NOTE; i'm trying to write little one shots while I work on a fic so here's this little piece. Please leave a review or message if you have questions or comment. Thank you!
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When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart.
And when she was sad, I was there to dry her tears.
And when she was happy, so was I.
When she loved me
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Dear Regina,
The first time I met you, I was terrified. I had just brought Henry back home and when you asked me who I was, I thought of running back to my car. But I nervously answered and I swear you wanted to punched me in the face. But I went inside and had cider with you, that's when I realized how beautiful you were.
The first time I argued with you, I was set on winning. We both sure are stubborn. I remember when I was cutting down your apple tree, you came storming out. Looking back on it, I feel terrible that I did that, but damn it felt good at the time.
The first time I realized you weren't as cold hearted as everyone said you were was when Henry was stuck underground. You leaned so close to me, I didn't know if you were going to scream in my face or kiss me. But you looked into my eyes and told me to get Henry to safety. And that's when I realized that Henry was your entire world.
The first time I saw you cry was when Henry was in the hospital. I was so angry with you. I was so angry at everything. And it took me awhile to get over that anger. Of course I knew you would never intentionally hurt our son, but it still happened. But we got through it.
The first time I felt something between us was right before I went to FTL. You couldn't get Jefferson's damn hat to work but when I touched your arm, something sparked. I thought about it the whole damn time I was in FTL. I tried to pretend it didn't happen, tried to come up with a rational explanation but dammit it still stayed in the back of my head.
The first time I realized you somewhat cared about me was when you absorbed a death curse so mom and I could come back. Granted, you maybe shouldn't have put it there in the first place but I understand it was protection against Cora. I looked at you and saw how exhausted you were. You looked at me and said "Welcome back". and I swear, if Henry hadn't been hugging me so tight, I would have shaken your hand, or given you a hug. Just something to show that I was so grateful for what you did.
The first time I realized how hard your life has been was when Cora died. You put her heart in her chest and your face was so damn hopeful. You were hoping so bad that she would be the mom you needed. But it killed her and you were crushed. You stayed in your house for a week straight and I wanted to come visit you. I guess I just didn't know what to say to you.
The first time we ate lunch together was at Granny's. I saw you sitting alone and I decided we were going to talk. I sat down with my food and the look you gave me was priceless. You were so surprised and kept questioning what I was doing. After a while though, we struck up an interesting conversation and I decided I loved talking to you. Everyday after that, we ate lunch together.
The first time I realized I had feelings for you was when the whole town was about to be destroyed. You were going to sacrifice yourself to save everyone else. You looked at me with tears in your eyes and said "Let me die as Regina,". I swear I almost lost it. In that second, I thought about my life without you and couldn't stand the thought. I was willing to do anything to keep you safe. When we destroyed the gem together, I was so relieved.
The first time you hugged me was when we were in Neverland. Pan had given me the map and everyone was expecting me to somehow get all the answers. Then I said how I still felt like an orphan. And the look on my parents' faces killed me. They looked so hurt but I couldn't control the way I felt. They tried saying something to me and I got scared and ran. My mom was just about to chase after me but I heard my dad tell her to give me time. I sat on the jungle floor and cried. Hook tried to come and talk to me but I told him to leave. But then you came. You didn't say a word, just came over and sat close to me. After a while we began talking. You told me that everything was going to be okay. You said I wasn't alone, that I had my parents who would do anything for me. You said I had Henry, who loved me with his entire little body. And then you said something that surprised me. You said "And you have me. Who cares about you." I started sobbing but I was embarrassed. I kept apologizing to you and before I knew what was happening, you wrapped me in your arms and suddenly I felt better. You whispered "Stop your damn apologizing," and I couldn't stop laughing. I wrapped my arms around you and squeezed. We sat there hugging on the jungle floor and I felt like we could do anything together.
The first time I asked you out on a date was also terrifying. We had been back from Neverland for two weeks. Henry was at a friend's house so I decided to go to Granny's for a bear claw. I was contemplating whether or not to go to your house and ask you on a date. But I just couldn't muster the courage to do it. I walked in the diner and there you were, sitting at the counter with your legs crossed and your brown hair resting on your shoulders. You looked up and smiled your beautiful smile and I melted. I sat next to you and you started talking to me. I was trying so hard to listen to what you were saying but the voice in my head just kept screaming at me to ask you. I was so nervous I felt like I had 100 bees in my stomach stinging me. I suddenly blurted out "Do you want to go out on a date with me tomorrow night?" You were so shocked but a sweet smile came across your lips and you said that yes, you would love to. We discussed a time and place and you walked out of the diner smiling from ear to ear. I couldn't wait until the next day.
