad I got away from Edward. "Yeah, and thank you, so much for letting me stay here." "Anytime Bella you can stay as long as you want."
I nodded and Jacob nudged me into the house – Billy continued to sit outside—when the door opened I felt relief wash over me, I was finally free.