Love stinks it's nothing but pain and fear or just to me it was ,every liitle thing upsets me. Guys and girls dating kissing, it made me sick my friends always said to me I only felt that way because I haven't felt anything like it. Not one single crush on a boy well only once but that was in first grade. My friend Trent Perez we were pretending to get married because I said I liked him though to be honest we didnt no what a marriage was . So we took it as a game it was fun but I liked him alot. My best frind Scarlet said that I still liked him even though if I did I couldn't date him he was already dating another girl. Mia Santiago a preppy brunette with blue eyes only a nose percing not a big deal. But , I would always get jealous I wouldn't tell anyone." So ,thinking about Trent and his girl again" Scarlet said I swear that girl could read my mind at times.

"No, it's just my brother went into my room in the morning and poured water all over me, so I've been pissed all morning" I replied back to her in the most innocent voice I could make.

"Sure thats why you didn't notice the bell rang about two minutes ago your going to be late for sixth period"

" Oh Crap!Then why am I talking to you I have to go "

"oh and when you see Mia explain to her how you've fallen inlove with her boyfriend and will tear her apart if she doesn't dump him" Sometimes Scarlet scares , she like a mind reader I would never tell Mia that, I sure wanted to worst class in the school P.E. Well I had Bridgette there it made me feel alright."Gwendolyn , late an extra lap for you " My coach was extra nice this day he would usually make me run four extra laps.I stubbornly went to sit next to Bridgette. "Well ladies..." That was the only thing I heard the rest sounded like Blah, blah , Blah. " Gwen where were you? Still at luch day dreaming of Trent huh?" Dammit did I have my thoughts written on me or something. "No" I said shyly not wanting to reveal anymore, I didn't talk to her for the rest of the the end of the class , well P. E my legs were killing me . ' " Gwen!" I heard Trent say his voice always made me happy even blush at sometimes but not infront of then stopped me by standing infront of me how did he do that , but I noticed I wasn't moving at all.

" You want a ride home? Your legs must be killing you"Wow I really had my thoughts written somewhere or what.

" Sure , but is Mia coming too?" A little disapointment came over my face

" Na she has a ride home already"

" Why you want her to come" I wanted to say your all I need to make me happy,but he will think I'm weird .Though everybody thinks I'm weird I am goth.

"Um.. no just asking, Trent I might have to skip the car ride Scarlet is calling me "

" See ya later then " Lately we haven't been talking alot he's always wtih his stupid girlfriend Mia I had to admit I was jealous of her

"Scarlet what do you want, I was busy"In my thoughts I repeated what I said I knew Scarlet will come up with something ...

" Umm sure you were busy declaring your love for him"I just wanted her to shutup alredy and take me home I opened the front door no saying anything to her I was started to get pissed off by everybody invading my personal space.I slammed the car door every door I had to walk through to get to my I got to my room I started to burst in tears but silent tears I wanted Trent's arms around me comforting me. I was completely jealous at Mia because she was allowed to feel the feeling I've been missing love.I opened my window enough to see the stars in the sky wondering every little though I had all day why did this have to happen to me. I started to believe that the feeling love doesn't exist only pain and sorrow. Since my parents divorce I have felt empty like I was missing something in my life, maybe that something was Trent tomorrow was aleast a Saturday I day I enjoy I could finally talk to Trent or to his sisters were always nice well atleast when I talk to them, they could be harsh at times but the even experienced uh...Love.I layed back on my bed dreaming that one day I could be able to fall inlove or Trent can show me the way to this unfamiliar path known as love.