The first time we went on a date was magical. You looked so beautiful and I was so nervous. We went to some fancy smancy restaurant but I was only focused on you. We had a great dinner, the conversation never died and I realized you were one of the funniest people I knew. We didn't want to end the date, so I took you to go get ice cream, You were taking little licks from your cone and staring up at the moon and I thought about how lucky I was.
The first time we kissed was that night. I took you back to your house and walked you up to the door. I nervously stuck my hands in my pocket and told you I had a great time. You told me you were so glad we did this, then you kissed me. It was one of the most meaningful and tender kisses I had ever shared with anyone.
The first time we put a label on our relationship was two weeks had been doing things together almost every day for the two weeks. Sometimes it was just you and I but sometimes you, Henry, and I did something all together. It was great. I was over at your house watching a movie with you and Henry. Henry went to bed and I was resting my legs in your lap. I looked up and you sat there smiling like a dork. That's when I asked you what we were. You seem shocked at the question, not a bad shocked but more pleasantly surprised. Then you got all serious on me. You moved my feet off you, crawled into my lap, and placed your faces inches away from mine. I looked into your chocolate eyes and you said "Will you be my girlfriend?" It was one of the cheesiest damn things I'd ever heard and I loved it. I replied that I would, but only if you'd be my girlfriend and I kissed you. That night I couldn't stop smiling.
The first time I stayed over at your house was wild. We had been dating for two months. Henry was on a camping trip with my dad so we had the house to ourselves. We went out to a late dinner and We got back around 9. You were cleaning the kitchen while I sat cross legged on the counter talking to you. You walked up to me and I wrapped my legs around you. You picked me up and we began kissing. Our kissing became so passionate that we were both out of breath. You carried me up the stairs into your room and gently laid me on the bed. We began kissing and you started to take my shirt off. You suddenly stopped and looked me in the eyes. You asked me if I was ready because you didn't want me to feel like you were rushing anything. I told you I was ready. That night we made love and it was the greatest thing. Every night after that, I spent at your house.
The first time we got into a fight was terrible. It wasn't a little argument or anything like that. You were mad at me because Hook started eating lunch with me at the station. You told me that he was doing it to try and get into my pants and I told you that there was obviously nothing going on and you were just jealous. I stormed out of the house and went to the lake. Sitting on the bench I realized how crappy I felt. I knew I was wrong and you were right because I would be angry too if someone else was eating lunch with you. After an hour, I went back to the house to find you sitting on the couch, tears running down your cheeks. I told you I was sorry for being an idiot and that I didn't mean to hurt you. You told me that I was indeed an idiot, but then you kissed me. I told you that we would be able to work through whatever happened.
The first time i said I love you was when you were sleeping. I woke up one morning to see you cuddled next to me. Your face was half covered by your hair and the other half was covered in sunlight. You were sound asleep and I leaned over and kissed your head. I brushed your hair out of your face and said "I love you,". Then I snuggled back up to you and fell back asleep.
That was also the last time I got to say those words to you. I wish I would've said those words to you when you were awake. God Regina, I wish I would have. Because now you're gone and I can't say it to you out loud. The accident happened so fast I couldn't even process what my dad was telling me.
It's been two months since you've been gone. Henry and I miss you like crazy. We're always going to be missing you. I was lucky enough to love you and I'm grateful for the time we were together. Every night at dinner Henry and I tell a story about you and you should see him. His eyes light up whenever he says your name. He's such a good kid, you raised him so well. He's so strong too, he's strong enough for the both of us. One night around 2 in the morning I was sitting in bed crying. Henry came in and hugged me. He didn't say anything, he just held me while I cried, like you used to do whenever I got upset. He tries to be strong for me but there are nights when I catch him crying. I try my best to comfort him but I don't think he'll ever truly be himself. He lost his mom. And I lost a big piece of my heart that no one can ever refill. Wherever you are, Regina just know that I love you. I loved you when you were here, I love you now, and I'll love you forever.
Your love,
Emma