Why had she done this to me? Why did she have to try and make me befriend that mutt? He was her best friend, stood by her when I left. There was no way that he would ever do anything to hurt her. No matter how much I wanted it, no matter how much he wanted it. I could sense his attraction to me the moment we laid eyes on each other for the first time. Being able to read minds was somewhat of a perk when it came to love. Knowing exactly how the other person feels about you makes it easier for you to make the first move. Maybe that's what attracted me to Bella in the first place, not being able to read her thoughts and see what she truly thought about me. Things were so perfect between us until he came into the picture. Now all I could think about was how his long brown hair taunted me, calling me in. How his beautiful tan skin looked so soft, so delicious. What I wouldn't do to touch him, even for a second. To feel his warm skin against my cool exterior.
Bella had no idea what she had caused by this meeting. How my mind was in complete turmoil. I loved her more than life itself, but with Jacob... There was a strong lustrous pull between us and neither of us could ignore it. I wanted him, he wanted me. It should been simple. Instead I had to stand and listen to Bella tell me how amazingly wonderful Jacob was, and listen to Jacob thinking to himself how amazingly wonderful he thought I was.
"Edward! Are you even paying attention to me?" Bella frowned playfully at me. She looked so cute and childlike when she did that. It was a shame I wasn't in one of the most Bella orientated moods.
"Of course I am dear." I smiled at her, placing a kiss on the top of her head. She soon seemed convinced, continuing to tell a story that I wouldn't remember in a few hours time. I cast my eyes towards Jacob and he blushed slightly. Yep, it was defiantly a bonus being able to read people's minds, however sordid their thoughts were at the moment. It wasn't long before I couldn't take the tension between us, I had to get out of there before I lost all self control. "Bella dear, Carlisle is calling for me, I'll see you later." Being a vampire with a mortal girlfriend was often a negative, especially when we got too intimate. It took all of my strength not to bite her, I could hardly concentrate on the pleasure. However, when I needed to get away for a while, her not having the hearing capability that I had really did come in useful. "Jacob, would you mind driving her home?" I asked, using the opportunity to gaze into his golden brown eyes.
He nodded, giving me a quick grin before watching Bella wrap her arms around me. I squeezed her back, but kept my eyes always in Jacob's direction. He blushed again, a cute pink that made his baby face even harder to resist. I gave him a smile before letting go of Bella and jumping into my Volvo. Focus Edward, you love Bella. You do not have feelings for him. It's sick, it's wrong. He's a werewolf for crissakes and you're a vampire. Get those thoughts out of you're head before you do something you regret.
JACOB'S POV
Why did Edward leave so fast? Did he really have to go, or was it my fault? That must be it, I repulsed him. He must of heard what I was thinking, hey Bella probably even heard it. It wasn't like I was trying to cover it up. How could I help myself though, he had to be one of the most gorgeous men I'd ever set eyes on. Too good for someone like me. Especially when he has Bella. Beautiful Bella, even I wanted her at one point... Until she went running back to him. Now I can see why she did. Why would she choose the ugly wolf when she had one of the most beautiful creatures in the world. Even if he was a blood sucker there was no denying that he was beautiful.
I could feel it, from the moment I'd laid eyes on him I knew what was happening. It was the strangest feeling I'd ever experienced. It was this tingle, I felt as though I'd finally become me. Up until now I was a lost soul. Now I'm complete. This would change so much. He'd been gone only a few minutes and I'd already felt like I was going to break down. He was my true soul mate, all I wanted to do was to love him, to protect him, to be with him forever. I'd finally imprinted.
"Jacob? What is it with you guys today? I thought you two were getting on. You never spoke much but... You have absolutely no right to ignore ME just because you dislike my boyfriend!" If only she knew. If only she knew that the reason that I was ignoring her was because not because I disliked Edward, rather the fact that I did like him. I loved a man I barely knew, someone I'd known for less than an hour. It was wrong. It shouldn't have happened like this. My best friend's boyfriend was my reason for living. When I wanted to be with him it meant having to watch the pair of them together. If he was really my soul mate though, does that mean that he has feelings for me also?
"I'm not feeling too good Bellz, how about I give you a lift back home so that I can get some rest?" I didn't want to ditch her, I just wasn't in the mood to talk. Not to her anyway. There was only one thing that I wanted to talk about and she was not the person that I could discuss my innermost feelings with. Not on that topic anyway. Bella frowned but let me take her home. We made small talk on the way home, discussing the weather, cars and other matters that didn't particularly interest me at that moment in time. I felt guilty for ignoring my best friend, even if she had brought it on herself.
I gave her a hug goodbye before speeding off back to the reserve. Problem. When I phase the other wolves will be able to know what I'm thinking. Stupid werewolf imprinting with a stupid leech. They had no idea that I was even attracted to men, that would cause slight embarrassment when phasing in front of each other. Imagine if they knew that I was completely head over heels... For a vampire. Looks like I'll be staying in human form for a while, eh.
