Tyson POV
It all began a few weeks ago, when we were on vacation, it was night and we were walking on the beach I was with Kai and the others guys were walking on the street because they were cold.
At one point we heard Max talking to us:
"Hey, guys, we are going to stay here, we are tired of walking, you can go on if you want, we can meet up later" Max told us
"Okay" Kai answers, he always so talkative, I'm being sarcastic; of course, Kai isn't a guy that likes to talk too much.
Then we walked a few steps more and we realized that we were tired as well so I told him:
"Kai I'm tired of walking, my feet hurts"
"Yeah, me too, actually I was going to tell you exactly the same" He told me
"If you want we can stay here, sitting, watching the sea" He told me and even though it was dark I could see he was blushing.
I didn't made any comment about that because I was not in better conditions to be honest. So we sat there, looking at sea, talking and enjoying the nice air for a while. Well actually the only one talking was me; Kai only made a comment once in a while about what I was saying.
Did I say that everything started when we were on vacation? Well, scratch that, the truth is that it all began one year ago, when I started to realized that being near Kai made me nervous, that every time he touch me I could feel something rare in my stomach, you call it butterflies, but I don't like that term so I will refer it as something rare.
I also started to realize that I was less and less interested in girls, kissing a girl was not the same as before anymore and every time Kai said something nice about me I couldn't stop myself from blushing so that was when I realize that I was gay and I had a crush on Kai, it wasn't easy at first to accepted it but that is what I am and I can't help it.
I was sure that I had no chance with Kai; he is a hot guy, for real. Even though he doesn't have a girlfriend, he goes on dates with girls all the time, all the girls die for him. That how he is, he's very very handsome.
I had never told anyone about my not so new discovery about my sexuality until well, those holidays that I was talking about before.
And coming back to that day while we were on the beach in those famous vacations…
After a while I realized that Kai was serious, tense and a little nervous so I asked him
"Kai, is something wrong?"
"No, not really, it's just that I want to tell you something but I don't know how" he told me, I could see he was worried and a little scared as well, I think he was even shaking a little.
"Come on Kai, we are friends you know you can tell me anything you want" I told him, I was intrigued, it was not usual on Kai to be like that, he always seemed to be so sure of himself and acted like nothing scared him.
And when finally he told me what he had to say, I couldn't believe my ears, I was paralyzed; shocked I never thought that Kai will confess something like that, not in a million years
Kai POV
I was sitting on the sand with Tyson, we were on vacations, it was night and it was a cold outside.
There was something that I was keeping to myself but I needed to tell someone about that or I would've explode and I thought that was the perfect moment and the perfect person to tell what had to say however it wasn't easy, I'm not a guy that talks too much, and I totally don't like to talk about myself but it seemed like that little not so little secret of mine didn't want to stay just with me, it just wanted to get out in the open.
Tyson was talking to me and I couldn't stop thinking about how will I tell him what I wanted to say, every time I tried to tell him I was just speechless, I said before that I don't like to talk about me, but it's not because I'm shy or something like that, it's just because that is how I'm, if have to say something I will say it without a problem, but for some reason this time was different , I was a little scared and nervous I was even shaking but that was because of the wind, I mean it was midsummer but it was cold, that's why I was shaking of course, not because I was scared or anything.
Tyson notice that I was nervous and tense and being the good person he is he asked me if something was wrong. At that moment I think that I got even more nervous than before, I was planning to tell him but not at that instant I haven't figured out how to tell it yet. I was starting to panic. So I took a deep breath and told him that I had something to tell him but I didn't know how and he told me:
"Come on Kai, we are friends you know you can tell me anything you want"
Those words calmed me down a little, but I still couldn't say anything, he was looking at me waiting for me to say something
"so..?" He asked me after a while when he realized I couldn't speak, I was opening and closing my mouth like a fish but nothing came out of my lips.
So, finally I looked at the ground, took a deep breath, close my eyes, let out a sigh and with the little amount of courage that I had at the moment I told him:
"ithnkmgy" I said it so quickly that I don't even understand what I had said and when I looked at Tyson I realized that he hadn't understand it either.
"What? I didn't understand a single word you said" He told me with a confused look on his face
I repeat everything again, I looked at the ground, I breathed, I sigh, and then said:
"I think I am gay" I sighed again a little relieved for getting that off my chest. I knew he was not going to judge me for my sexuality, that´s why I trusted him to be the first one to know it.
After I said that I could see he was in shocked he was paralyzed with his mouth open, I could see he was totally surprise, I'm pretty sure he never thought I would say something like that in my life. I was sure that will be his reaction after all I was all the time going out with girls but I did that just because I wanted to convinced myself that I didn't like guys, but I couldn't even convinced myself. I couldn't help it but laugh at him, he looked so funny.
"Are you going to say something or will you stay with face all day?" I told him joking and elbowing him slowly to make him react.
