Michael and Jan JUST moved in together. Dr. Perry gives Jan advice to start writing a journal…including her thoughts, goals, feelings, just anything that's on her mind…

I just wanted to make a quick note on my thoughts on Dr. Perry and the relationship her and Jan have: 1st of all I think Dr. Perry is an middle aged woman…her and Jan's relationship, I can see, is a lot of sarcasm. Jan can be pretty stubborn and sarcastic, so Dr. Perry dishes it right back…so be prepared that there's going to be sarcasm between them. It's kind of funny actually

Jan is in the middle of her session with her psychiatrist.

"You guys are living together?" Dr. Perry asks her surprised.

Sighs, "Yeah, as of yesterday."

Surprised even more since she didn't think it was that new, "Oh! Wow…"

"Yeah so I've been kinda busy unpacking."

"But not too busy to schedule an impromptu session?" Before Jan can answer, Dr. Perry continues, "So I take it, then, by living together, that you ARE in love with this man."

"Wha-no, I'm NOT in love with him."

"Okay…then what are you?"

Get's defensive, "Just because we're living together doesn't mean we have to be in love. I'm out a job, so he just offered me his place because he knew I'd eventually lose my apartment"

Sarcastically, "Wow, I see why you don't love him, he only offers his home to you…"

Jan's still in her defense mode, "So every time a guy offers his home to me, I HAVE to be in love with him?"

"Jan let's be realistic here. Okay here's what I want you to do…"

Sarcastically, "What? Another one of your weird exercises? Do I need to close my eyes for this, maybe I need to sit Indian style…"

"Fine…forget it….if that's how you feel, then I guess I can't help you." She looks at the clock, "well good session today…I feel like we've accompli…"

Jan senses her sarcasm and jumps in, "okay, okay, what is it? What do you want me to do?"

"I want you to keep a journal, I want you, starting today, to write down your thoughts, goals, feelings, anything that's on your mind.."

Jan crosses her arms, "and what is this going to accomplish?"

"Trust me, writing down anything that might be upsetting you lifts a great weight off your shoulders…it's like venting on paper…"

"Well why can't I just call you and vent to you on phone?" She's mocking her…

"Because I don't have that much time…So will you try it?"

"Fine."

Later-Jan is just getting back. It's about 3 in the afternoon…Michael should be home in about 2 hours. She made a run to Target to pick up a journal. She's still not exactly sure about this, but she at least needs to TRY it. Even though she's not sure what good this is going to do, like Dr. Perry said, it'll keep her occupied once she's settled in. She takes a look around the condo at all the boxes. She takes a deep breath and decides that she'd actually rather be writing than packing. She has a lot on her mind.

First Entry: 3:10 pm

'Alright here I go…I'm taking Dr. Perry's advice and I'm going to try writing my 'thoughts' down. I should be unpacking, but that can wait right now…I'm still not sure what this is going to quote, unquote 'accomplish', but we'll see…So I had an interesting session with Dr. Perry. She seems to believe that I'm in love with Michael, which I am NOT…I repeat I am NOT in love with him…that's all I'm going to say on the matter. This is ridiculous. I can't write in here.'

Jan decides to get a box unpacked, when she glances back at the journal and thinks that maybe she just didn't try hard enough, she picks the journal up again:

3:15

'Ok, I'm going to give this another chance. Plus I really don't feel like unpacking. Hmm…kinda quiet around here. I'm so used to all of the noise of New York City. I'm really going to try and get a few boxes unpacked before Michael gets home. He should be home in 2 hours. I still can't believe that I'm living here now. Dr. Perry was right-no-not about the love part. She was right about how nice Michael actually is. Just last night, he was telling me to make myself feel at home and to not feel weird about anything. Which I know it's only been a day, but it doesn't feel weird at all. Granted, when he was telling me that, he was shaking. I'm sure he didn't think that I noticed, but I did…it was kind of cute actually. I mean this IS he first time living with a woman. Well one that isn't his mother…whom by the way, I'm meeting for the 1st time this weekend. If she's anything like Michael, that's just great. If you didn't catch that, that was sarcasm. But of course you didn't because you're just a stupid journal. A stupid journal who can't hear me. Yet, I still keep writing'

Jan gives up once again…There's an hour and forty five minutes until Michael should get home. She decides to get a box unpacked. She still keeps thinking about the journal the whole time she's unpacking. It doesn't feel like any weight was lifted off her, that was only because she wasn't mad about anything. Maybe she'll try again…

3:45

'I only unpacked a box, but I thought to write some more. The box I unpacked was all of my shampoos and body wash's and perfumes. That kind of stuff. Okay Jan, what's on your mind? Hmm…okay, like nothing's on your mind. Come on, there's gotta be something. God this is so stupid…this isn't working. Maybe I could write about how irritated I am about this STUPID exercise.'

