Chapter One

"Don't ever touch me again! Are we clear on this?!" I asked jerking my arm from his hand sharply looking driectly in his brown eyes. That moment his eyes turned depressed and heartrbroken. This is not my fault. He made his decision two months ago and now he has to leave with the choice. I've always heard. You made the bed, so lay in it.

"Just listen, thats all I'm asking. Just 5 mins. Please! He asked pleading with me to not walk out of the hotel door. He knows that when I do,. its over. Theres no coming back. Period. I'm not going to have an on and off again relationship.

I nodded softly at him as I made my way over to the couch and watched him. I waited patiently for him to speak. The sadness in his brown eyes was there. Burned in my head for a lifetime. The glow was gone.

"I know what I did was wrong trust me. I didn't mean for this to happen and I regret it so bad that it makes my heartache because I'm losing you. I can see it. Everyone can see it. I just dont want to believe... Don't walk away and leave me to be without you. Don't make this end us." He said coming over to lean down in front of me.

I had to look away feeling the tears coming slowly down my cheeks. I had cry form the moment, i found out til now. There's nothing no one can do, but let me get through this. My heart won't let me stay with him right now. It's broken and no matter what he says or does can change that. I personally hate that. You can't fix something that can no longer be fixed. At this point, its not fixable.

Suddenly, I had a flashback...

Two months earlier...

I was walking into the kitchen when suddenly, i hear my name in a low whisper from some other girl's mouth. Her voice was rude and hateful.

"You told me we'd be together and you would leave her."

"I didn't say that and you know it. It's something that you have made up in your head." My boyfriend said in an angry whisper.

"I got proof pictures and a video. You look so cute when your sleeping." She said playful.

"You better watch your self." He said getting more mad by the minute.

"I bet your girlfriend would love to see how much you wanted me that night." The girl said with a small giggle.

That's I left to go back to the party passing people quickly and going out side on the balcony to catch my breath. This can't be hapening I thought. This is just a huge nightmare that I'm going to wake up from any minute now. Only, I didn't. I was fully awake and replaying that conversation in my head over and over again.

"Baby, what's wrong? I saw you rush out and I got worried." My boyfriend said coming over to me and placing arms around my shoulders slowly.

I moved away from him now and let him see the damage he has done. My make-up stained my face and my hands started to form a fist from so much angry within me right now.

"Your just like the rest of them. You cheated on me and I wanna know why?! I deserve to know what happened and how in the hell you ended up in someone's bed?! I said getting more and more upset by the minute.

His eyes moved away from me now and he placed one hand on his hip and the other running through his short hair. His face fell to the gray concrete ground. He tried to find words to keep me calm enough to talk. Not shout and scream like I usally do. In this case, I have every right to be upset and vice versa for him. I'm not the cheating the type though. Why cheat? Why go through all the trouble of having two people at the same tie? Pick one and be happy. It makes no sense. Sometimes, even one night stands. I wonder about people sometimes.

"It was a huge mistake baby, I promise. I didn't mean to sleep with her." He said moving toward me quickly.

I stepped back quickly and placed my hand up to stop him. The last thing i need right now is him all over me. All im picturing is him kissing that girl. I'm going to vomit i think. My stomach started to turn and i couldnt help, but run away from him. I just ran until I finally couldn't run anymore. Everything seemed to be out of order. We were on track. Right? We were happy. So i thought?

I made it to my car and pulled out my spot driving toward the highway quickly. All I wanted was to get away. To stop this hurt in my chest and to be normal again. That's never going to happen and I've got to realize this. I just went forward in my car not caring about the exit signs on the interstate.

"Baby." He whispered taking my face in his hands and looking me start in the eyes now. His brown eyes looked worried and sad. Everything seemed a big dream. Like he didn't cheat on me and he does still love me like he use to. Why can't i get past this and forgive? Because sooner or later this always happens to me. No matter what. I fall for the same lines everytime. Well, not this time dang it!

I removed his hands and got up from the couch slowly. My legs began to move over to the door and my hand stopped inches from the door as my face fell to the carpet this time. My tears began to run down my cheeks again. Suddenly, my lips moved soflty through the air.

"We're not fixable Dave."

Then I moved my hand to open the door and move out quickly. I moved down the hall of the hotel and into the stairs. Right when the door closed to the stairs, behind me, my body fell slowly to the ground and my face was buried into my knees for my crying spell to begin. I need to cry or I was never going to make it out of here.

Finally, after an hour of non-stop crying, I finally got up and walked down the steps to the parking garage where my mustang sat off the right by its self. A christmas gift from Dave. Something else to remind me of how we use to be. How happy we were. I miss that so much. I can't go back. So i started up the car and pulled out of the hotel parking lot. Leaving the man I love behind.

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