"Ah..aghh..aghs." That was everything he said, now the fish was him, opening and closing his mouth. I just laughed and said:
"I supposed you were going to react that way" Then he shook his head and said:
"Kai Are you serious? Or are you playing with me?" he told me and then added:
"If it's true, it fine, you know I won't judge you for anything, but it's just that I was not expecting you to said something like this"
I laughed again and told him
"Yeah, it's true, it was even hard for me to believe it at first , but it's true, and I'm more convinced every day about that" I told him, now that I have said it, it was easy for me to talk
At that moment I looked at him and all my doubts were gone, I definitely like guys, Yeah, the first person that made me doubt about my sexuality was Tyson, being near him, talking with him was just so good; everything was different when I was with him and while looking at those blue beautiful eyes I had no more doubt anymore I wanted to kiss him so badly, but I didn't do it.
However I don't consider myself totally gay, I will say I'm bisexual, I liked girl as well, sometime they bored me a little but I don't dislike them either.
"Well I'm not completely gay anyway, I like girls as well, I consider myself bisexual, you are the only one who knows this" I told him
"Wow, thanks for trusting me Kai" he told me and smiled
I think I was melting inside at that moment, but then he got serious, looked at the ground and told me:
"I got something to tell you too, I think it's fair to tell you, as you told me" I looked at him confused
"I…I .. I'm gay too, but just gay" he told me
"Wow, I was not expecting that" I told him and it was true I was not expecting him to be gay, now I have the hope that something can happen between us, I mean, I know that the fact that he is gay as well doesn't mean that he likes me, but who know in the future what can happen. And suddenly I had a doubt so I asked him:
"Mm.. Have you ever kissed another guy?" I was a little embarrassed asking that and I don't even know why.
"No, not really, I know I'm like that because I'm not interested in girls anymore, actually I'm pretty sure I have a crush on a guy and what about you?"
"No, me neither, the thought has crossed my mind a lot of times of course, but I have never had the possibility" I told him looking at him in the eyes, we were silent for a moment but then he told me:
"and if, if we…" he didn't end what he was going to said but I knew anyway what he wanted to said and I confirmed it a few second after when he said:
"I know, it might be a little stupid but as you have never kissed a guy and neither have I" he scratch his neck nervous and then said:
"I was thinking that maybe we .. we could kiss each other and see what it is like to kiss another man" he was as red as tomato and it was extremely funny
"That's fine by me" I told him smiling. I was not going to miss this opportunity
So I took his face on my hands, brought him closer and kissed him, his lips were so soft, then the kiss got more intense, his tongue was on my mouth and mine was in his, after a while I realized that Tyson was on top of me so I laid down on the sand, my hands were still on his face and his hand were on my hair, we were having a nice make out session in the middle of the beach, it was awesome. My body was starting to react by itself and I could feel that Tyson wasn't in better conditions. I was so turned on. I haven't felt something like that while kissing someone in so long.
Then we switched position and he was against the sand I was on top of him, we keep on kissing for a while I believe that both of us were well aware that the idea of kissing each other just to see how it was to kiss another man had gotten out of hand this was something more. At that moment I started to think that being like this with Tyson was even better than having sex with a girl, maybe I'm bisexual but with a preference on men or maybe it´s just that the one I was kissing was Tyson and that made everything different, with the majority of the girls I had been with I had only have physical attraction and nothing more, but with Tyson is different because I feel physical attraction and sentimental attraction for him as well.
After a while a broke away the kiss, we both were breathing heavy, it was moment to talk, we couldn't be all our life kissing each other like that, even though I wouldn't have mind that.
"Wow, that was wow, incredible" He said, and he couldn't have described it better
"Yeah, wow" I said and we both laughed, I think it was time to clear thing, or maybe not.
"Did the kiss clarify any doubt about whether you were or weren't gay? I asked him stupidly
"Really Kai? Was it necessary to ask?, of course I have no doubts now" He told me, I laughed and then told him:
"I just had to ask"
"And what about you? Do you have any doubt? He told me smiling knowing that I had no doubt before even asking
"Not at all" I told him shaking my head to emphasis the answer
"Definitely gay or at least bisexual with a preference on man, I'm so sure about the last one" I told him
We both were laughing and then we stayed staring at each eyes for a while till he said:
"Thank you " he told me and I look at him confused
"For accepting, about the kiss" He told me after
"You don't have to thank me anything, it helps me out as well, I should be the one telling you thank you for having the idea" I told him
"And besides I didn't do it as favour, I did it because I wanted to" I continued and then I added:
"I didn't want to kiss you just to know how it feels to kiss another man, I actually wanted to kiss you" I told him and I couldn't believe that I actually told him that, but I did.
Tyson was looking at me confused and a little shocked but then said:
"This day is getting better and better" he laughed and then kissed me surprising me, I kissed him back and then told him:
"Does this mean what I think it means?" he laughed and then told me
"I don't know what you are thinking but I guess it does" I kissed him again and we stayed like that for a moment
"it means that I like you and you like me and we can be gays and happy together" He told me jokingly
"So, this means the same" I told him and we both laughed
After a while we came back with the boys, they were still in the same place sitting in a bench that was there, they were eating some snacks we stay there for a while talking and then we returned to the house.
Now a few weeks have pass, we came back to our normal life, far away from those holidays, one week ago we told the guys about our relationship, and hopefully they took the news in a good way they were even happy for us, and Rei even told us that he knew it was going to happen. We haven't come out to our families yet, but there is still a lot of time to do that.
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