Okay finally 5:15 rolls around. Michael should be home any second

Pacing the floor a little, looking outside the window every now and then. To herself, "Its 5:15. Where is he? He should be home by…"

Just then, Michael walks in, "Hey."

"Hey you, I was starting to get worried."

"Really? That's so sweet." He gives her a kiss, "I was getting worried that you weren't going to be here when I got home…"

"Did I say 'worry'? I meant bored . There's nothing to do around here."

"I've got a great idea. You could unpack."

"That's not boring to you?" Smiles.

"So have you eaten yet?"

"No nothing."

"All day?"

"It's not that big a deal."

"Remember Jan. Don't feel weird here. 'mi casa es su casa.'"

"I remember. You said it like 8 times last night." She lets out a little laugh.

"You must have a lot on your mind?"

"Apparently not." She crosses her arms.

"What do you mean?"

"Oh its just Dr. Perry suggested that I start keeping a journal. So I go to Target, pick up my journal, get home, get comfy on the couch, when it came to actually writing in it, my mind froze. I had nothing to write about except how lame writing in a journal was." She laughs.

"So do you think you'll keep up with it?"

"Probably not. Especially if my mind goes blank again. I'm not even sure what this is supposed to accomplish. Maybe it's supposed to make my mind blank….like it should clear my mind…"

"Yeah. Or you need to eat something."

"That could be it too."

"Or maybe you're just going through what I go through sometime. Writer's block. It happens every now and then with writers…where their mind goes blank."

"You've had writer's block?" Tries not to laugh…

"Well I don't like to admit it but yes…remind me to show you my screenplay sometime.."

"A screenplay?"

"Yeah, its about this agent guy who tries to save the world…but his idiotic sidekick is causing the downfall of the united states. He also needs to try and save a woman in trouble…Miss Zeta-Jones."

Doesn't really know what to say, "wow…sounds…sounds exciting."

"It really is."

Decides to change the subject, "So uh how was work? Do you miss me?"

"Of course. I'm just glad I know that I get to come home to you every day."

He kisses her. When he pulls away, Jan pulls him closer and kisses him again, tenderly, "thank-you."

"For what?"

"Well for opening up your home to me. It really means a lot."

"Well I couldn't let my girlfriend be homeless…to be honest with you I WAS a little nervous about this whole moving in thing, but now? It's nothing to worry about!" They kiss again. This time more with more passion. This goes on for some time when Jan speaks first, seductively, "Do you want to move this to the bedroom?"

"No" He kisses her.

Surprised, "What? You want to?… right here?" Backs away.

"No I want to get you something to eat."

Steps closer to him again, and wraps her arms around his neck, "But I want you." She gives a him a hot kiss.

"You can have me for dessert." He gives her a seductive smile. "How does that sound?"

"Hmm," She kisses him, "that sounds," smiles, "tasty."

"Alright, then how about we go to," Thinking, "The Vineyard?"

"The Vineyard? You mean to tell me that there's more than a Chilies around here?" Smiles

Later that night- Michael is in the shower and Jan is in bed, waiting for him. She decides to write in her journal again…about her and Michael's night. And she'd rather write in it now, before Michael gets out. She doesn't want him to see her writing in it.

10:45pm

'Michael and I actually had a great time tonight. I never thought that I'd say 'Michael' and 'great' in the same sentence. I feel like I'm really learning about him and it really isn't all that bad. I'm slowly starting to realize that working for Corporate really interfered with our relationship…Anyways dinner was excellent. Michael only embarrassed me 3 times when usually it's the whole night. Tonight he paid the waiter to sing 'Happy Birthday' to me! That was so humiliating. He's says I need to come out of my shell. What shell? He can be so irritating like that sometimes! Ok enough about that. That was probably what made me the most mad…I learned some more about his mother. Kinda preparing me for the weekend. I'll admit, I'm nervous about meeting her. I don't think that I was ever good at the 'meeting the parents' thing. I guess the last time I met anyone's parents was when I was with Richard. His parents were horrible. For one, they were both very successful, selfish, rich people. Especially his father…and you know what they say 'like father, like son'. Richard was also an only child. Never marry an only child. They are selfish, and whiny, and look out if they don't get what they want. Which hardly ever happens. I realize Michael's an only child too. But it's so different with him. He's not selfish at all. It's not all about him and his wants. And that's what makes them different…Michael told me that I have nothing to worry about with his mother. That she's going to fall in love with me. Weird…I know. But like I said before, if her and Michael are anything alike, it probably doesn't take that much for them to fall in love. Well…it sounds like Michael is out of the shower, so I best be going….one more thing, I really hate to admit this, but writing in here isn't so bad after all. It really DID take some weight off my shoulders. I'll talk to ya tomorrow…night!'

Hope ya liked it. Let me know if I should continue!