AN: I'm going to here and now that I know this is really bad but I'm bored and am just finishing the second chapter of my other story so I thought I would write this.

What if Bella had been trying to kill herself when she jumped off the cliff in new moon?

Cookie

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You don't want me?

No.

Those words had run through my head a million times since Ed….he…spoke then.

The day he left was the day my world ended. The day my sun died. Jacob had become a sort of replacement sun but he could never fill the hole in my sky. In my heart.

Jacob was my candle in the darkness, just enough light to live by.

I looked out onto the violent waves and sighed as I took a step closer to the edge of oblivion and to the only peace I would even know now.

Bella, what are you doing? Get away from there and go home!

I almost smiled at the furry in his voice.

Why? I asked in my head.

Bella please! Don't do this! Think of Charlie. Of Renee and Phil!

They would move on, Renee has Phil and Charlie's strong, he'd get by. I argued silently again.

Please! Bella! Don't do this!

I took the final step that led me to the edge as I closed my eyes.

Edward? I know your not real but I have to say this. I love you! I will always love you, but I have to do this. Its been so hard living without you. Like trying to breath underwater, its painful and its killing me! Jumping off this cliff wont kill me, because without you I'm already dead!

When you left you took away my heart and without it I'm nothing. Without you I'm nothing!

You took away my family too. Motherly and loving Esme. Compassionate and fatherly Carlisle. Jasper, Emmett my sweet protective brothers. Rosalie. Alice, sister and best friend!

I don't blame you for leaving though. I knew I was never good enough for you. I am a garden gnome next to your god like Adonis statue.

But remember this, no matter where you are, or why you left, I will always love you.

I stepped forward, throwing myself off the edge and into the watery grave below. Hearing nothing but the wind pass by my ears and a quiet howling in the distance.

Goodbye my love.