Title: Lost It All

Rating: M for violence in later chapters

Pairing: Past Jasper/Alice

Summary: When Alice kills herself because of how she is treated in school Jasper vows revenge. He does not think it is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all.

Disclaimer: I do not own anyone or anything from Twilight!

"Why did you do it Alice?" My voice was rough and raw from crying.

I am not sure how long it has been since I buried her deep in the woods since she had no family that would claim her and no friends and I couldn't afford a proper funeral. I wouldn't let them cremate her and I had claimed the body. She would rest forever in our spot and if I could I would have died with her. As it was I was having hard enough time not digging up the freshly placed dirt so I could lie with her.

"Would you love me if I was pretty and perfect like my sisters?" Her voice had cracked through the phone and I could barely make out her words.

"Where are you?" I needed to get to her before she did something stupid. The torment from the bitch posse must have extra intense today. "You are perfect Alice and if I wanted your sisters I would be engaged to them and not you. You are the one I love darlin'."

"I'm sorry I can't be what you need Jasper. I love you more than you will ever know, but I can't do this anymore. I am not strong enough to do this." A click indicated she had hung up and I had no idea those were the last words she would ever speak to me.

"I loved you just the way you were." I whispered placing my palms flat against the earth where she lies in a forever sleep. "Why would you listen to those whores over your own fiancée? I tried to tell you time and time again they were jealous of you. They wanted to make you feel worthless because they knew no matter how hard they tried they would never compare to you. I should have seen it coming since you were acting weird for days. I should have known you remembered where I hid my gun."

I searched every place I could think of and still I couldn't find her. Where would Alice go? I knew her better than I knew myself and eventually I had the sudden urge to go to the high school. It was where all her problems had started and I wouldn't be surprised if she went back there. If my Alice was going to make a dramatic gesture she would make sure it had meaning. She never did anything half assed and that is one of the many things I loved about her.

As I ran down the first hallway after entering the long since emptied school building I could see her past the second set of double doors. She was blurry looking due to the glass and I could not make out what exactly she was doing. It was when I saw the blurred metal object in her hand that I started running as fast as I could. "Alice!"

Just as I started running once more I heard a loud bang followed by a scream. I shoved the double wide doors open and froze. She was laying there with half of her face an unrecognizable mess of blood, flesh, and hair. No movement came from her chest to indicate her breathing. I fell down next to her on my knees and gently lifted her bloody head in to my lap. I saw my gun lying next to her on the ground and I picked it up. I held the black device to my head and closed my eyes before pulling the trigger. Nothing happened even though I kept on clicking the trigger waiting to be able to follow Alice. What else was I supposed to do?

"Come on damn it! Alice, Alice, Alice, I want to be with you. Why would you leave me?" After about the eleventh time I realized there had only been one bullet. My fiancée had known I would try to follow her in death and she had also made sure that I would not succeed. She wanted me to live on when I all wanted was to join her.

I threw the gun across the room in my anger and gently set what was left of my loves head on the cold and now blood red tile floor. I pressed my lips to hers as I sent my breath in to her lungs and started chest compressions. Deep down I knew they would have no effect and yet I had to try something, anything to keep her with me. "Baby please, please, open your eyes! Come on you can't leave me Alice! You promised we would be together forever. This doesn't seem like forever to me. Wake up! Wake up! Wake up! Come on Ali open your beautiful eyes for me. Don't leave me Alice. Stay with me! Alice…Alice…Alice…"

I have no idea how long I had stayed in this position with the love of my life. I must have stayed there for hours trying to revive her. I continued long after I knew she wouldn't be opening her eyes ever again or telling me she loved me. I simply kept working on her because there was nothing else I could do. This was the only hope I had even if it were a hopeless situation. It was the janitor who found me and called the police as he pulled me away from her body. I screamed the whole way to the station and then everything went black as a needle was shoved in my arm.

Feeling very heavy I let myself fall face first in to the dirt. "I can't do this without you baby. You are the only reason I have to live in this world and now you're gone. I swear that I will do whatever it takes to make this world tremble for your loss. I will kill every one of those bitches who took you away from me. I will make this world cower for taking someone as pure and wonderful as you only to take you out of it so quickly. Yes, that is exactly what I will do. I will make this world scream because if I have to suffer then so does every other single person in this world. I won't be the only one who has lost it all."

AN: My cousin and I decided to write this story together. It will not be a super long story and this came to mind because we both love Criminal minds and well we love the episode with Jackson Rathbone. This is just the introduction and other chapters will be longer.

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