EDWARD'S POV
His scent was fading, he was obviously heading back home. I hadn't stopped pacing since the moment I got back. I didn't know what I was going to do. Do I go behind Bella's back and leave her heartbroken? Or do I leave the idea of me and him, the moments when I do see him I'll make as brief as possible so that I don't get tempted? Yes. I'll do it for Bella. Even so, one last look couldn't hurt. I rushed out into the day, following his scent, being careful to stay as far from the road as possible so that I wasn't seen. I soon caught up with Jacob's car, he smelt so good for a wolf. Keeping up, I caught a quick glimpse of his face. He looked so sad. I tried to listen out for his thoughts. I never expected what I heard. Part of me felt excited, another felt torn. I didn't have the choice I thought I did. I thought I could decide between the two of them, but my choice was already decided for me.
I gave up resisting. Running onto the road I jumped in front of Jacob's car, causing him to stop abruptly. "Edward!" He shouted, not sounding angry at me, instead sounding relieved that I hadn't let him leave without saying goodbye propperly. "What are you doing here? Why the hell did you just jump in front of my car?" Instead of answering him I put my arms around him, moving too quickly for him to react. When he looked down at me I could see his mouth was twisted into a grin. "Oh." He said simply. Kissing the top of my head and wrapping his own arms around me.
"You imprinted on me didn't you?" I asked. I already knew the answer. I just wanted to hear it out loud. To know that we were destined to be together. He nodded, blushing that innocent blush that makes me melt inside. I'd only seen it a few times but it was still one of the most beautiful things I'd ever witnessed. I smiled. As much as I loved Bella, finally knowing that I had a definite purpose, that my change from human to vampire actually had a point. I had a soul mate. Jacob turned his head kissing me softly on the lips. It was as though it was the first time I'd ever been kissed.
Everything felt so perfect, his mouth fitted with mine perfectly. His thoughts let me know that he felt the same. He loved me, and I knew I was already starting to fall in love with him. Then his thoughts turned to something else, something much more intimate than kissing. I moved my hand down his back until I reached his ass. It was so firm, just the right shape. I couldn't wait to feel myself inside him and I could hear from what he was thinking that he felt the same. But it had to wait. Things had to be sorted between Bella and myself before we could take things any further.
No matter how I felt about Jacob I still loved Bella. I wasn't going to break her heart that badly. I knew it would hurt her tremendously already. There was no reason to hurt her anymore than need be. Jacob led me towards his car and helped me into the passenger side. I wasn't used to being in a car with someone else driving but I used my chance to relax so that I could focus all of my attention on Jacob. He looked so good, he even smelled quite good too. For a wolf anyway.
With one hand on the wheel, he used his other to softly carress my face. His skin was so warm, a lot warmer than Bella's. If my heart could beat it would be racing so fast right now. It was the feeling all new lovers had. As though their entire world revolved around that one person. With Jacob and I however, we were each other's entire world. The look in his eyes whilst he smiled at me was so intense. A single tear ran down my cheek. A vampire can only cry once, that has to prove how special he is to me. That I would use my one time to shed a tear in this one happy moment.
JACOB'S POV
I used my free hand to wipe away the tear on Edward's icy face. The cold didn't bother me, in fact I find it quite relaxing. I'd never seen a blood sucker cry before, with Edward it was a magical experience. I'd never seen anyone look so happy before. I never believed that I'd be able to make someone that happy. I always thought I'd ruin people's lives instead. Edward nudged me softly and I realized that we were there already. I'd tried to drive as slowly as possible but I knew we'd still end up here at some point. As I stopped the Rabbit, I used both my arms to pull Edward towards me and embrace him. He fitted perfectly into my arms. I wish I could have stayed there with him forever but after Edward and I had shared a passionate kiss he moved out of my arms and out of the car.
"I'll miss you, but I'll talk to you soon." He sighed when he looked into my watering eyes. "Don't cry, please baby." This time he stroked my cheek. I nodded, biting my lip to try and mask the pain.
"I love you, Edward." I said softly. He only nodded, leaving me alone in the car. I watched him walk up the front steps of Bella's house and then drove out of sight before Bella had a chance to see me. Part of me was scared, what if Bella wouldn't let him go? What if he'd lied to me and was really going to choose her? The other part was so happy, my life had changed so much in only a few hours. I felt sad as I passed the boarder. Now I might as well be on the other side of the world. He can't find me here.
The sun had barely even set when I fell into bed, my mind full of thoughts of Edward. My Edward. That last kiss was so passionate, so perfect that I soon fell asleep thinking about it. The sooner I fell asleep the sooner I woke up. Then I would be able to see him, to be with him forever. In my final few seconds before I fell completely unconsious I whispered goodnight to my love. He may not have heard it but it kept him with me in my unconsious state.